
u/LilSinfulAngel

Hesitating, on what should I do, 1, 2, 3, 4 or 5 ?
Smiling after receiving my first compliment of the year
Somebody complimented me for the first time in 2026 today, just wanted to share
I overcame the fear to go outside today, I'm 260lbs
[19] to [20] Never thought I'd lose 35lbs and look younger
I had been called " oversized " and nobody wanted to really look at m because I was 220lbs at 5'3.
My parents were making fun, my friends were being passive agressive the whole time : " when are you going to change", " when do you start the gym", not knowing that it was deeper than actually paying a gym membership.
Then I've finally got tired of everybody doubting me, I've started walking 1 mile a day, then 2, then , then i've started running, and without the blink of an eye I proved to myself that I was better than what people thought about me
here's my result after laughs, rudeness, but hard work
I kept one of the extra refunds amazon gave me and never said anything
A package got delayed and support refunded me automatically. Then the package still arrived 2 days later.
I told myself I was gonna contact them and fix it but then another refund randomly hit too because apparently the item got marked lost twice or something.
So I ended up with the product and almost $200 back.
At first it felt like whatever, its a huge company they wont care but its been bothering me more than I expected because I know if some random small business accidentally refunded me twice I would’ve said something immediately.
But because its amazon my brain suddenly made it acceptable.
The money honestly helped a lot at the time. I bought groceries and paid my phone bill with it. Thats probably part of why I justified it so hard.
I still have the email sitting there unopened because I know eventually they’re probably gonna notice and I weirdly feel anxious every time I get an amazon notification now lol.
Sometimes I purposely take longer routes when I uber because I dont wanna go home
I know thats probably pathetic but whatever.
Nothing horrible is happening at home or anything. I just hate being there lately. My apartment feels heavy the second I walk in. Quiet in a bad way.
So after work sometimes ill order an uber and pick the longer route option even though it costs more just because I like sitting there while someone else drives and I dont have to think.
A few nights ago the driver even apologized for traffic and I said “its okay take your time.”
I realized halfway through the ride I genuinely meant it.
Its weird because im wasting money I absolutely shouldnt be spending but those extra 15-20 minutes feel like the calmest part of my day lately.