u/Lzzay

>!​!<the first book I loved, I know people said it was hard to follow, but I devoured it.

holy shit balls I am hating BOFD.

the places are soooo hard to follow. It just feels so messy and I have no idea what the fuck is going on. The begining? With the anthe. What the fuck was going on. for so much world building, the locations have none.
they all happen to be in the same place? Then again later when raeve is killing this person and Kahn saving this other person? Same place.

so this moon fall that is happening, where is the sense of urgency? No Reave just goes off for days with a dragon, and Kahn just chills for two days waiting for her in a medow when he should be helping his people.
there is so sense to urgency at this time bomb. It’s so weird.

then siharna said this boy isn’t even due for 4months was it. Yet then just gives birth.

and khan is veyas older brother, he is handed her still fairly young… but he tames rygun and the only thing teatherking him to his life was his mothers singung. By my calculation she was already dead. This feels like a timeline error.

She used the same words and phrases a million times in the book too. it’s such poor edditing. She needs a thesaurus.

I am finding ir so hard to follow. And I am soo disappointed.

anyone in Telehealth, in particular health direct?

I am thinking about having a break from bedside.

I am burnt out. But maybe this could be a good break for a bit?

I’ve called health direct a few times for fanily and my daughter. and it seems interesting.

is it flexible? how is it?

thanks

The silence, the stillness

You know it’s no good,
You felt it in your bones.

The panicked gasp as you woke to a horrible feeling of dread.
The first spot of blood.

Just like the first time…

In the room….

But the silence, the stillness of where the flicker should be.
The stillness the sonography takes on, the silence as they look harder, press harder. Harder.

The silence of your husband sitting next to you, the stillness of him holding his breath.

The very silence of the room closing in, no one is breathing, the air is still.

You are not just holding your breath, your heart has stopped too, sinking, sinking.
Like the first time you saw the blood.
Sinking sinking

The world is silent, the world is still.

Then the moment passes, and they apologise and pack up. A dip of their head and putting the tissue box next to you in a bit so subtle gesture.

And you dress and wipe away the jelly, the blood, the tears.
The moment has passed and you leave that cold, sterile, silent, still room. The picture frozen on the screen.
The probe standing sentinel.

And you step outside, and the world isn’t silent and still at all. But roaring at you, spinning to fast.
Blank faces, a torrent of sound.

There is stillness within your womb where a baby should be quickening, there is silence where there had been a heart beat.
And there is emptiness where your heart begins to bleed.

Threatened miscarriage

Baby had a heart beat at 5wd2.
However my HCG has been slow rising this whole time.
At 5w2d it has gone from 877(4w5d) to 2770
I started bleeding at 5w5d
At 6w2 day still heart beat on the ultrasound

But at 6w5d hcg was only 3100… barely 18% increase in 9 days.

At 7 weeks there is still a heart beat and it’s still growing but my cramps are getting worse and a lot more bleeding.

Today I got my hcg and it’s only 3002…. At 7w4d….

It’s so hard as there is still a heart beat… baby is trying to grow so hard and my body just cannot do it…
I am so confused.

Progesterone is also low at 8.5 and I was started in progesteron

This bleeding sucks and this limbo sucks. I am basically just waiting for my baby to die inside me.

What do I do, how do I keep myself sane. I am in a really bad place right now

I am 6 weeks with spotting since last Saturday. 30/5.
And I had an ultra sound Monday and Thursday baby was measuring well and heart beat 130.
But mY blood test Thursday showed bhcg 3100 up from 2700 9 days ago??? It should be well over 10,000 to 20,000 by now. And my progesterone is only 9….
Yeti baby is scanning so well. I am so confused.

Any success stories? Still slightly spotting.

I am listening to the audiobook, and it’s voiced by Sarah Mollo-Christensen and Fajer Al-Kaisi.

But when in Raeves chapters, who is the male voice? It’s very different from Fajer, and I don’t think it’s Sarah doing a male voice.
I am a bit thrown over who it is voicing Kaan.

I had a miscarriage before my daughter, my whole pregnancy I was so anxious and stressed.
She is 18m now and we are pregnant with her sibling.
I found out before I was even due, at 10DPO I had a pregnancy test come back positive. The HCG was potentially on the lower side but within normal range each time I did it.
I had a scan at 5w3D because I mentioned back pain to the GP but I have his last Pregnancy as well really severe lower back pain early pregnancy and cramps.
The scan at 5w3D Bubba’s measuring perfectly already could see her flick of her heartbeat so early. I had a scan at the same time of my daughter and you couldn’t even see anything yet just her sack.
I started spotting on Saturday so 5w 5d just tiny amounts, and again on Sunday in the morning, and again today at work.
Some little clots the size of seasame seeds.
But I had a scan I got in right away and baby is happy in there, heart beat 130 and measuring a day ahead today.
There is a small SCH, but the light pink spotting just has me so stressed.

Anyone else have this? I know some people spot all pregnancy….
I will have another US Friday.

Has anyone been audited by AHPRA?
I elected that I was on mat leave and someone told me they are more likely to audit you.

I pretty much have done all my CPD every year on Ausmed logging but last year to be honest sucked. I did try and do some YouTube videos but my boss was terrible with in touch days and would never let me know about education days.

Just wondering if anyone can share their experiences

I was reflecting today, how much time I wasted trying to stay awake, feeding, burping and waiting to put back down in cot.
Far out, half an hour at a time, and what like four times a night maybe more.
Also it was sooo dangerous.
Trying so hard to stay away the falling asleep dangerously.
I told my midwife I didn’t wanna know how to safely co sleep, she tried to tell me anyways.

All that hardship I put on myself. I could have had so much more sleep.
Such a waste of time.

For this next baby, co sleeping from day dot.

My 1.5year old sleeps in a side car crib still. And spends usually till 5am in there now.

3rd pregnancy, with a healthy 1 year old.

She took six months to conceive with a MC before her.
So very anxious about this one but trying not to be.
10 days Post ovulation I was having super sore nipples (breastfeeding) and just a general nausea which I put down to gastro which she has last week.
Then 12 DPO I had shoulder tip pain and vomited in my mouth 😂
Did a test and Lo and behold a faint line. Drs next day level was 47.
Find it kinda crazy I am getting levels and postive tests already at 28 days into my cycle, before I am even due.

Shoulder tip pain is gone, but surprised I am feeling all this already,

A friend who lived in the USA said there is no parents rooms.
I thought I’d ask the reddit community, do you guys in the USA really not have parents rooms?

In Australia, we have parents rooms pretty much everywhere. Granted some are shit, but some can be boogie with nice seats, play areas, microwaves and hot water and feel nice and secure and safe.

I can’t upload a photo but just search westfeilds parents change rooms on google images in Sydney

Edit to add:
Basically a big bathroom lounge area for parents and kids to use.
Some as massive but they mostly provide a space for kids and a pram or two.
For nursing and changing basically.

Edit to add again; this makes me really sad for you guys. How do you manage taking kids out and about?