Hiya! I'm a 21yo LGBTQ+ artist and I've been writing songs and singing for a long time, as well as self-producing music. I've just moved to Melbourne from QLD and I'm looking for collaborators/music friends etc!! I'm working on a few projects atm but i'm tired of doing it all by myself lol!
Hiya! I'm Alex (not real name for privacy), I'm 21 and I'm a queer singer/songwriter looking for friends and collaborators. I moved to Melbourne a couple weeks ago from QLD! I'm also totally up for meeting non-music friends, I'm a puppeteer/performer/creative and I love nature and adventures!!
i'm the host, i tag-team with a very productive part of the system pretty frequently though. i've known i have a dissociative disorder since i was very young, my early trauma was very extreme so i basically grew up in therapy.
despite this, communication has always been rough and denial has been a recurrent issue. one part, who i just viewed as me becoming suddenly cynical, angry, and having a very uncharacteristically negative view of myself and others, just realised that he's an alter last night. he left some notes clarifying that he doesn't want to feel so much shame and hurt, and that he carries it so "the others" - that includes me - don't have to feel it. and it's true, i don't feel like that, but i know that the intense pain he carries is very extreme.
he's done a lot of things that other parts have had to deal with once it's over, he has very strong views about other people and views everyone as a threat. he swears a lot, and i don't like that at all. he also yells at others at times. he pushes people away and cuts people off "to protect us".
i am hoping that this new step in communication will help me to understand him better and maybe to help him. if he can recognise that he's acting like this somewhat irrationally and in an extreme attempt to protect us, maybe he can be persuaded to stop.
i would love to hear from any ex (or current) prosecutors or persecutors so i can know how to help this part.
Hihi! I'm moving to melb from a tiny small town in QLD this month and I figured I'd do a cert 4 in screen+media as I'm very interested in film, tv etc and will be working in the industry here anyway/have some gigs lined up. The only thing is that I've heard from a friend that the course delves into 3D animation, and I was wondering if anyone who has done the course could tell me how much of the course this takes up?
I have next to no experience in animation and I'd actually be quite excited to learn more about it as a medium! I'm just curious as my friend framed it as a negative, like it was a majority of the course and everybody already knew everything.
Thanks in advance!!! :))
I've had pretty extreme structural dissociation from a very young age, I was predisposed to dissociation far before I experienced the life-altering trauma that created the full-blown dissociation. My earliest memories of alters are from the age of about six or seven, mostly appearing in a way where i could visualise them externally and they would "help me" through situations, have long conversations etc in a way that was very easy for adults to brush off as imaginary play. I had my first full switch at about seven or eight.
The thing is, I'm not sure if those alters are even part of the system anymore? The first two were called Lacy and Sally, Lacy being a very emotional young child part I had to care for and Sally being more capable, older (so about eight or nine), socially intelligent and stepped in to handle difficult situations. Sally was present in some capacity until I was about 12. I lost a lot of time during my teenage years as I went through more trauma, I almost feel like the dissociation was so extreme I couldn't even recognise the old parts of myself. I was just floating along.
I have parts who never left who serve similar purposes, they had different names to them for a time in my early teens, but no matter what I called them the way they acted and interacted with the world stayed the same. Most of my alters don't have names anymore, I refer to them by function most of the time, except for one I refer to as "Em" as she is very present and serves a consistent role.
This is super long now but yes, I feel like I keep losing myself and whenever I am allowed to access memories and knowledge of my alters again, everything has changed