u/Lumpy-Self6695

im now in a rock bottom

it all started last year when i got hospitalized due to my kidney stones. i used to be a call center agent for 4 years most of what i eat are mostly pares and some salty foods which costs me greatly

. well yun lang available sa madaling araw ehh. then i had an operation that costs me all of my savings and tons of debts from my friends. take note i live alone im a unico hijo and both of my parents passed away when i was 19 y/o. left alone by that age but i kept on grinding and moving forward no matter what.

however when i was hospitalized for more than a month i truly felt how alone i am no one was with me when i got admitted my friends visited me but none of my family relatives paid me a visit ever. all they did was ipagdadasal nalang daw nila ako and they're too busy to visit me cant blame them im nothing but a nephew to them.

i realized in that moment that at the end of the day i`ll eat alone i`ll sleep alone and maybe i`ll die alone and they wouldnt give a single care about it.thank god i survived that but sometimes i wish i didnt survived.

from there on nalubog ako sa utang i was out of work for more than 2 months i got bills to pay my electricity water and im renting an apartment. im super gratefull for my friends they lent me a loan. but a loan is a loan. went back to work but i cant budget my salary anymore. pang bayad nalang sa utang and all napupunta nag sabay sabay silang lahat.

i got overwhelmed and pressured by that it affects my performance in work. one thing lead to another i lost the only job i had i got burned out by the situation im in.

i keep on blaming my self bakit pa kasi ako nag ka sakit and bakit pa kasi ako nabuhay pa. due to late payments i got kicked out of my apartment i was behind my rent for 4 months. i reached out to my relatives none of them accepted me reached out to my friends but they're maxed out na.

currently homeless got nothiing to eat there are times some of my friends giving me caned food,rice and water. but its not all the times. so to survive to sold my shoes some of my clothings in exchange for a food. nilalako ko siya bawat karinderya sinasabi ko na damit nalang pamalit ko sa pagkain. all i have with me now are a pair of shoes and some clothes and pants.

i still want to believe na makaka ahon pa ako but parang hinde ko na kaya i dont know if i can take it anymore ive been homeless now for 2 months looking for a stay in job that could pay me daily so that i could budget a savings and for my food plus the necessities i needed for a daily survival i tried construction before i only lasted for like 3 days since my body isnt used to be on a labor job it felt like im about to be hospitalized again being a call center agent for a lot of years makes you weak i honestly dont know what to do anymore i just whished i didnt survived when i got sick

im now in a rock bottom

it all started last year when i got hospitalized due to my kidney stones. i used to be a call center agent for 4 years most of what i eat are mostly pares and some salty foods which costs me greatly

. well yun lang available sa madaling araw ehh. then i had an operation that costs me all of my savings and tons of debts from my friends. take note i live alone im a unico hijo and both of my parents passed away when i was 19 y/o. left alone by that age but i kept on grinding and moving forward no matter what.

however when i was hospitalized for more than a month i truly felt how alone i am no one was with me when i got admitted my friends visited me but none of my family relatives paid me a visit ever. all they did was ipagdadasal nalang daw nila ako and they're too busy to visit me cant blame them im nothing but a nephew to them.

i realized in that moment that at the end of the day i`ll eat alone i`ll sleep alone and maybe i`ll die alone and they wouldnt give a single care about it.thank god i survived that but sometimes i wish i didnt survived.

from there on nalubog ako sa utang i was out of work for more than 2 months i got bills to pay my electricity water and im renting an apartment. im super gratefull for my friends they lent me a loan. but a loan is a loan. went back to work but i cant budget my salary anymore. pang bayad nalang sa utang and all napupunta nag sabay sabay silang lahat.

i got overwhelmed and pressured by that it affects my performance in work. one thing lead to another i lost the only job i had i got burned out by the situation im in.

i keep on blaming my self bakit pa kasi ako nag ka sakit and bakit pa kasi ako nabuhay pa. due to late payments i got kicked out of my apartment i was behind my rent for 4 months. i reached out to my relatives none of them accepted me reached out to my friends but they're maxed out na.

currently homeless got nothiing to eat there are times some of my friends giving me caned food,rice and water. but its not all the times. so to survive to sold my shoes some of my clothings in exchange for a food. nilalako ko siya bawat karinderya sinasabi ko na damit nalang pamalit ko sa pagkain. all i have with me now are a pair of shoes and some clothes and pants.

i still want to believe na makaka ahon pa ako but parang hinde ko na kaya i dont know if i can take it anymore ive been homeless now for 2 months looking for a stay in job that could pay me daily so that i could budget a savings and for my food plus the necessities i needed for a daily survival i tried construction before i only lasted for like 3 days since my body isnt used to be on a labor job it felt like im about to be hospitalized again being a call center agent for a lot of years makes you weak i honestly dont know what to do anymore i just whished i didnt survived when i got sick

i went on a rock bottom currently
it all started last year when i got hospitalized due to my kidney stones. i used to be a call center agent for 4 years most of what i eat are mostly pares and some salty foods which costs me greatly

. well yun lang available sa madaling araw ehh. then i had an operation that costs me all of my savings and tons of debts from my friends. take note i live alone im a unico hijo and both of my parents passed away when i was 19 y/o. left alone by that age but i kept on grinding and moving forward no matter what.

however when i was hospitalized for more than a month i truly felt how alone i am no one was with me when i got admitted my friends visited me but none of my family relatives paid me a visit ever. all they did was ipagdadasal nalang daw nila ako and they're too busy to visit me cant blame them im nothing but a nephew to them.

i realized in that moment that at the end of the day i`ll eat alone i`ll sleep alone and maybe i`ll die alone and they wouldnt give a single care about it.thank god i survived that but sometimes i wish i didnt survived.

from there on nalubog ako sa utang i was out of work for more than 2 months i got bills to pay my electricity water and im renting an apartment. im super gratefull for my friends they lent me a loan. but a loan is a loan. went back to work but i cant budget my salary anymore. pang bayad nalang sa utang and all napupunta nag sabay sabay silang lahat.

i got overwhelmed and pressured by that it affects my performance in work. one thing lead to another i lost the only job i had i got burned out by the situation im in.

i keep on blaming my self bakit pa kasi ako nag ka sakit and bakit pa kasi ako nabuhay pa. due to late payments i got kicked out of my apartment i was behind my rent for 4 months. i reached out to my relatives none of them accepted me reached out to my friends but they're maxed out na.

currently homeless got nothiing to eat there are times some of my friends giving me caned food,rice and water. but its not all the times. so to survive to sold my shoes some of my clothings in exchange for a food. nilalako ko siya bawat karinderya sinasabi ko na damit nalang pamalit ko sa pagkain. all i have with me now are a pair of shoes and some clothes and pants.

i still want to believe na makaka ahon pa ako but parang hinde ko na kaya i dont know if i can take it anymore ive been homeless now for 2 months looking for a stay in job that could pay me daily so that i could budget a savings and for my food plus the necessities i needed for a daily survival i tried construction before i only lasted for like 3 days since my body isnt used to be on a labor job it felt like im about to be hospitalized again being a call center agent for a lot of years makes you weak i honestly dont know what to do anymore i just whished i didnt survived when i got sick

ive been a silent reader here and i just cant take it anymore.
went on a rock bottom currently it all started last year when i got hospitalized due to my kidney stones. i used to be a call center agent for 4 years most of what i eat are mostly pares and some salty foods which costs me greatly. well yun lang available sa madaling araw ehh. then i had an operation that costs me all of my savings and tons of debts from my friends. take note i live alone im a unico hijo and both of my parents passed away when i was 19 y/o. left alone by that age but i kept on grinding and moving forward no matter what. however when i was hospitalized for more than a month i truly felt how alone i am no one was with me when i got admitted my friends visited me but none of my family relatives paid me a visit ever. all they did was ipagdadasal nalang daw nila ako and they're too busy to visit me. cant blame them im nothing but a nephew to them. i realized in that moment that at the end of the day i`ll eat alone i`ll sleep alone and maybe i`ll die alone and they wouldnt give a single care about it.thank god i survived that but sometimes i wish i didnt survived. from there on nalubog ako sa utang i was out of work for more than 2 months i got bills to pay my electricity water and im renting an apartment. im super gratefull for my friends they lent me a loan. but a loan is a loan. went back to work but i cant budget my salary anymore. pang bayad nalang sa utang and all napupunta nag sabay sabay silang lahat. i got overwhelmed and pressured by that it affects my performance in work. one thing lead to another i lost the only job i had i got burned out by the situation im in. i keep on blaming my self bakit pa kasi ako nag ka sakit and bakit pa kasi ako nabuhay pa. due to late payments i got kicked out of my apartment i was behind my rent for 4 months. i reached out to my relatives none of them accepted me reached out to my friends but they're maxed out na currently homeless got nothiing to eat there are times some of my friends giving me caned food,rice and water. but its not all the times. so to survive to sold my shoes some of my clothings in exchange for a food. nilalako ko siya bawat karinderya sinasabi ko na damit nalang pamalit ko sa pagkain. all i have with me now are a pair of shoes and some clothes and pants. i still want to believe na makaka ahon pa ako but parang hinde ko na kaya i dont know if i can take it anymore ive been homeless now for 2 months looking for a stay in job that could pay me daily so that i could budget a savings and for my food plus the necessities i needed for a daily survival i tried construction before i only lasted for like 3 days since my body isnt used to be on a labor job it felt like im about to be hospitalized again being a call center agent for a lot of years makes you weak

Ano yung Karma and paraa saan siya? dami ko nababasa na need to farm a karma but what exactly a karma is?

Im afraid of dating kase baka ma turn off sa weirdness ko

Context: so I was from a long term relationship before. 1st bf was wayback highschool was 2 years kami. 2nd bf was when I discovered my kink to dressing up and doing foreplay luckily he is into it. Tumagal kami ng 8 years.

Previous attempt: now im 26 and i find it hard to date. Yes I still keep my outfits (uniforms, nun costume, maid etc, police, nurse, stewardess) sa kaban kaso nahihiya ako everytime I try to date. Ako lang ba or masyadong straightforward ng mga tao today? Yung unang meet palang may kiss agad or expecting something. Hayst. I don't date for one night stand etc kasi eh kaya napaka hit or miss. Hindi din naman pwede na first or second or third meet masasabi agad what im into. Yung wala nang timeline ang dating today.

Any advice insights comments judgement huhu ayoko tumandang mag-isa