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It's the first time I've ever heard Carly played in public, and I was shocked that it was something from E•MO•TION instead of just Call Me Maybe. I had to do a triple take when I heard it come over the speakers. I thought I was having a stroke for a second lol.

What did we do to deserve being blessed by our queen in this way? It took a few listens for this song to really click with me, but it's an absolute masterpiece. I still don't care for that strange "World is on fire, world is on fire" chanting in the intro and post-chorus, but the rest of the song is more than euphoric enough to make up for it. The chorus is absolutely HEAVENLY and the outro is one of the best things Carly has ever done.

This is a very different sound for her, but it's outstanding, as always. Carly never fails to deliver!

This post is long and deeply personal. I am mostly just pouring my heart out here and attempting to convey what this song means to me.

A little over a month ago, my ex-girlfriend and I ended our relationship over an irreconcilable difference in our future goals. We were best friends for four years before we started dating. It took me a long time—and a few rather obvious hints on her end—to work up the courage to tell her how I felt, and to my relief and elation, she completely agreed.

We dated for several months, and it did not take me long to realize how much I adored her and that she was truly the love of my life. I wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of my life by her side. The first "I love you" came much faster than in most relationships, but considering the four years of repressed feelings and the strength of our bond, it made perfect sense. I was the happiest I had ever been. I now wonder if I will ever find that again. Within a single day, my entire world came crashing down with that mutual realization. It was over.

We both agreed that we would remain friends, keep in touch, and support each other through this. However, it did not take her long to seemingly completely move on and start becoming cold, distant, and no-contact for days at a time. Gone without a trace. On top of the monumental grief that I was forced to endure, I felt more betrayed than I ever had before. I still do.

Enter In My Darkest Hour. Megadeth is one of my favorite bands, and I have always appreciated the emotional impact, lyrical depth, and incredible musicianship of this song. However, with what I am currently going through, I feel this song in my soul. Every lyric feels like it was written for my situation, and I have been listening to it on repeat for several weeks. The lyrics hit incredibly hard, and Dave's songwriting has helped me to understand exactly what I am feeling. He put it into words so well.

"In my hour of need, ha, no, you're not there, and though I reached out for you, wouldn't lend a hand. Through the darkest hour, your grace did not shine on me. Feels so cold, very cold, no one cares for me."

"You'll never know how hard I tried to find my space and satisfy you too. Things will be better when I'm dead and gone. Don't try to understand. Knowing you, I'm probably wrong, but, oh, how I lived my life for you, 'til you turned away. Now, as I die for you, my flesh still crawls as I breathe your name. All these years, thought I was wrong, now I know it was you."

"Alone I call to ease the pain, yearning to be held by you alone. So alone, I'm lost, consumed by the pain. The pain, the pain, the pain, won't you hold me again? You just laughed, haha, bitch."

I would be lying if I said things have gotten any easier in the past month. At times, they have gotten even harder. I am still struggling to get from one day to the next, and I still wonder if I will ever be able to love someone again after this. Regardless, though, the impact that this song has had on me cannot be overstated. Dave is a lyrical genius, and In My Darkest Hour is a true masterpiece.