u/Loriol_13

Speaking for myself, life is full of ups and downs. I notice that I become a hate-watcher whenever I'm miserable, stressed from work and isolated, just doom scrolling inside if I'm not working a job I hate.

Then at some point I start feeling better and life gets better. Things are better at work and it gives me the energy to meet my friends and go on occasional dates and I'm just better. Then I watch KT and read your posts and comments and I wonder how I ever resonated with the hate-watchers.

If you'd ask me, yes, even when I'm in a good place I'd still feel that some regular spots and golden tickets were a mistake, but why get angry? They don't owe me anything. If it ever gets to a point where I don't like it, I'll just stop watching. Simple as that. There's a lot more to life than Kill Tony.

If you're hate-watching, it's not about KT. You're in a bad place. I'm in that same bad place from time-to-time and I realise how much it compromises my mind only after it's over.

I hope y'all hate-watchers feel better.

Had to catch a 25-minute taxi to a 30-minute ferry, then another 30 minutes to get to the venue, so I could hang out awkwardly with people I'd drifted away from for a few hours, then do all the traveling back home. I missed the ferry by 5 minutes coming back and had to wait 45 minutes for the next one. All this on an upset stomach, so I had to use the bathroom a few times and I'm shy with that stuff, and to make it worse I gained weight so my suite is really tight and it made bending down very inconvenient. I spent €70 on traveling alone, then had to fork out €100 on the wedding present. Almost didn't go but thought I'd regret it if I didn't since I used to be good friends with both the bride and the groom.

It's finally over. Been dreading this for months and it's over.

Edit: Just remembered that my posts usually get hate until I clarify that I was clinically diagnosed with Aspergers. Social events scare me a bit.

Over time, I confirmed this over and over.

I agree that there are also many preachy and obnoxious vegans out there as well. I did activism and the people I did it with adopted some kind of vegan fundamentalism approach to life and treated activism guidelines like some kind of bible. If you so much as mention that you care more about the suffering and death than the exploitation of the animals, they will shame you like you're Satan trying to spread your poison. Not everyone does veganism well, I think. Many miss the point and it does get weird and culty.

But it says so much about someone that they would be vegan. I've met open-minded, seemingly kind and special people who make a face and get defensive when you mention animal rights. It's so disappointing every time. You meet someone who seems so harmless and compassionate. You think this person might be vegan already, who knows? If not, surely they'd simpathise or get it, or maybe they just never thought about it before and are waiting for that one comment, that first time someone made them think and look into it. No. Surprisingly, no. And why not? And why get defensive? Is coming across as being compassionate such a precious thing to them? This whole time, did they come across as compassionate because they wanted to come across as compassionate? It's not an actual consequence of them being compassionate?

This has happened so often. People calling themselves animal lovers who hiss internally at the mention of someone not wanting to pay people to cause unnecessary suffering and death on animals. So disappointing when the veil drops and the animosity or excuses start rolling in, even if you just mention you don't eat meat when it's relevant to the conversation. They give us free food at work so my colleagues found out all at once that I'm vegan on the first day. So many welcoming individuals switched to this other personality. The facade dropped and you could see the conflict inside of them and the way it manifested itself into this negativity toward me. Then I'd have to go through this again every time someone new joins. So disappointing.

To this day, I have never met another vegan except during my activism or at vegan events. It's such a rare thing for someone to walk the true walk of compassion, knowing they won't be socially rewarded for it. Such a rare and special thing.

I dated a Turkish woman a few years ago and was pleasantly surprised by how many of her recipes were accidentally vegan. I remember she'd make this delicious dish with green lentils, tomato sauce, and buckwheat. It was finger-licking good, but for her it was a lazy meal, sort of the equivalent of me cooking instant noodles with frozen veg or pasta with jarred pesto and broccoli. She would literally pause any episode we're watching in bed at 11pm, go whip up two bowls of it and come back with them 15 minutes later. When she told me the ingredients, I remember thinking, "That's it?" I really wish I noted it down somewhere. I'm tempted to say it's green lentils, buckwheat, onions, garlic, and passata/tomato paste, but I don't trust myself on matters of cooking. I think though that adding green bell peppers could add value, even though she never did it. Do you know what the recipe could be?

Note: I might be mixing up buckwheat and bulgur wheat.

I'm vegan and I don't usually try and debate anyone about it, but if someone's asking questions and they don't have bad intentions behind them, I engage.

My manager says she loves animals and I could see my being vegan made her uncomfortable, like she kept being reminded of the conflict she has in her heart every time she sees me take out my lunch. Sometimes she'd ask questions and I wouldn't be sure how to interpret her expression. She'd make me a bit uncomfortable.

She mentioned something about being in a farm as a child and having a dizzy spell after watching farmers pull out a baby calf from a mother cow using chains? Something like that. I didn't say anything. I just felt that my manager belongs with us, not on the other side of the debate.

Then recently she mentioned that she doesn't eat pigs because she learned about gestation crates and didn't like how badly pigs are treated on farms. The only thing I said was, "All animals are treated terribly on farms, not just pigs." She didn't say anything.

Two days ago, she said she'll be sticking to fish only when it comes to meat. That's cool. She'd never quit fish because her family loves fish. Her brother is a literal fisherman.

I don't know what to feel really. Should I celebrate? It's not that I think going from omni to vegan makes a huge difference and going from omni to pescatarian makes no difference at all. I've met vegans who are like that. Anything other than vegan is equally bad in their opinion, like veggie and omni means the same amount of animal products are consumed. I honestly think that's silly and factually incorrect.

It's more I don't even know if it's worth celebrating even if someone turns vegan because of what I say. I often wonder how many people need to turn vegan before food conglomerates notice and lower production. Did I make a difference? Either way, I will remain vegan because I can't even eat a drop of mayonnaise without thinking of a miserable, featherless chicken having to suffer for the egg that went into the mayonnaise. But why celebrate for helping others reduce meat? I struggle to make the connection between convincing one person to make more ethical choices in my lifetime if I'm lucky and reduced animal suffering.

I just feel meh about it. Would you celebrate? What if they went vegan instead of pescatarian?

6 months ago when this album came out, I had just found a job after 2.5 years unemployed. I had just been pulled out of that dark pit and I was happy. I put on Future Quiet and was disappointed at how sad it was. I wanted happy happy happy, jump jump jump, dance dance dance.

6 months into my job, I'm stressed and I feel like this company owns me and I'm in an existential crisis. I took a week off work and all I could think about the whole time was how this will be temporary and on the 31st I'm back at work where I'll be spoken to like a child just because I signed a contract that gives nasty, angry people authority over me.

Literally just sweating, limp on the hot ground at the park, I remembered I had my earpods with me and randomly checked Spotify. I checked my saved albums and saw Future Quiet. It just made sense to put it on.

During a week where I barely even felt like listening to music, this was the best music I'd ever heard in my life. Still haven't finished the album and my breathing is soothing again instead of anxious. This album somehow gave meaning to my suffering.

I went on a date with someone and it went well. We're messaging daily and it looks like things will keep going, at least for a while. We exchanged social media during the date and that's when I started getting doubts in terms of compatibility.

I look at her photos, watch her videos and stories and get drained. It's like a nightmare to me, joingin to such events. Such a big group, and everyone's woo-ing and shouting and hugging and dancing and there's nothing wrong with it, it's just a matter of compatibility.

I like her a lot, but we're both looking for something long term. So if we decide to stay together, would I need to meet all these people and join for these things? I watch her stories and hold my sheets and cats closer and thank god I'm not there with her.

How common is this sentiment among us introverts?

And the great thing is that it's guaranteed to happen for three whole months every single year. I look at it as a treat.

I don't know if I'm a winter person in general, but in my country I am. I live in Malta and we still get sunny days in winter. In fact, we get everything. In summer it's just a constant scorch and it actually starts and ends before summer.

I just remembered this year I caught the bus in winter and it was just great. I drive everywhere, but I was going to run my first ever 5k and it made sense to catch the bus and run it home. Waiting for the bus, I could see my breath evaporate and thought I'd better savour the moment because we have short winters here. I wouldn't even catch the bus for any reason in summer because it's a very touristy country and buses are loaded with people during this time.

I see photos where we have hoodies on and it gets me so eager for winter. And again, there will also be sunny days once or twice a week and those sunny days will feel special and enjoyable, and you could even go for a walk in the winter sun. I just can't wait for winter. The first time I wear socks to warm my feet after summer is my first Christmas of the year.

Who here loves winter like I do?

I'll be honest, I'm not really debating because I'm not choosing any sides here. I myself am vegan; my food is vegan, my shampoo's vegan, my dish soap's vegan, I don't go to zoos... you get the gist.

I posted here because I expect to get less hate here because you expect people to ask worse things than what I'm asking.

Basically, before I went vegan, I used to love watching people do food challenges online. No idea why. Sounds stupid to me, but the videos are just so entertaining.

When I started learning about animal exploitation and switching to veganism, one of the first things I did was check if there are any vegan food challenge channels out there and there aren't any.

I unsubbed from all food challenge channels in my subscriptions, which wasn't hard. My favourite one dissed vegans all the time and his ignorance really pushed me away. I'd rather someone make fun of vegans than the animal exploitation itself and I'm not easily offended if it's us vegans being targeted, but I didn't like him anymore and that made me not want to watch him.

As I struggle to find what to put on YT, I always gravitate to food challenges. Again, I don't know why someone eating an ungodly amount of food in one sitting just appeals to me.

How unethical is this? Realistically, how much of a difference am I making toward the animals by giving these paid Youtubers a view here and there on their videos that have hundreds of thousands, if not millions of views? Thank you.

This is her minute. I check it from time to time because it's so bad that it's interesting, like watching a train wreck. Been watching every week for 2.5 years and this gets my vote for worst bucket pull in that time. Can you think of anyone worse?

Okay, I feel weird saying it but this game got stressful all of a sudden.

It took me ages to beat Mud Pit Mania. Seriously, I hate that ghost in the end so much. I hate him as if he were a person who did me wrong. I hate him like I hate the guy who ended my parents' marriage. Grrrrr.

I just wanted some nostalgia. Does this game get less stressful again after the desert island? Seriously.

So I use Borrox every two weeks. I used to get a lot of earwax buildup and my doctor told me to use Borrox as a preventative. FYI, my ears aren't full of earwax. This is preventative, not a treatment.

About 3 months ago, my tinnitus in the left ear increased by a lot. It didn't just increase, but it's different. It feels like it's coming from within the ear canal whereas before it felt like it's coming from the brain. It's hard to explain.

I think I have ETD and in fact I do nasal rinse and Kesol nasal spray regularly and it helps, but it doesn't take the new tinnitus sound away completely. In fact, when the tinnitus is at its lowest is the only time I don't feel my ear fill up every time I swallow saliva with my nose pinched.

Weird thing is, when I apply the earwax spray, the new tinnitus sound is completely gone for like 2 minutes until the spray is drained from my ear. Pity I can't apply the spray more often and I'm restricted to just once every 2 weeks.

Anyone know why the spray takes away the new tinnitus sound completely and does that point toward anything I should be doing to remove this new tinnitus sound in a less temporary manner?

Thank you.

I didn't study literature or how to analyse it. I just read books for fun.

I always struggled to explain how D's writing feels very realistic and unrealistic to me at the same time, but I think I get it. D isolates very specific and realistic feelings with stunning psychological precision, but the character portrays the feeling in an almost theatrical manner. It's like watching a play where the characters are hyper-complex. It's different from Tolstoy where you read and the characters behave so naturally and realistically that you feel you're breathing the same air as them. D's stories feel very much like stories rather than experiences like Tolstoy's.

Anyway, that's what I think.

Google Translate it-tnejn li huma jikkunsidrom "monster" meta naqlibhom bl-Ingliz, pero t-tnejn jghoddu bhala tajbin?

Jien dejjem "monstru" ghidt, pero ghal xi raguni kiku kelli niktibha waqt xi ezami ma nhossx li hi korretta u nuza "mostru" minflok.

Xahadd jaf jikjarifika? Cert li "mostru" hija tajba imma nixtieq nikkonferma dwar "monstru". Grazzi.

I'm struggling right now.

I'm stuck in bed because of my back and my tinnitus is especially loud today. It's 17:32 on a Sunday and I can't stop dreading work tomorrow. My manager is off until the 11th and I'm covering for her. A tonne of stressful work came in and I feel unprepared.

What would you do in my position? I went through a mindfulness phase about 2 years ago and I felt great, but I forgot most of the things I learned and don't know where to start relearning it. Thank you.

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Hadn't listened to this in about 5 years somehow and I get to feel like I'm hearing it for the first time again. Going through a profound experience.