Mom found out im gay
Hello fellow redditors. Last night my mom figured out and straight up told me that she knows I(18M)am gay and she suspected I have a boyfriend.
We were having a conversation and she repeatdly asked me in the past months if I am not gay. I always said no. I called my sister because she knows im gay. Meanwhile my mom texted me who knows from my friends that im gay. And minutes later another text that I should keep it in secrete and i'll go study elsewhere next year, which I was already planning. I replied to that, that I agree. Then she barged in my room full on crying hugged me, kissed me and said she'll always love mé. She asked about my boyfriend if we're together and I said yes and if his parents know. After that my sister called me and said to me that I shouldnt tell her that we're together (WHOOPS). Before she left she turned around and I smiled on her out of shock. She just kind of looked down and looked disappointed – I understand her, her image of my entire future of how she imagined it just got destroyed. After that she went to balcony. My sister called me again and said that mom called her. I cant clearly recall what she was saying sadly.
Through the night she texted me that I should go to sleep that I have work tomorrow and similar stuff. I heard her sobbing from her room to mine, which is a bit of distance. She already has health problems and i dont want her to get worse but at the same time I know I would still need to tell her one day anyway and the reaction would be the same.
I felt reliéf when I told her and I kept laughing during the night when I told 3 of my friends, which I think is a defense mechanism. Now I feel stressed and shook.
We're probobly talking when I come home from work, if she's ready.
Any advices and opinions are welcome (did I do the right or bad thing?)