u/MajesticKey5875

I really need some perspective because I feel like I’m draining myself and losing my mind.

I’ve been sleeping with this guy since September. He is incredibly hot and cold with me, carries a lot of baggage from his ex, and honestly treats me like an afterthought. He only wants me when it completely suits him, but despite how badly he treats me, I have developed real, deep feelings for him.

There is a massive layer to this that he doesn't know. Back in February, I found out I was pregnant with his baby. Without going into too much detail, I am no longer pregnant. I never told him about it, and I am starting to realize that carrying this secret entirely on my own is what is keeping me so deeply, painfully attached to him. My brain feels tied to him through this trauma. I don’t know if I feel safe to tell him, plus he has avoidant attachment so I don’t know how much he would support me.

He is all I think about. He rejects me over and over, but whenever I have a drink, my inhibitions drop and I text him. Every single time, the same loop happens: he’ll reply at first, give me a tiny bit of attention, and then just abruptly stop and leave me on read. Like last week he was flirty with me then this week he treats me like he doesn’t even know me.

I woke up today feeling so much shame. Why am I finding it so incredibly hard to let go? Why do I keep embarrassing myself by chasing someone who clearly doesn’t care about me the way I care about him? I want to break the loop.

I really need some perspective because I feel like I’m draining myself and losing my mind.

I’ve been sleeping with this guy since September. He is incredibly hot and cold with me, carries a lot of baggage from his ex, and honestly treats me like an afterthought. He only wants me when it completely suits him, but despite how badly he treats me, I have developed real, deep feelings for him.

There is a massive layer to this that he doesn't know. Back in February, I found out I was pregnant with his baby. Without going into too much detail, I am no longer pregnant. I never told him about it, and I am starting to realize that carrying this secret entirely on my own is what is keeping me so deeply, painfully attached to him. My brain feels tied to him through this trauma. I don’t know if I feel safe to tell him, plus he has avoidant attachment so I don’t know how much he would support me.

He is all I think about. He rejects me over and over, but whenever I have a drink, my inhibitions drop and I text him. Every single time, the same loop happens: he’ll reply at first, give me a tiny bit of attention, and then just abruptly stop and leave me on read. Like last week he was flirty with me then this week he treats me like he doesn’t even know me.

I woke up today feeling so much shame. Why am I finding it so incredibly hard to let go? Why do I keep embarrassing myself by chasing someone who clearly doesn’t care about me the way I care about him? I want to break the loop.

I really need some perspective because I feel like I’m draining myself and losing my mind.

I’ve been sleeping with this guy since September. He is incredibly hot and cold with me, carries a lot of baggage from his ex, and honestly treats me like an afterthought. He only wants me when it completely suits him, but despite how badly he treats me, I have developed real, deep feelings for him.

There is a massive layer to this that he doesn't know. Back in February, I found out I was pregnant with his baby. Without going into too much detail, I am no longer pregnant. I never told him about it, and I am starting to realize that carrying this secret entirely on my own is what is keeping me so deeply, painfully attached to him. My brain feels tied to him through this trauma. I don’t know if I feel safe to tell him, plus he has avoidant attachment so I don’t know how much he would support me.

He is all I think about. He rejects me over and over, but whenever I have a drink, my inhibitions drop and I text him. Every single time, the same loop happens: he’ll reply at first, give me a tiny bit of attention, and then just abruptly stop and leave me on read. Like last week he was flirty with me then this week he treats me like he doesn’t even know me.

I woke up today feeling so much shame. Why am I finding it so incredibly hard to let go? Why do I keep embarrassing myself by chasing someone who clearly doesn’t care about me the way I care about him? I want to break the loop.

I really need some perspective because I feel like I’m draining myself and losing my mind.

I’ve been sleeping with this guy since September. He is incredibly hot and cold with me, carries a lot of baggage from his ex, and honestly treats me like an afterthought. He only wants me when it completely suits him, but despite how badly he treats me, I have developed real, deep feelings for him.

There is a massive layer to this that he doesn't know. Back in February, I found out I was pregnant with his baby. Without going into too much detail, I am no longer pregnant. I never told him about it, and I am starting to realize that carrying this secret entirely on my own is what is keeping me so deeply, painfully attached to him. My brain feels tied to him through this trauma. I don’t know if I feel safe to tell him, plus he has avoidant attachment so I don’t know how much he would support me.

He is all I think about. He rejects me over and over, but whenever I have a drink, my inhibitions drop and I text him. Every single time, the same loop happens: he’ll reply at first, give me a tiny bit of attention, and then just abruptly stop and leave me on read. Like last week he was flirty with me then this week he treats me like he doesn’t even know me.

I woke up today feeling so much shame. Why am I finding it so incredibly hard to let go? Why do I keep embarrassing myself by chasing someone who clearly doesn’t care about me the way I care about him? I want to break the loop.

I really need some perspective because I feel like I’m draining myself and losing my mind.

I’ve been sleeping with this guy since September. He is incredibly hot and cold with me, carries a lot of baggage from his ex, and honestly treats me like an afterthought. He only wants me when it completely suits him, but despite how badly he treats me, I have developed real, deep feelings for him.

There is a massive layer to this that he doesn't know. Back in February, I found out I was pregnant with his baby. Without going into too much detail, I am no longer pregnant. I never told him about it, and I am starting to realize that carrying this secret entirely on my own is what is keeping me so deeply, painfully attached to him. My brain feels tied to him through this trauma. I don’t know if I feel safe to tell him, plus he has avoidant attachment so I don’t know how much he would support me.

He is all I think about. He rejects me over and over, but whenever I have a drink, my inhibitions drop and I text him. Every single time, the same loop happens: he’ll reply at first, give me a tiny bit of attention, and then just abruptly stop and leave me on read. Like last week he was flirty with me then this week he treats me like he doesn’t even know me.

I woke up today feeling so much shame. Why am I finding it so incredibly hard to let go? Why do I keep embarrassing myself by chasing someone who clearly doesn’t care about me the way I care about him? I want to break the loop.