u/Lisa000_

I've had so many times where I would come back up after a depression and start thinking that I can prevent them entirely or at least make sure they are not as bad. It gives me a small sense of control.

I eat healthy and make sure I get all my vitamins, I move a lot, I find hobbies and passion, I'm out in nature, I'm social and everytime I think these good habits will help my mental health. And every facking time I get a depression worse than the one before. And mine lasts months, most of the time at least half the year.

So now I don't believe that anything good that I do actually helps in my recovery. I'm becoming nihilistic. If I don't have control over any of it why even try. I'll end up in the same dark pit over and over again. I'm starting to feel like trying isn't worth it anymore. Why should I eat healthy or go outside when it doesn't work and when I find no joy in it because of anhedonia

And I am still doing therapy, I am taking my meds but it is not going fast enough for me. I'm in month 7 of this depression and meds aren't pulling me out.

I've had so many times where I would come back up after a depression and start thinking that I can prevent them entirely or at least make sure they are not as bad. It gives me a small sense of control.

I eat healthy and make sure I get all my vitamins, I move a lot, I find hobbies and passion, I'm out in nature, I'm social and everytime I think these good habits will help my mental health. And every facking time I get a depression worse than the one before. And mine lasts months, most of the time at least half the year.

So now I don't believe that anything good that I do actually helps in my recovery. I'm becoming nihilistic. If I don't have control over any of it why even try. I'll end up in the same dark pit over and over again. I'm starting to feel like trying isn't worth it anymore. Why should I eat healthy or go outside when it doesn't work and when I find no joy in it because of anhedonia

And I am still doing therapy, I am taking my meds but it is not going fast enough for me. I'm in month 7 of this depression and meds aren't pulling me out.

I've had so many times where I would come back up after a depression and start thinking that I can prevent them entirely or at least make sure they are not as bad. It gives me a small sense of control.

I eat healthy and make sure I get all my vitamins, I move a lot, I find hobbies and passion, I'm out in nature, I'm social and everytime I think these good habits will help my mental health. And every facking time I get a depression worse than the one before. And mine lasts months, most of the time at least half the year.

So now I don't believe that anything good that I do actually helps in my recovery. I'm becoming nihilistic. If I don't have control over any of it why even try. I'll end up in the same dark pit over and over again. I'm starting to feel like trying isn't worth it anymore. Why should I eat healthy or go outside when it doesn't work and when I find no joy in it because of anhedonia

And I am still doing therapy, I am taking my meds but it is not going fast enough for me. I'm in month 7 of this depression and meds aren't pulling me out.

I know I should trust my psychiatrist but I read a lot online that it can have severe interactions and might cause seizures.

I do want to try it, but I'm just a bit scared. I've been depressed for so long and I'm on lamotrigine which helps a bit but I am still stuck in a low. The ADHD paralysis makes it hard to get up and get things done and I feel like I'm getting a bit nihilistic and thinking it will never get better or easier.

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Does your cycle influence the effect of medication or its side effects?

For me, even when I am on my meds, I completely crash back to depression after ovulation. I read that for adhd it is proposed to up the dossage of their medication such as ritalin in that period but I haven't heard it for bipolar medication yet. And I wonder if that would be doable with these heavy meds that actually take weeks to feel effect.

I just added wellbutrin so I hope that will alliviate most of the symptoms but I am worried.

Has anyone discussed this with their psychiatrist and have they given treatment options?

Does your cycle influence the effect of medication or its side effects?

For me, even when I am on my meds, I completely crash back to depression after ovulation. I read that for adhd it is proposed to up the dossage of their medication such as ritalin in that period but I haven't heard it for bipolar medication yet. And I wonder if that would be doable with these heavy meds that actually take weeks to feel effect.

I just added wellbutrin so I hope that will alliviate most of the symptoms but I am worried.

Has anyone discussed this with their psychiatrist and have they given treatment options?

How long after quitting the meds does this go away?

How long before that goes away after you stop taking the meds?

You sit in the chair, and the what happens? How does a session actually looks like?

I read a lot of technical stuff about the modi and the schemas but what actually happens in a session

How many of you have burned bridges during episodes? I unfortunately have lost count; for me this all happend during depressive episodes.

Some still devastate me.

And if so, do your trauma symptoms exacerbate in depression?