u/Legitlasttry

Hey!!
I am 2024 Btech passout.

I am seriously so done with constant job search even if i am admitted due to something, all i can think of job job jobbbbbbb.

It's been 2 yrs gap (i worked in between tried different domains, internships, even got job but got ghosted idk due to some project issue)

At this point my anxiety and depression is on peak seriously.
My body is screaming for help it's so messed up.
I am justtt so soooo exhausted of having same thoughtsssss.

I feel like l am good for nothing seriously.
But the solution of most of my issues is a JOB.

I am unable to cope up..
I tried QA, Hr, BDA in non tech.
Bcoz after trying into coding i felt like it’s not for me.

Any advice would be appreciated.

Hey everyone,

I’m a 2024 CS graduate urgently looking for a job due to personal reasons. I have experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, Operations Coordination, Recruitment, and Client Communication.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Customer Support
• Canva design

Open to remote, WFO, freelance, internship, or contract roles.

If anyone is hiring or knows about openings/referrals for fresher or junior roles, please let me know. I’d genuinely appreciate any help right now. Thank you!!

Hey everyone,

I’m a 2024 CS graduate urgently looking for a job due to personal reasons. I have experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, Operations Coordination, Recruitment, and Client Communication.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Customer Support
• Canva design

Open to remote, WFO, freelance, internship, or contract roles.

If anyone is hiring or knows about openings/referrals for fresher or junior roles, please let me know. I’d genuinely appreciate any help right now. Thank you!!

Hey everyone,

I’m a 2024 CS graduate urgently looking for a job due to personal reasons. I have experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, Operations Coordination, Recruitment, and Client Communication.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Customer Support
• Canva design

Open to remote, WFO, freelance, internship, or contract roles.

If anyone is hiring or knows about openings/referrals for fresher or junior roles, please let me know. I’d genuinely appreciate any help right now. Thank you!!

Hey everyone,

I’m a 2024 CS graduate urgently looking for a job due to personal reasons. I have experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, Operations Coordination, Recruitment, and Client Communication.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Customer Support
• Canva design

Open to remote, WFO, freelance, internship, or contract roles.

If anyone is hiring or knows about openings/referrals for fresher or junior roles, please let me know. I’d genuinely appreciate any help right now. Thank you!!

Computer Science graduate (2024) with experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, HR/Recruitment, Social Media Management, Operations Coordination, and client communication. Open to both Remote and WFO opportunities.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Customer Support & Communication
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Social Media & Community Management
• Recruitment Coordination & Client Handling

Open to roles such as:
• QA / Software Testing
• Technical Support / IT Support
• Operations Executive
• Project Coordinator
• Revenue Cycle Management (RCM)
• Customer Success / Client Support
• Backend Operations / Tech Support

Available immediately and actively looking for full-time opportunities.

If anyone is hiring or can provide a referral, please DM me. It would genuinely mean a lot. Thank you.

Computer Science graduate (2024) with experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, HR/Recruitment, Social Media Management, Operations Coordination, and client communication. Open to both Remote and WFO opportunities.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Customer Support & Communication
• Operations & Project Coordination
• Social Media & Community Management
• Recruitment Coordination & Client Handling

Open to roles such as:
• QA / Software Testing
• Technical Support / IT Support
• Operations Executive
• Project Coordinator
• Revenue Cycle Management (RCM)
• Customer Success / Client Support
• Backend Operations / Tech Support

Available immediately and actively looking for full-time opportunities.

If anyone is hiring or can provide a referral, please DM me. It would genuinely mean a lot. Thank you.

Computer Science graduate (2024) with experience in QA Testing, Technical Support, HR/Recruitment, Social Media Management, and client communication. Open to both Remote and WFO opportunities.

Skills:
• Manual & API Testing
• JIRA, Postman, Agile/Scrum
• Technical / IT Support
• Customer Support & Communication
• Social Media & Community Management

Available immediately and actively looking for full-time opportunities.

If anyone is hiring or can provide a referral, please DM me. It would genuinely mean a lot.

Am i

This is not the first time I am trying to save myself.
But this is the last time I am trying for real.

I am 24F, 5’2 and 114.3 kg as of today.

Feels like depression won.
But no… I don’t want to let it win.

For almost 7 years, I have been trying to lose weight. Crash diets, starvation, dieticians, random plans, supplements, I tried everything hoping something would finally work. Instead, my health slowly started falling apart.

I was diagnosed with PCOD and insulin resistance. Along with weight gain came painful periods, constant cramps, fatigue, hair fall, inflammation, bloating, body aches and severe exhaustion. My gut health got worse, my sleep got ruined, and mentally I started breaking down too. I even suspect conditions like endometriosis because the pain never fully leaves.

I always thought one day I would get a proper job, earn enough money, consult good doctors, get proper tests done and finally heal properly. But I honestly don’t even know when I’ll get that chance anymore. The market is brutal right now. It has been 2 years since college, and despite coming from a tech background, trying different roles, even sales jobs just to survive and escape this environment, nothing worked out.
I’ve been stuck in the same loop for years now.

I’m also vegetarian, and most people just casually say “eat more protein” without understanding that my body barely tolerates dairy anymore. My gut issues have become so bad that I can’t even digest basic dairy products properly now. Curd makes me nauseous to the point of vomiting sometimes. Paneer also makes me feel sick. My digestion and liver health feel completely messed up these days, and honestly I don’t even know how I’m supposed to fulfill my protein goals anymore.

I live in a very small town where there’s no gym and barely any proper health facilities around me. Even getting proper medical help feels impossible sometimes.

And slowly, it started affecting me physically and mentally in ways I cannot even explain anymore. My nervous system constantly feels like it’s in panic mode. I don’t feel safe at home. I kept delaying help because I cannot afford consultations, tests or proper treatment. Even online consultations require blood tests and follow ups that I currently cannot manage.

A month ago, I had a major fall. Head injury, toe muscle tear, body trauma. I’m still healing. I cannot even walk properly for too long right now. During all this, I gained more weight again.

And before someone says “just work harder”, please understand this is not laziness. I still do house chores, I still try, I still push myself even when my body hurts. But there’s a difference between being lazy and being physically and mentally exhausted for years.

Yesterday, I was genuinely at the verge of ending everything.
But no… that’s not how I want my story to end.

My body has been through too much already. It does not deserve more punishment.

I know this post is messy, vulnerable and probably uncomfortable to read. But I need help. Real help. Not bullying disguised as motivation. I’ve already been bullied enough to the point of hating myself. I’ve struggled with self harm too.

So before being harsh, just remember some people are already fighting battles inside their body and mind every single day.

And despite everything…
I want to try one last time.

TLDR: 24F, struggling with PCOD, insulin resistance, chronic pain, gut issues, depression, unemployment and years of failed crash diets. My health has been getting worse physically and mentally, I can’t currently afford proper diagnosis/treatment, and after years of trying to survive, I’m trying one last time to save myself instead of giving up.

This is not the first time I am trying to save myself.
But this is the last time I am trying for real.

I am 24F, 5’2 and 114.3 kg as of today.

Feels like depression won.
But no… I don’t want to let it win.

For almost 7 years, I have been trying to lose weight. Crash diets, starvation, dieticians, random plans, supplements, I tried everything hoping something would finally work. Instead, my health slowly started falling apart.

I was diagnosed with PCOD and insulin resistance. Along with weight gain came painful periods, constant cramps, fatigue, hair fall, inflammation, bloating, body aches and severe exhaustion. My gut health got worse, my sleep got ruined, and mentally I started breaking down too. I even suspect conditions like endometriosis because the pain never fully leaves.

I always thought one day I would get a proper job, earn enough money, consult good doctors, get proper tests done and finally heal properly. But I honestly don’t even know when I’ll get that chance anymore. The market is brutal right now. It has been 2 years since college, and despite coming from a tech background, trying different roles, even sales jobs just to survive and escape this environment, nothing worked out.
I’ve been stuck in the same loop for years now.

I’m also vegetarian, and most people just casually say “eat more protein” without understanding that my body barely tolerates dairy anymore. My gut issues have become so bad that I can’t even digest basic dairy products properly now. Curd makes me nauseous to the point of vomiting sometimes. Paneer also makes me feel sick. My digestion and liver health feel completely messed up these days, and honestly I don’t even know how I’m supposed to fulfill my protein goals anymore.

I live in a very small town where there’s no gym and barely any proper health facilities around me. Even getting proper medical help feels impossible sometimes.

And slowly, it started affecting me physically and mentally in ways I cannot even explain anymore. My nervous system constantly feels like it’s in panic mode. I don’t feel safe at home. I kept delaying help because I cannot afford consultations, tests or proper treatment. Even online consultations require blood tests and follow ups that I currently cannot manage.

A month ago, I had a major fall. Head injury, toe muscle tear, body trauma. I’m still healing. I cannot even walk properly for too long right now. During all this, I gained more weight again.

And before someone says “just work harder”, please understand this is not laziness. I still do house chores, I still try, I still push myself even when my body hurts. But there’s a difference between being lazy and being physically and mentally exhausted for years.

Yesterday, I was genuinely at the verge of ending everything.
But no… that’s not how I want my story to end.

My body has been through too much already. It does not deserve more punishment.

I know this post is messy, vulnerable and probably uncomfortable to read. But I need help. Real help. Not bullying disguised as motivation. I’ve already been bullied enough to the point of hating myself. I’ve struggled with self harm too.

So before being harsh, just remember some people are already fighting battles inside their body and mind every single day.

And despite everything…
I want to try one last time.

TLDR: 24F, struggling with PCOD, insulin resistance, chronic pain, gut issues, depression, unemployment and years of failed crash diets. My health has been getting worse physically and mentally, I can’t currently afford proper diagnosis/treatment, and after years of trying to survive, I’m trying one last time to save myself instead of giving up.

This is not the first time I am trying to save myself.
But this is the last time I am trying for real.

I am 24F, 5’2 and 114.3 kg as of today.

Feels like depression won.
But no… I don’t want to let it win.

For almost 7 years, I have been trying to lose weight. Crash diets, starvation, dieticians, random plans, supplements, I tried everything hoping something would finally work. Instead, my health slowly started falling apart.

I was diagnosed with PCOD and insulin resistance. Along with weight gain came painful periods, constant cramps, fatigue, hair fall, inflammation, bloating, body aches and severe exhaustion. My gut health got worse, my sleep got ruined, and mentally I started breaking down too. I even suspect conditions like endometriosis because the pain never fully leaves.

I always thought one day I would get a proper job, earn enough money, consult good doctors, get proper tests done and finally heal properly. But I honestly don’t even know when I’ll get that chance anymore. The market is brutal right now. It has been 2 years since college, and despite coming from a tech background, trying different roles, even sales jobs just to survive and escape this environment, nothing worked out.
I’ve been stuck in the same loop for years now.

I’m also vegetarian, and most people just casually say “eat more protein” without understanding that my body barely tolerates dairy anymore. My gut issues have become so bad that I can’t even digest basic dairy products properly now. Curd makes me nauseous to the point of vomiting sometimes. Paneer also makes me feel sick. My digestion and liver health feel completely messed up these days, and honestly I don’t even know how I’m supposed to fulfill my protein goals anymore.

I live in a very small town where there’s no gym and barely any proper health facilities around me. Even getting proper medical help feels impossible sometimes.

And slowly, it started affecting me physically and mentally in ways I cannot even explain anymore. My nervous system constantly feels like it’s in panic mode. I don’t feel safe at home. I kept delaying help because I cannot afford consultations, tests or proper treatment. Even online consultations require blood tests and follow ups that I currently cannot manage.

A month ago, I had a major fall. Head injury, toe muscle tear, body trauma. I’m still healing. I cannot even walk properly for too long right now. During all this, I gained more weight again.

And before someone says “just work harder”, please understand this is not laziness. I still do house chores, I still try, I still push myself even when my body hurts. But there’s a difference between being lazy and being physically and mentally exhausted for years.

Yesterday, I was genuinely at the verge of ending everything.
But no… that’s not how I want my story to end.

My body has been through too much already. It does not deserve more punishment.

I know this post is messy, vulnerable and probably uncomfortable to read. But I need help. Real help. Not bullying disguised as motivation. I’ve already been bullied enough to the point of hating myself. I’ve struggled with self harm too.

So before being harsh, just remember some people are already fighting battles inside their body and mind every single day.

And despite everything…
I want to try one last time.

TLDR: 24F, struggling with PCOD, insulin resistance, chronic pain, gut issues, depression, unemployment and years of failed crash diets. My health has been getting worse physically and mentally, I can’t currently afford proper diagnosis/treatment, and after years of trying to survive, I’m trying one last time to save myself instead of giving up.

Edit - Why is no one even replying? Am I really in such a bad condition that I can never get back to normal again? Sometimes my mind genuinely goes there. You can be honest.