Random question, but once you start fully passing as a man, do you experience the so called "male privilege" in public spaces? (Or in general.) I saw a debate earlier saying transsexual men don't have it.
(I'm not super knowledgeable about this.)
I kinda feel hopeless about my future as a transsexual sometimes.
I just wish I didn't have this condition, it's genuinely ruining my life, and no amount of positivity or therapy would help the discomfort and mental suffering I have daily.
I don't want to transition or spend any money for something I should've been born with.
I don't want to feel unsafe and inferior anymore.
Now I'm obviously in a bad mindset, but genuinely who wouldn't be when you're a transsexual.
There's nothing good about this, and I'm debating on accepting that my entire life will just be one big cope. :(
(I really hope reincarnation is real LOL.)
I don't have much to say other then people being transphobic and not respecting or even hating transsexual people as a whole is becoming so normalized.
It's everywhere, every social media platform, every news outlet, every stranger you meet at this point is most likely going to be hostile.
I feel like there's no point sometimes it gets so bad.
We're genuinely regressing in modern society.
Sorry for the negativity, but unfortunately I have no better observations to make nowadays.
(Also what did we ever do?)
I've been playing royale high since early 2018 and all of that, but I only starting wishing consistently since 2023.
It's genuinely been 3 years of wishing like at least 4-5 times a day (10 hours) and never winning one. Even my sibling wishes on her account all the time. Saying that if she wins it she'll trade it to me.
But.. no luck! Nothing! I feel hopeless, I've been wanting to win a halo for years, and it really annoys me. I know it's just a game, but winning something worth millions of diamonds for completely free would definitely help a lot.
As I also farm for hours to get diamonds, so any free ones from the fountain (by selling the halo if I didn't like it) would definitely help me get to my goals faster..
I also want the badge really bad. And the experience. It's just been years, and I'm tired of it. I've never won one LOL. 😭😭 And I don't know if I EVER will. 💔
I am wondering, how has your life been being stealth and passing for a longer period of time? I want to know what to expect for my future, as I also plan to be completely stealth.
I am hoping it just feels normal, and it actually gets better. I believe it will.
I hadn't known much about what my placements were, since I hadn't looked into it much. But I find the three very accurate to my person, It's so interesting.
I don't see this talked about often anywhere really, but I feel like being transsexual has more to it then just the mainstream definition of it.
It has to be more then a "gender identity."
(Which I know it is more then just a identity, it's a condition that is treated with medical transition.)
But when I was younger, I would genuinely try to suppress the severe dysphoria that only got worse.
I would try to suppress the feeling that I was not what I was born as.
It would never go away.
And I still have no real idea on what causes dysphoria that severe.
Or why transsexual people exist, or how.
But we do, and I feel it has something to do with the brain.
(But, what is the cause?)
Lately, I haven't been seeing a lot of content like this regularly. Thankfully. But occasionally I do come across a ridiculous post like this.
First of all, how can a trans MAN be a lesbian? The term lesbian describes WOMEN loving other WOMEN.
This person is not talking about "transmascs" they are talking about full on trans MEN!
My biggest question is how a MAN can be lesbian, and WHY a trans man would even want to be? Aren't you a man? Why would you call yourself a lesbian? If you are only attracted to women, you'd be straight in that sense.
Also, I don't understand how not being traditionally masculine as a man has anything to do with being a full on lesbian.
A trans man or any man for that matter can be feminine, but not lesbian. Because being lesbian doesn't have anything to do with being feminine.
It only has something to do with WOMEN loving other WOMEN. Men are excluded from the term completely.
But anyways, no hate, I understand some people have werid views on things, but it sometimes gets out of hand.
If a cis man were to say he is a lesbian, people would be mad. (Rightfully so.) But a trans man? Apparently it's valid that way. It feels like these people almost see trans men as women sometimes.
(And it also feels demeaning to actual lesbians, constantly including men into a women's only spaces. In my opinion.)
I'm trying to clear my rh inv, so I'm trading my halos for adm or robux!
I'm ngf, I don't have any current proofs, but I'm trying to get some /gen
Please lmk if you're interested, I will tell user in dms 🥹💖
To elaborate, I have no inner monologue, I usually catch myself whispering out loud to myself when I'm trying to remember things. Since I have no ability to speak to myself in my mind.
I also have total aphantasia. No images or visuals, I can't even recreate tastes, sounds, or feelings of various textures and weights. Which I've heard some people can do. Which is news to me.
I sometimes wonder how I think at all, but I do. But, when I have thoughts, It's just in silence and darkness in my mind no matter what. And I am assuming, forever.
But, to continue on the title of this post: I do enjoy having a silent mind. I feel as if I can fall asleep easier then if I were to have loud inner thoughts, or intrusive imagery.
I also feel more calm in a way. More peaceful in my internal silence. No matter what my environment is that day, at least my mind is peaceful and silent. And I am grateful for it in a way.
Now I do sometimes wonder what it would be like to have audible and/or visual thoughts, and I sometimes want to be able to hear songs in my head or to hear my own voice, or to visualize objects and various places or people.
But at the end of the day, I do truly prefer having a quiet headspace. And I wouldn't really trade it for anything, as I do enjoy it. But this is just me personally.
Anyway, thanks for reading my experience with a silent mind, if you did.
When I first saw this I immediately thought: Why as a man, would you want to give birth? Or even be pregnant in the first place?
Now, as a man, if I had to give birth, or if I was pregnant, it would cause immense distress and severe discomfort.
Also, it would be extremely dysphoria inducing, since pregnancy is inherently a thing only women can typically experience.
I feel like content like this can paint (trans men, specifically.) as a fetish or a joke. (Especially the "mpreg" thing, which seems very fetish-y.)
No personal hate to this person at all, I just truly don't understand the mentality. And why you would want to be pregnant as a man. (As I have also seen a few people that do similar things to this post.)
Thanks for reading this if you did, this is just my personal thoughts, on how I feel like content like this can make trans people, (specifically trans men.) seem like a werid fetish or a total joke sometimes.
And I can't wrap my head around why a trans man would want to give birth, and how it *wouldn't* be dysphoria inducing.
Now this is just how I see it though. I am open to other opinions on these types of posts.
I hope this is the correct place to post this, but I've just realized that I've never had an inner voice/monologue or any pictures in my head, my mind is always silent and when I close my eyes it's just darkness and nothing else.
Even when I read it's not audible or anything, I just understand the words I'm reading, if that makes sense.
I don't know how common this is, but I have seen some others that have both.
Personally I find it very peaceful and I am kinda glad that I don't have any voice in my head or any intrusive visual images, this is just my personal experience, but I find it interesting how differently every individual thinks.
(Also, another seemingly common experience, is that I have always thought the saying "picture this" was a metaphor.)
For a summary: I have no audible thoughts/inner voice, and absolutely no visual imagery in my head, like none at all. Just pure darkness.
This is my first post here, I am still new to reddit. Sorry if it's bland.