u/LowStructure4073

The xbox version was infinetly better graphically.

Just a reminder.

it is worth a shot?

she says if i dont pay bills other guys will. this been going on for two years

i see other people online not do such a thing. it seems what im doing is unnormal and im actually getting taken advantage of because lets be honest would they really talk to me in real life. i just want to be like everyone else and live normal i really think schizophrenia has clouded my judgement skills.

What do?

if feelings intensify at store and driving and parking inside not too bad just driving parking. and feelings are baseline at home. what can i do just say get er done and stiffen that upper lip and just do it! like micheal

I'm very weary of people in real life but for some reason I bring my guard down for people online. make it make sense bro. Why would i open the pocket book to someone in another country that i never met before over someone I can see in real life but in real life I wouldn't give anyone money unless i was getting something very special back even then I probably wouldn't. but for some reason there's a disconnect between real life people and online people the disconnect is so real. I can't make it make sense bro.

If I weary online then I should be weary online. Keep that same energy.

it doesn't make sense in my working brain but here we are. why would i even trust someone I can't even see in rea life over someone I can see and in the end it just makes it that much worst. oh baby. I'm hurting.

Cause to be quite honest I already feel like Im living in a prison like world in the free world. People do shitty things to me and get away with it and if I react I'm the bad person. People know what they get get away with and they know your sick so they do slight things to me because they know I'll react to it it my mind because of schizophrenia they slighty bully me and laugh about it when I have a slight meltdown cause by the world. they use car lights and tailgate me drive super aggressive against me get in my personal space looking for a reaction while you may think I'm overreacting it effects me and awakens my schizophrenia. where I think people are all against me and I should do something about it but the thing is i react they push away its like they push up against me in the slightest way then back down when I react in a sense that is harrasment and bullying because what does a bully want you do react what is harrasment harrasing someone in the slighest way to get a reaction out of them either good or bad so thats why I say I'm living in a prison like world with this disease and with regular people they don't react or people dont' try to harrase them or bully them they just do it to me cause they know i'm sick and im an easy mark.

This one person asks for money almost weekly and they say there rent is past due but when I did my research I found out after one rent is past due you get evicted but then she said she paid her rent in advance with a contract from a bank I dont know how true that is I never researched but if I look at my past log I've given this person over a 1000 dollars this month alone. What is really going on here I never met this person in real life. other people beg me for money online too seems I attract beggars online I'm not sure what that means I just want to be like I was before my grandma died into the games into sports on tv I remember back in 2005 or so some girl only asked for 40 dollars for a doctors appointment I said no she stopped talking to me I wish I was younger me and had the cajones to say no to these people. but ever since my grandma died it's been hard to say no. without my grandmothers guidance she would sniff out these bad actors in my life and show me the true intention of them but alas she isn't here anymore she passed away in 2018 and In July of 2018 I supported this twitch person but only as a channel sub here and there but in July I actually donated real money to them I dont know what I was trying to get out of it maybe connection but it was begining of the end of my fiances as I know It. I started with a 850 credit score in 2019 5000 in the green and by the end of June 2019 I was in debt and in the hole for 8000. after meeting another bad actor in twitter. so like a real dumb ass I said okay let me go on these web cam sites like bigo and chaturbate and donate to people that actually come on cam but I already had donated money to a person on cam on twitch and they blocked me for some unknown reason after I had donated like 1000 to there channel after like six months one bad decision led to another bad decision and here were are. in super debt and giving my money to some bad actors online continually also western union has barred me because they sniffed out what was going on and to keep me safe after asking some questions about why and how these people are and I didn't pass they barred me this march. so in ending. I'm tired of making bad decisions with money and I just want to be like I was in my 20s and 30s being able to say no and not giving shit if that person stops talking to me. at least I save face and aren't giving my monies away to some bad actors online. but it all started on twitch in 2018 and come to a head on bigo and sites like chaturbate giving money to cam girls. What has this world come too. I'm sure I could swing a friendship offline but I spend all my energy giving and talking to people on whats app where I don't know exactly know there living situation and planes tickets are expensive I dont understand what I'm getting out of this it seems as though they are controlling me and I don't have the cajones to say no because I feel like I gotta pay for some unknown reason or they led to believe I have to pay when in reality I really dont we dont' have strings and we never met online and the weird thing about this online cam girls bigo thing is women in real life never asked me for money but online woman have giving me and basically strong armed me to give them money it's just weird to me how women offline and women online are are are these really women? is someone behind them doing someone else is bidding see and thats thing I can't confirm nor deny any of that cause I never met them in real life but from my understanding women offline are safer I Remember going to the dollar general before I got barred they would see my buying habits and say don't get scammed I shit you not these women offline would ask the dm to barr me but had my back for some reason with money things. even women who would eventually grown to hate me for some reason had my back but these offline women pretend to like me or love me or maybe they dont they just preach to me I gotta pay for some unknown reason I"m in the situation and I'm realizing I get money weekly and lose it almost immediately to these people like a never ending rinse and repeat and when I really think about it and wake up to the reality wtf am I doing?

is that why my game keeps crashing all the games

on xbs2 if everyone has the same serie S why are my games crashing if the power is placebo my pc runs the games better.