u/Longjumping_Big663

And is anyone still efilist

PLEASE don't ban me, this is not a pro suicide post and I really don't want to get banned but I really true do feel pretty suicidal as I have for 4 years and it just says to "get professional support"

I have done that
in every last way possible and I still do not feel okay with living and I feel like I have no solution and how can we just ignore suicidal people and have no way to respond to them

I know that typical reagents get overpowered by MDMA when testing for PMMA in a mixture. I know it's fairly easy to test for PMA using robadope and similar reactions, but PMMA can easily blend in with MDMA.

Is it possible to use a TLC plate to separate PMMA and other impurities from MDMA in a sample? How can you tell that it's definitively PMMA and not just some small impurity.

And lastly, I'd assume it would interfere with the TLC plates, but is it possible to do some form of "Marquis stain" or spray on marquis at the end to detect oranges and purples separately in a test?

I'm not sure if anyone has thought of this before, and I haven't gone through a detailed procedure plan or done in depth checking, but I think this could work.

1. Cleave myristicins free ether group using cold boron tribromide. If it is cold enough, it should not attack the acetal ring.
2. Convert the aryl alcohol group to an aryl halide. There's plenty of ways to do this, so I'm not going to choose a specific one, just don't use any strong acid like HI because it will likely cleave the acetal or affect the side chain.
3. Add tributyltin hydride to the halide to convert Ar-X to Ar-H and Bu3Sn-H to Bu3Sn-X
4. Purify the resulting safrole. It may be possible to separate unreacted myristicin alcohol from safrole by using a moderately strong (but not too strong) base like Na2CO3 or K3PO4 to deprotonate the alcohol to a phenoxide, followed by solvent extraction.

I have weird feelings about my sexuality, feeling that I would be okay with dating men and women, and probably non binary or androgynous people, but it's like I only experience signs of being flustered, awkward, or much swooning for women, yet I can still experience romantic desire for men.

I also sometimes feel like I experience much more involuntary and obvious attraction to girls or feminine presenting people, while for boys I have to basically dig in my brain to understand attraction in almost all cases.

I also feel like I feel deeper romantic desire for boys but it starts slower and is sometimes hard to tell, whereas girls its instantly in my face like feeling a bit tense or locked up but I never register in my mind anything like "this person is a crush", whereas it tends to be more common for me that I explicitly decide to myself that I have a crush on a boy.

I am an AMAB trans girl, so it could possibly have something to do with me previously being more comfortable around boys, while feeling shier around girls, but it's not like I've never had girls as friends and in some parts of my life even before transition, my friend group mainly consisted of girls.

And it is distressing to me, because I repeatedly question whether I actually like boys or if it is just my brain trying to force it on me, but every time I think about calling myself just a lesbian it always feels incomplete and like I'd be locking myself out from people I know I would enjoy being with.

And almost all of the people I've explicitly named as a crush in my mind over the last like 3 years have all been boys.

I'm really lost on what is going on