u/Loctrocute

TLDR: After being lonely all my life (personal choice), want to date again after 37. Are people as superficial as the general mid to late 20s, which has been the experience talking to people on apps 10 years ago, and also seems like social media that displays gay people or couples that are all about their perfect bodies and looks?

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Whenever I give up social media, I have a better perspective of myself. I find that I don't obsess "as much" about my looks and that I find myself to look decent. whenever I watch reels of people with perfect hair, very fit bodies etc, I just hate everything and everyone out of anger and comparison. I do have body issues (even though I look normal) and constantly compare myself to other men, because I don't look like what I find attractive. I am attractive in my own ways and terms, but what I find attractive in other men are different (just an example, not necessarily real: let's say I am brunette (decent looking) but I find blonde guys attractive and I hate that I am not blonde, if that makes sense). The problem is I shouldn't be doing this at this age, I'm almost 37, and I am still devastated that I have balded a lot over the past few years and I look bad with a buzzcut or anything, so I will just go get a hairsystem not necessarily to "up my game" but it's just what I identify with as to the type of person I feel like. Like, I don't identify with the bald tough guy look, but I know some guys look amazing like that if they choose to do so, and I can find those guys attractive - just not something I identify with for myself and my looks.

Anyway, after being lonely all my life in the date department due to not putting myself out there, and nearing 37, I am tired of being lonely. Now, I said I'm tired of being lonely, but I will not settle out of desperation; but I want to begin exploring the dating scene again, this time being more mature and having clear expectations from a partner. Right off the bat, not into random s*x, hookup, none of that. I want to meet a nice person, spend time together and see where it goes. Indeed, I want to just enroll in activities and hobbies to meet people naturally because I absolutely HATE the idea of apps where it feels like I'm just marketing myself to be liked. I just hate it.

Anyway, Is the dating better over 37? Looking to meet someone around my age or older, does that make it any easier. Outside of social media, are people less shallow? I'll be honest, I am not going to deny the fact that looks are important to me. But I don't need to have someone with a six pack or anything, not as obsessed about those things.

what is going on in the main apex subreddit? So many posts are being removed for any little reason. I just got banned a few days ago for asking about the upcoming possible "collab" with Cyberpunk and asked about what skin Loba would get LOL and got a ban apparently because it's a "leak"? It's not a leak, it's just a rumor and should not be grounds for removal let alone ban. I have been on that sub for so many years, never had a ban until then. And now I am noticing so many posts are being taken down. How is that healthy for the dynamics of a subreddit? I don't ever want to post something there only because I would be super weary of it being taken down and getting a permanent ban or something. Mods seem to be unhinged, how is that allowed? Apex subreddit was not always like that, no? I don't remember anything like that previously, maybe I didn't pay attention previously.

I am very confused about the description of Ganymede online. I read about the notes and forums but I am still confused. Alien futuristic theme metallic suede, new magazine smell Lol what am I supposed to understand from this?
I dont have a place nearby to test this, i am
Planning to order a decant but wanted to ask it its worth it.
I like that it is mentioned as head turner and unique because all the Sephora/ Ulta colognew I tried are very generic to me. I am interested in something that stands out. I usually like fresh but green, heavily aromatic scents with a floral twist maybe. My all time faves are Ultraviolet man by paco, hugo boss energise, and colognes like Uomo Greenstravaganza but it doesnt last long at all, and the most recent I tried montblanc Legend but again way too subdued. I want something that stands out. Based on this, would I like Ganymede? I also do not like warm spice scents, or vanilla. I like more airy fresh futuristic scents.
Thank you

Yesterday I was like 35 away from D4, today I am back to 250 away, lost every single game back to back this morning. How can yesterday and today be so different. I don't understand. Solo queue, this is extremely infuriating. Tried everything, tried lifeline to be a support, tried Valk to have mobility for the whole team, just not working. I wanted to hit Diamond to do the solo q lobbies, but that is also delayed so i guess no point. So tired of this solo q experience in this game.

If you received a decent offer for a TT job, but your colleagues are making 20-30k more than you do because of huge cost of living adjustments the univ provided a few years ago and you missed it obviously; would you still accept the offer? Or would you go for a similar pay elsewhere that is not TT. Without taking into account location, retirement options etc. assume they are similar.

EDIT: I wanted to update, the situation really is more about the feelings associated with the discrepancy. Otherwise the TT offer seems like a good deal on its own if I didn't make those comparisons and everything. The location, retirement etc everything is nice and what I would normally prefer. But I'm also someone who cares about fairness and equity. I'd rather work somewhere where people get paid similar amounts for the work that we all do, which is the same work at the end of the of the day. Of course, if you get tenure, you will get pay increase, I already take that into consideration. But if you are getting paid 20K more because there has been huge COLA adjustments a few years ago and I am being hired a few years later completely missing out on that, yea, that stings. At that point, I'd expect the school to pay accordingly, and they are not, and they won't budge on the pay. It's just this feeling that "I'm being paid way less than they do even when I calculate their base pay for them by reducing the COLAs and promotions and everything"; so it's just the feeling and comparison I'm unhappy about. Otherwise, the position itself is decent, not bad at all and COL in the area is decent and comfortable with the pay offered.

EDIT2: Thanks everyone, I feel a bit better about the situation, seems like maybe I am not getting the picture in its entirety. Thanks for your comments.

I really make this post out of frustration and no other purpose, because I already have an offer and the other one this post is about not only pays way less but also in a similar location so I couldn't care less. But this is just to start a conversation that how is it normalized to not update a finalist (not even in the early stages of interviewing) about whether they have been chosen or not. It's been months, and I reached out to the chair already asking for an update. Crickets. This is after a supposedly successful final Zoom interview (this position didn't have an on-site visit component).

I also moved on, in the sense that I can already tell I am not selected, and like I said, I will be joining another institution. But it is just so frustrating because for a long time I was really interested in this position. Being a finalist I assumed I would at least be notified because it is also a well known university.

I am also aware that committees and chairs might be notified not to say anything to candidates during the process to avoid any legal issues, or that maybe the position got cancelled who knows. Like, I am aware of all of that. But it still doesn't make this an okay practice.

Some other university I went on a campus visit for, told me I'd hear back within a week, and they did reach on Thursday of the following week saying they went with someone else. And I appreciated it that the update came very soon after.

Come on academia, get your sh*t together.

UPDATE: Is this not a community that is supportive of one another, or did I post somewhere I wasn't supposed to? Why the downvote? You like being treated like that as part of your job search? There is really nothing in my post that would warrant a downvote, unless you are admin or HR lol

I know, not game breaking or anything. However some things about her I have noticed that haven't been fixed or just happened with the new update:

1. Her ring and bracelet doesn't glow during the throw animation

2. Her idle stance (no heirlooms, just standing without any weapon equipped) looks like she is holding a weapon, when there is nothing in her hands. I noticed other legends don't have this issue.

Also a while ago, I made a comment with photos and all that the effects on the Heat Shade skin were messed up and all glitchy, and it has still not been addressed at all.

I understand these are not priorities, but I'm also guessing they should be minor things to fix, so why still not fixed?

This is just to have a conversation about Axle's lines. I really like the character, the idea of the legend and her skills. I also love that she is "German". I just think her lines are way too basic or cringe? Am I the only one? not only that, the way she sounds just is off, like doesn't sound natural. It almost feels like the way she sounds doesn't fit her character or something or as if there is something missing, I can't tell. Is it just me who feels this way lol