Dopamine
Because of the crazy MD scenarios I make in my head, it feels as my life can never live up to it. The adrenaline, dopamine and rush I experience when daydreaming makes me think that I could never achieve a similar feeling in reality, especially when it’s something that is impossible to replicate irl.
When I was younger, I used to wish I could travel to my fantasy world and experience it for myself. I crave fun, excitement, competition and being social with other people. (I also like having my alone time) But I live with every thing I crave through my mind, not in real life. With my daydreaming, I can create anything that gives me those things I crave within a short time frame rather than having to work or trust the process in reality. I am terrified of wasting time, but that’s what I have been doing for so many years and it’s haunting me. I don’t want to live like this at all. I want to experience having hobbies and fun with friends, I’m just too scared to put it to work. Does anyone else relate to this?