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My father and brother are threathening to kill me

My dad and brother are threathening to kill me

I am trying to find the right words to express how i feel… but what i am getting is my hands shaking while writing.

I grew up in an arab strict muslim community. They used to beat me a lot, whether i make a mistake or no… sometimes even without reason.

My brother used to push my head on the wall and beat me so bad just because he does not like what i wear or if i do not follow the rules he was imposing on me. My dad never made me feel he cares about me. The last incident made me hate him deeply… my phone rang, he took it from me and started shouting “who are you talking to??” He was shaming me, saying i will ruin their reputation. I pushed back and he brought a knife from the kitchen and started threatening me. He put me on the ground and started hitting me with his legs like i am nothing. Like an animal. I had no one to call. Nowhere to go.

They forced me to wear hijab. I wore it just to silence them, not because i wanted it.

I started learning English slowly with whatever i had. Then i started teaching toddlers in the house. I saved money, little by little, and i booked a ticket to Dubai and left in 2023.

I started working with very low pay just to survive. Then i found a slightly better job, but still i could not save anything. Maybe it is stupid, but i never had a life before… so i was trying to feel like a woman, even in small things.

Then one day my brother found my TikTok account. He called me, my dad was with him. They kept threatening me… telling me “stay there, we do not need shame, we will kill you.”

I tried to ignore it and continue working because i am waaaay far away. They are in another country and i am in Dubai. But then everything collapsed. The situation here got worse, my job got affected, and they made me sign 5 months unpaid leave and leave the accommodation also. This is all because of the war. When Iran attacked UAE , the hospitality feild got effected.

I felt paralyzed. Completely lost. I did not know where to go or how to survive. I tried to find another job, but all i get is rejection.

I feel so lonely in this big world. I feel like i am breaking a little more every single day.

Why am i alone? Why i do not have a family that loves me as who i am?

Was i born by mistake?

I am questioning everything but there are no answers. No one is answering.

I do not want anything big. I just want people to feel… even a little.

People here look down at you if you do not have power. They judge you based on what you wear, what position you have.

I did not choose this life. I did not choose to be in this position.

I am so scared. I do not what to do or where to go. My heart is beating so fast.

I do not want to go back. I can never live with them again.

Can anyone tell me why this is happening?

Does anyone have a real answer?

My dad and brother are threathening to kill me

I am trying to find the right words to express how i feel… but what i am getting is my hands shaking while writing.

I grew up in an arab strict muslim community. They used to beat me a lot, whether i make a mistake or no… sometimes even without reason.

My brother used to push my head on the wall and beat me so bad just because he does not like what i wear or if i do not follow the rules he was imposing on me. My dad never made me feel he cares about me. The last incident made me hate him deeply… my phone rang, he took it from me and started shouting “who are you talking to??” He was shaming me, saying i will ruin their reputation. I pushed back and he brought a knife from the kitchen and started threatening me. He put me on the ground and started hitting me with his legs like i am nothing. Like an animal. I had no one to call. Nowhere to go.

They forced me to wear hijab. I wore it just to silence them, not because i wanted it.

I started learning English slowly with whatever i had. Then i started teaching toddlers in the house. I saved money, little by little, and i booked a ticket to Dubai and left in 2023.

I started working with very low pay just to survive. Then i found a slightly better job, but still i could not save anything. Maybe it is stupid, but i never had a life before… so i was trying to feel like a woman, even in small things.

Then one day my brother found my TikTok account. He called me, my dad was with him. They kept threatening me… telling me “stay there, we do not need shame, we will kill you.”

I tried to ignore it and continue working because i am waaaay far away. They are in another country and i am in Dubai. But then everything collapsed. The situation here got worse, my job got affected, and they made me sign 5 months unpaid leave and leave the accommodation also. This is all because of the war. When Iran attacked UAE , the hospitality feild got effected.

I felt paralyzed. Completely lost. I did not know where to go or how to survive. I tried to find another job, but all i get is rejection.

I feel so lonely in this big world. I feel like i am breaking a little more every single day.

Why am i alone? Why i do not have a family that loves me as who i am?

Was i born by mistake?

I am questioning everything but there are no answers. No one is answering.

I do not want anything big. I just want people to feel… even a little.

People here look down at you if you do not have power. They judge you based on what you wear, what position you have.

I did not choose this life. I did not choose to be in this position.

I am so scared. I do not what to do or where to go. My heart is beating so fast.

I do not want to go back. I can never live with them again.

Can anyone tell me why this is happening?

Does anyone have a real answer?

I am trying to find the right words to express how i feel… but what i am getting is my hands shaking while writing.

I grew up in an arab strict muslim community. They used to beat me a lot, whether i make a mistake or no… sometimes even without reason.

My brother used to push my head on the wall and beat me so bad just because he does not like what i wear or if i do not follow the rules he was imposing on me. My dad never made me feel he cares about me. The last incident made me hate him deeply… my phone rang, he took it from me and started shouting “who are you talking to??” He was shaming me, saying i will ruin their reputation. I pushed back and he brought a knife from the kitchen and started threatening me. He put me on the ground and started hitting me with his legs like i am nothing. Like an animal. I had no one to call. Nowhere to go.

They forced me to wear hijab. I wore it just to silence them, not because i wanted it.

I started learning English slowly with whatever i had. Then i started teaching toddlers in the house. I saved money, little by little, and i booked a ticket to Dubai and left in 2023.

I started working with very low pay just to survive. Then i found a slightly better job, but still i could not save anything. Maybe it is stupid, but i never had a life before… so i was trying to feel like a woman, even in small things.

Then one day my brother found my TikTok account. He called me, my dad was with him. They kept threatening me… telling me “stay there, we do not need shame, we will kill you.”

I tried to ignore it and continue working because i am waaaay far away. They are in another country and i am in Dubai. But then everything collapsed. The situation here got worse, my job got affected, and they made me sign 5 months unpaid leave and leave the accommodation also. This is all because of the war. When Iran attacked UAE , the hospitality feild got effected.

I felt paralyzed. Completely lost. I did not know where to go or how to survive. I tried to find another job, but all i get is rejection.

I feel so lonely in this big world. I feel like i am breaking a little more every single day.

Why am i alone? Why i do not have a family that loves me as who i am?

Was i born by mistake?

I am questioning everything but there are no answers. No one is answering.

I do not want anything big. I just want people to feel… even a little.

People here look down at you if you do not have power. They judge you based on what you wear, what position you have.

I did not choose this life. I did not choose to be in this position.

I am so scared. I do not what to do or where to go. My heart is beating so fast.

Can anyone tell me why this is happening?

Does anyone have a real answer?

I am trying to find the right words to express how i feel… but what i am getting is my hands shaking while writing.

I grew up in a strict community. They used to beat me a looot, wether i make a mistake or no…

My brother used to push my head on the wall and beat so bad just in case he does not like what i wear or i do not follow the rules he was imposing on me. My dad never made me feel he cares about me. Last incident that made me hate him so much is when my phone rang, he took it from me and he said to whom you are speaking??? He was shaming me telling me u will ruin our reputation !! I pushed back and he brought the knife from the kitchen and was threatening me !!!! He put me on the ground and start hitting me with his own legs like an animal. I had no one to call. I had nowhere to go. I wanted to suicide that night.

They also kept forcing me to wear hijab. I had to wear it to silence them !!!

I started learning English slowly with whatever sources i have. Then, i taught toddles in our house. After i made some money, booked a ticket to Dubai and left in 2023.

I started working with a low pay just survive.. then i changed the job which in better circumistances but i was not able to save anything. I know this is stupid of me. Because i did not have a life there.. i was rewarding myself even for small things to be i am a woman. Then one day, my brother came across my tiktook acount and he saw my video. He called me and my dad was also on the phone .. they kept threathening me.. telling me stay there !!! We do not need shame!!! We will kill you !

I did not care much because i was working. However, things did not go as expected. The war came.. (Iran started attacking UAE) and my job got effected. They gave me a paper to sign 5 months unpaid leave and i have to leave the accomodation.

I was paralysed. I did not know where to go and how to survive. I felt like my back is broken. I tried to look for a job but all what i am getting is rejection.

I feel so lonely in this big world. I feel like i am in danger to the point i wanna end my life. I took the last salary and rented for a month. I feel like i am going crazy each and everyday. Why i am alone ? Why i do not even have a familly who loves me as who i am ?

Was i born by mistake ?

I am questioning everything but where are the answers ? No one is answering..

i do not want anything. I just want people to feel a bit.

Can anyone answer me if this is okay to have this life ?

And where i will go after i end my life ? Will i suffer more ?

Why i have no one ?

And people here look very down at you if you do not have power. They judge you based on what you wear or what position you have.

I did not choose to be in this position. Can anyone answer me why this is happening? Anyone has a valid answer ?

Is it okay if i do it and go from this world ?

Just want to get this out of my chest.

Due to the war situation, i believe most people who live in Dubai got effected. This is life. Shit happens.

I was sent on 5 months unpaid leave and they asked us to leave to accomodation.

I was working part time in events. So, the last event i have been to, the owner liked me so much and

And she wanted me to work with her.

So when we negotiated the package, she gave me a lower salary and she said i will pay for the accomodation.

For the visa, she said she will do it later as i am still under my company visa.

So we agreed to move on monday because as per her, the accomodation will be ready. To my shock, when i arrived, she asked me to sleep in this warehouse. She gave me a bed that u can fold. It is metal and it is really harming my back. This warehouse is so so so cold and noisy. Idk from where this noise is coming from. It is so loud that i cannot sleep.

I do not even have a space to put my stuff.

I literaly did not sleep for two days.

I have a very good experience. I am young , presentable and i speak three language. I also come from a luxurious backround. I was shocked how she could give me such place.

She wants me to give my fullest without providing decent living conditions.

So i spoke to her this morning, i told her listen i cannot live this way. She said you have to be patient. I asked if i can leave and try to find somewhere to stay. She was like i want you around to improve the bussiness and you have to be patient.

I cannot live this way even for one more second. I did not study and work my whole life to live in such inhuman conditions. This place feels like a nightmare.

I want to take my stuff and leave. I preper to stay in a garden rather than this place.

She already knows that where i used to live was decent, even the package i was getting.

I am in a total shock. I did not sleep for two days.

It is not the right time to panick but i feel like shit tbh. I have no idea why i have to go through this as a woman.

I never experienced such thing in my life. I am literaly trumatized.

Do not judge me also because i am not here to beg. In fact, i do not want anything. I am just sharing because i feel very bad.

Just want to get this out of my chest.

Due to the war situation, i believe most people who live in Dubai got effected. This is life. Shit happens.

I was sent on 5 months unpaid leave and they asked us to leave to accomodation.

I was working part time in events. So, the last event i have been to, the owner liked me so much and

And she wanted me to work with her.

So when we negotiated the package, she gave me a lower salary and she said i will pay for the accomodation.

For the visa, she said she will do it later as i am still under my company visa.

So we agreed to move on monday because as per her, the accomodation will be ready. To my shock, when i arrived, she asked me to sleep in this warehouse. She gave me a bed that u can fold. It is metal and it is really harming my back. This warehouse is so so so cold and noisy. Idk from where this noise is coming from. It is so loud that i cannot sleep.

I do not even have a space to put my stuff.

I literaly did not sleep for two days.

I have a very good experience. I am young , presentable and i speak three language. I also come from a luxurious backround. I was shocked how she could give me such place.

She wants me to give my fullest without providing decent living conditions.

So i spoke to her this morning, i told her listen i cannot live this way. She said you have to be patient. I asked if i can leave and try to find somewhere to stay. She was like i want you around to improve the bussiness and you have to be patient.

I cannot live this way even for one more second. I did not study and work my whole life to live in such inhuman conditions. This place feels like a nightmare.

I want to take my stuff and leave. I preper to stay in a garden rather than this place.

She already knows that where i used to live was decent, even the package i was getting.

I am in a total shock. I did not sleep for two days.

It is not the right time to panick but i feel like shit tbh. I have no idea why i have to go through this as a woman.

I never experienced such thing in my life. I am literaly trumatized.

Do not judge me also because i am not here to beg. In fact, i do not want anything. I am just sharing because i feel very bad.