u/LittleGloomyBat

To give a sort of breakdown of where im at in life:

I got a divorce earlier this year from being a stay at home wife, i got a job working front desk at a hotel. Im 26 years old and for awhile I entertained the idea of going into accounting, or computer science or even nursing.

The issue with accounting is that i was worried i wouldnt make a lot because I dont want to be in tax(im more open to it now though, i was just scared of all the laws as a teen), i also worried about the work life balance.

I had a draw to cs but with thay going down hill and I know i lack strong enough passion to stand out i havent pursued that further (i did learn on my own some stuff awhile back and enjoyed it)

Nursing is... a more difficult sell for me, it feels like a really intimidating profession, i dont know if i want that kind of pressure if someone's life on my hands as well as I am not a people person. That career is more for the money whoch seems wrong, i do care about people im just not sure i could do well with it.

Anyways so, i just feel so lost i want something to push toward, my job is slightly above min wage, im stuck living with family because I cant afford my own place on this pay. I know it all ends up the same "i want money i dont want to work hard for it" thats not a full lie im sure most people do, im willing to work hard im jjst scared of prospects in this economy and my preferred job id work maybe3-4 days a week so I had time with my dog and to explore other hobbies. I dont need mansion but owning a home feels like asking the same lately.

Is that worth it? I feel like its always expensive at dutch and im just wondering if this feels like a fair deal? I see it used tobbe 50 points so its double from when they first launched streaks lol

Maybe a couple weeks ago I got a smaple off mercari for de profundis and today there was someone selling a few unopened bottles so I decided to bite the bullet for it. It was sort of a big purchase I do feel uncertain slightly. Financially its ok maybe not the wisest but not going in debt by it. I justified it because i once had a heretic perfume that was 50ml and for the 100ml it was the same price as the ine I got. Being in the us I dont see many opportunities to get this fragrance. I liked the scent of the original I will say my initial smell of it reminded me of a very floral and powdery scent but it feels like as it sits it smells more earthy green and lightly floral. Its so odd I wouldnt say my initial spray is my favorite but I love smelling it on me through the day.

Well it was a buy two drinks get 50 extra points so I got a medium myst with cold foam and a float i assume thats probably.... 7.95 base plus 1-2 for the sweet cream and cold foam? Maybe 9.95. Then to get my other drink i asked for a small I wanted something new, I asked what I should get and she recommended i get a deconstructed rebel with coconut because i like coconut.

My total came out to 14. So I guess I paid 5-6$ for a can of rebel and two shots of syrup in a cup. Im probably not too bad off i can always try to make somethjng fun at home with that, I was just like wow, I didnt realize how much a can of rebel cost... this is more a vent of my own social downfall because I shouldve just asked her to make me something random and id just throw it in the fridge for later, I did show of 30 min before closing though cant really blame it i suppose. At least I can get a free drink later now.

I was on my way to work from a Cafe and I backed up, completely oblivious I guess, this is my fault 100% I have a back up cam and I didnt idk... think I was close to that car and i looked away then hit his bumper. Like I realize how much i depended ok a tool that I shoildnt because in my mind I assume my car would beep if it saw something coming in the back but it didnt. I know its wrong to trust that, i really was just stupid, running a tiny late to work, trying a new place and being complacent with my driving.

Im a new driver sort of, ive had a license for 5 years but i only started constantly driving this last year, so great i bought a new car to dent its rear. I went in told the man we went out to look and i basically left dust on his car from mine, literally no scratches, mine took the brunt of it. He said it was fine and I apologized.

Im just having trouble forgiving myself in a new car like an idiot i shouldve been more aware.

This might be a bias place to ask and I shoild personally know best for myself but im so conflicted about it.

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Im nearly at the end of my divorce, we rarely talk besides when he asks how im doing or how my cat is (we got him together but I took him with me, it was already flatly established that no matter what this cat was mine even in marriage).

We do share a plan together i cannot get out of bevahse my cell isnt paid off but besides texting we sometimes talk on one social media website. Ive removed him as a friend on all of it we just have the chat still open.

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I wont say things ended horribly, I wasnt cheated on that I know of he just becme someone else and gave me the strong feeling that he did not love me for the majority of oir marriage. It was also a tense time when he decided he didnt want to be with me because I was being semi pressured to finish the divorce out. He did help financially since I wasnt working at the time. So i have some resentment for how he flipped a switch and treated me very coldly but he was still willing to own up for his part and help me move etc.

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At this point we are ok, i have some resentment obviously but I also dont want to be back with him, i knew him for a long time he was a friend and I want to send him a video of my cat since he asks sometimes however, my family advised i shouldnt and is surprised I havent fully blocked him yet. Im wondering if i reaching out in a way i shouldnt?

I have been separated from my husband for half a year now and the marriage was only a few years but we dated for a decade before as teens. Long story short i was heartbroken, he did not cheat that i know of, just fell out of love and wanted life without me. Hes remained semi friendly and supported me to separate.

My issue is, im going through a lustful stage and I dont want to be with him and im not gonna sleep with him hes not even nearby but, i wondered is a cord cutting spell ideal for letting go of my feelings and desires(what us the result to the other party)? I feel like i know its not what id actually want but I find it pretty annoying when he pops into my head, maybe i need a self love spell? Im a new witch, ive always loved the idea of spells but never let myself do any so this is one of my first.

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(Also can i do multiple spells? I feel like doing 3 on the next full moon would be cool)

Not sure if anyone else does this, im a night auditor and I do work during check in hours two times a week but, sometimes I forget things and it happened twice tonight. I forgot to tell a guest the room type they were in and the total since theyd already been charged. I think I got overwhelmed because they came in with all the guests in the room and I was also trying to decide if I needed their info for the room (debate in office from one boss to another)

Then the second one was a last minute booking and she had a lot of questions about where they could put their vehicle theyre towing so with all that I forgot to address the rules about dogs in our hotel (keep on leash outside and dont leave unattended in room) so now im just frustrated I can see where my lack of experience with guests going off script really throws me off.

Also I showed the guest on the map where to park and gave him his own map my social skills lacked there because he wanted my map too and I just held it to my chest lmao like what is wrong with me. That was my cheat sheet. Proper response wouldve been "its the same as the one I gave you, this one is for ne to help remember where guests can easily park their larger vehicles"

Its been maybe 5 months and I know I am divorced, im still grieving though its so dull now at times. I wish I could cry it out and be done but it kind of just sits in my mind.

Today, it feels like im almost giddy by the thought of talking to him, I am not talking to him but, i think about how i used to be so excited to get a text from him or call him. I check my messages once in awhile to see if hes messaged me. Its a weird mix of sorrow and almost denial like happiness where I almost feel I could snap back to who I was call his name happily when he came home or get excited when he messaged me. Then I remember how he told me he would stay late at work so he didnt have to come home sooner and of many other things. None were cheating just a lot of time spent with someone who was feeling guilty that they didnt love me and I felt they didnt but trusted their words over the actions.

I guess its denial? Maybe its just taking away a habit i used to have. I know it might sound wild but I feel like I almost programmed myself to believe he was amazing. He wasnt ever overly cruel never physical, I eas just pretty set on loving him and believed we could work through anything if he spoke to me (besides cheating and lying). Little did I know he basically regretted the whole marriage and was lying to himself about us working it out.

I feel free but I also feel alone and miss my best friend, hes not who I thought he was but I wish I could call him like nothing happened and tell him about my day and my worries etc. I am far too stubborn and scorned for that though.

So im justvventing wondering if anyone else gets this way, its almost like a dopamine kick yet it upsets me i feel so excited by calling him or texting for a moment. Its just a almost inmate feeling without logic its nice but with reality it upsets me.

I sold tickets, sent through email to etix and the buyer claims they were used when they werent. It was several days past the event when I was jotifed of the issue. They opened a dispute and asked me to show the tickets and when they were scanned...I dont have the scan info? Is there a way to get it or what should I do?