Beginning
I just got the book Self-Initiation Into the Golden Dawn Tradition by Chic Cicero. There is in the intro a four month process to basically pray to one deity per month daily. I’m not totally comfortable with the wording of the prayers. I can’t recall not the exact but essentially the idea of perfection comes into play. I kinda want to reword the prayers and make it more personal / practical to me.
The next part of this is a question of did anyone have any particular experiences while going through this? Not talking like meditation visions but like physical world stuff be it inside their meditation area or out and about that seemed to have been related.
I think the idea of protection is a big one. Feel like I don’t have much belief that whatever this universe is has got my back, it has its agenda. when reading the opening it’s talking about being tested by those who guard the magical currents. I’m like.. no bro.. I’m not in this for trouble just want a peaceful life. 😆 but at the same time I have issues with pay at work and each review season I did find out what all my contemporary colleagues were getting g paid which both times was not something I was looking for but fell into my lap as if in a silver platter. Each time I was like God or whatever providence or something gave this to me.. but why this and not the raise? Do they just want me upset? What is the game here?