u/LosterPawn

I made a post yesterday saying I was very stressed af due to OS exam. I couldnt even sleep the night even tho I was sleepy af... Morning wake up cheythapo full tension aarnu, just studied some basic programs and went...

1% CHANCE
99% FAITH

Lab external teacherine kanda thanne oru negative and strict look aarnu and she was defo strict but I was somehow lucky, nyagade batch aarnu the most easiest batch in the entire class, cuz nyagalode FCFS choichu, literally FCFS of all programs.

Funfact is I didnt study this thinking its easy and wont be asked... but etho bhagyam kond morningil onnu vaichu noki and was able to get full output after some shenanigans... viva also kore kitti.

I am 99% sure I will pass. The 99% FAITH sure helped...

Thanks for everyone who messaged in my previous post and supported me.

Having OS LAB EXAM enik oru myrum thalel keranilla and idk wtf to do, really tensed rn, literally 18 programs indd athil fcfs and fifo nokanilla cuz chance of that is low, rest all need to be studied and some code like OPTIMAL page replacement is soo fucked that idk how can I even study that, anyone please help!

I met this girl in class 1 we were great friends, in class 2 she got into huge issue because of me (I accused her of stealing my book despite having no proof) she forgave me for that in class 3, we were in same class for 6 years then in class 7 I changed school, in class 12 I had to return to my old school cuz the school I studied from class 7 to 10 didnt have class 11 and 12.

I met this girl again in class 11 and she herself came to talk to me, Idk what happened to me but I didnt even look at her when she talked and he asked me if I remember her name, I clearly remembered it but said idk who she is, she actually got pretty sad and moved on, and from the moment I had this guilt inside of me.

Fast forward 2 years I finished class 12 never had opportunity to apologize to her, finally saw her in exam center, I waited at exit to see her and realised she got off via another exit. This actually impacted me a lot idk why but the guilt increased a lot and my mind began thinking me failing the exam and failing all exams after was her curse on me cuz I hurt her (I was pretty good at studies before this event and even got straight A's but after this I barely got any and even lowkey failed many subjects)

Fast forward to 2 more years, now 4 years since that event happened, whenever anything bad happens to me this event flashbacks in my heart automatically, all of my friends I had left me for some reason and ghosted me despite I attempting to talk to them regularly they just wont respond, and everytime this happens my heart goes back to this event with this girl...

Now I then met a girl from class 10, she asked me the same question the other girl asked me, if I remembered her name this time I learnt from my mistake and told her name and even we talked a lot, I thought the curse of the other girl vanished away cuz I fixed my mistake but apparently not! I kept having bad times.

Now something crazy happens today, my long lost friend decides to call me, he was a distant friend of mine whom I havent talked to for 7 years or so and apparently this girl was in his college... He told me she talked about me and always says that I forgot her after 6 years of friendship and I was shocked, I never thought I harmed her that much. I asked him for her number and called her. I apologized 3-4 times to her and explained to her that I was having a shit personality back then, etc, etc. She told me she forgot about the event but I knew she clearly didnt and she told me "its okay" whenever I apologized...

My mind is kinda clear now, I feel like the guilt is finally moving away from me after 4 years, this event was imo the biggest fuck up I ever commited in my entire life, I swear to never do this ever again. I hope the girl genuinely forgave me, I tried my best in my apology as well I really wanted to fix things with her. I hope I wont have the guilt ever again... It was such a suffering for entire 4 years.

I have been always wondering how its possible for some people to just study all day?
I first thought its possible for me too if I tried so I tried for 1 whole month and what happened?
Week 1 and 2 worked out well but Week 3 I started feeling extremely sleepy and now its Week 4 and I am literally playing games-

When I now sit to study idk what happened I literally cant sit for few mins without overthinking stuffs (the stuffs I think are not study related btw) which drops my efficiency a lot, and if I efficiently start studying I feel so sleepy that studying becomes half-assed cuz of sleep hitting me, and if I decide to sleep then there goes 2-3 hours and this later fucks up my sleep at night as well and the next day morning.

If anyone here studies atleast more than 5-6 hours consistency for like more than 1-2 months please help me, idk how I can fix this issue.
This mostly happens when I am revising or solving PYQ.

Is there a mod or feature in worldbox by which we can drag only soldiers using magnet or anything or is there any mod which does this or controlling soliders?

I was playing rulerbox mod and I have enough resources (wood and stone) to build a watchtower, I also have enough money as well but for some reason when I try to place it in lets say x district it says that "district" doesnt have resources but the same structure works in y district... Idk why it doesnt work in x district. Does anyone here know why?

So I told my father, I cant get scholarship so told me to go without scholarships. I told him it would cost a lot, he said "we" can take educational loans and I "just" need to live in very low rent area and work a lot for 2 years of MS program completion and then I would get job.

He said his friend's son who went few years ago to australia did it and he told me if I were to do any job here I would suffer later in life anyways. I myself was planning to prep for GATE and aim for tier 1 colleges here in India but he told me thats impossible for someone like me (since I only got 85%ile in JEE).

Chatgpt said college fees are rising in abroad as INR is keeping on reducing day by day he said if others can do it why cant I...
I wanna know if its actually possible to survive these days and do finishing masters give you good job afterwards? I am not talking about countries like US and UK btw

I am still studying for GATE but I wanna know everyones opinion

my_qualifications:

Class 10: Full A1 (State Syllabus)
Class 12: 79% (CBSE)
JEE: 85%ile
College: Tier 3 NBA and NAAC A Grade in Kerala (BTech CSE)
Extra Curricular: Won many state level chess tournaments

As yall saw my qualifications for now, I am currently going into 3rd year of my CSE journey, my parents have been seeing news of everyone getting rich going to abroad and want to send me there.

From what I have researched there is no way someone like me with that less of a qualification can get into a good college with SCHOLARSHIP in abroad. Now scholarship is necessary cuz we are middleclass family and doesnt have much income earning and I dont want my parents to take lotta loans and sell our house.

Whatever I try to say they think its possible for me to get into a good college abroad, can someone gimme a reality check on how hard its gonna be for me abroad or should I stay here and prep for govt exams? Please provide serious answer need to show this to my parents.
I dont want to fall into some agency scamming me as well.

I have been prepping really well for past 2 weeks, I have never studied this much longer in my life. But last 3 days I have been relapsing on everything, not even studying anything, the tasks I thought to complete are still pending, I end up watching countless yt videos for absolutely no reason and when I try to study my brain just shuts off and dont feel like it.

I just saw a post here that there is only 9 months left for GATE prep but I feel like I dont have any permanent drive to prepare. If anyone was in same position like me it would be really helpful if you tell what you did.

If anyone knows any method we can use to keep the drive and push the grind please write them in the comments as help, would be really helpful.