Hi all. I am going through a really rough time that would be stressful for anyone, which is then amplified in an ND brain. I know that I have worked through hard times before and I have a lot of support and yet, I am vascillating between panic and grief. I am not looking for advice but more so just some encouragement that I can get through this. Thank you
Hi all, I could really use some support. I have blown up my life twice now in very major ways and have been tempted again but worked through making smaller changes more slowly instead. I keep getting so close to a stable life and then I can't seem to settle. I ended up ending my relationship, changing my jobs, etc. I think that part of the problem is that there is a part of me unsatisfied with my life and so I ignore it until I can't anymore and then in IFS language, the fire fighters take over. Thankfully, I can work with the fire fighters now so I am more grounded now.
However, I honestly don't have the heart to keep repeating this pattern over and over. It's like I am looking for the life that feels good in my body but then I can't seem to find that so I make choices that are good enough for now and then the discord within me finally boils over and I leave while breaking my heart.
At the moment, I am understanding this as structural dissociation because each of these parts of me feels real and are valid but sometimes they are simply not integrated. I slowly starting to work on this by making decisions that enough of the parts agreed with and tried not to do anything that any one part deeply opposed but the thing is that sometimes I was grateful that I acted even if a part disagreed. I have very strong protector parts that create anxiety following a very traumatic time in my life several years ago.
I am looking for narratives from people who have made good progress with a similar issue. What helped? Thanks in advance 🙏🏽
Hi all. I am really struggling with an acutely anxious part that is impairing my functioning. It's a bit disorienting because I keep wavering. When I get reassurance about the things that I am wavering about, it relaxes but then the cycle starts again. Also, not every part is on the same page about these topics that are stressing me. Please help
Hi all, I am considering moving there from the burbs. Originally, thought I would end up in JC but WNY is better for my budget and I really like Boulevard East. My main concern at the moment is loneliness. It doesn't seem as lively at JC or Hoboken, which is okay, but I need to know that there is life around. I am familiar with Bergenline, which is a bit overwhelming for me if I am being honest. I don't really have any friends out there so I am nervous. Are there walkable coffee shops? Is there a sense of community? Please help this apprehensive solo.
Hi all, first, thanks in advance for your comments. I will also mention that I am currently in a sensitized state so my bandwidth is limited for highly charged comments. Nonetheless, I am wondering if anyone has ever worked through polarization within a romantic relationship. It seems that that is what is going on with me and honestly, it can be quite jarring how polarized the parts are. It's confusing because it seems that one part is mostly present when we are together and the one is when we are apart, which is why it can feel like such a swing.
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I also experience intrusive thoughts (OCD-type symptoms) so always dialoguing with parts can actually be contraindicated. This is also my first relationship after a very traumatic period of my life including breaking up myself with someone I very much loved at the time. This relationship is some ways is totally different. Sometimes it feels more like a friendship (which has been a theme in past relationships).
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The thing is that each part has a consistent message. Even looking through my journal it is evident. It is my pms time (have PMDD) so things currently feel amplified but it feels like it can to a head last night when I woke up trembling from anxiety with one voice giving me a clear message.
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For context, the relationship sprung from a long-term friendship. I was hesitant from the beginning to enter into the relationship but with each step I took, my partner showed up in a way that felt right. So the pattern has been hesitation (e.g., this isn't right, I don't feel seen, I need more attunememt and emotional safety), take a step anyway because it felt like the better choice, partner pleasantly surprises me by showing up in a way I need. Anxiety returns...encore.
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I feel like I am burning out and I am trying not to be impulsive. I just want peace.
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Thanks in advance 🙏🏽
Hi all. It has been very difficult to find a provider. Anyone know of a provider who is easy to schedule with? Thanks in advance!
Edit: Thanks for your comments. 🙏🏽I really appreciate it.