Super grateful for my supports and loved ones 🩷🩷🩷 TW for subject matter
Trigger warning for >!restrictiveED!<
In the last month or so I finally decided to face the fact that I have an >!ED!< after I went to the dentist and they said they noticed my enamel weakening even tho I take pretty good care of my teeth and they never noticed it before. I didn’t tell them but in the previous months my >!ED!< has gotten bad. So pretty sure the lack of nutrition to my Beth is causing that. I WANNA KEEP MAH TEEFS. so I finally worked up the courage to tell my psychiatrist, who I’ve literally had since I was nine years old, about what’s actually been going on the last year to two years that I’ve been avoiding bringing up, and the fact I’ve had thoughts about >!restriction!< since I was around 6 years old. (Before anyone says anything it has nothing to do with my home life and all to do with toxic extended family, my own physical and mental disorders, and a shitty pediatrician I had).
We talked about what to do next and he said I need to tell my mother about it. She definitely already knew something was up, but I wasn’t telling her the extent. I was scared but when I finally told her, she reacted with a lot of understanding, her own struggles she had at my age with the same issue, and genuine concern and support. She understands she can’t just >!tell me to eat a burger!< and it would fix me. She understands it’s a process and she’s been supporting me the whole way, telling me some light hearted stories abound her experience as well, which is how we cope with stuff in this house lol.
Anyways, I’m still working with my dr and both my dr and my mom are so helpful in this. And my boyfriend too, who’s always there to listen, support, and understand. I’m just really really glad that I have so many people who love me and care. For once, I finally don’t feel alone in this.