u/Mammoth-Pressure-893

Im a woman who has always had eyes for other girls since i can remember, guys didnt cross my mind till i found out that was the norm, now im christian and was dating a pastors son for over two years and im starting to question it again, do i like women??

im religious and im also surrounded by other religious people and have nobody to talk with because i feel very ashamed as it goes against my religion, but i could never imagine myself with a man like ever, ive dated all sorts of people and the only relationships that worked out best and made me the happiest were the ones with women.

i am very confused right now and i dont know what to think, i feel so guilty for even thinking like this but i cant stop and i cant tell anybody about this because ill be shunned and pushed aside.

Im not asking for answers i just want to feel understood in a way, share similar stories please and thank you.

As the title clearly suggests i fell inlove with my best friends ex, who just so happens to be my boy best friend.

The both of them dated for less than a year and broke up 6 months ago to focus on themselves with the idea of getting back together once they had better mental health.

But a few days ago my boy best friend(her ex) confessed to me that he didnt like her anymore as he saw a few flaws in her he didnt like personally and he just couldn't see her as a future partner, when he told me this i did have feelings for him, but i was also in a situationship of 2 years.

He later confessed to me telling me that he liked me too and that he had been feeling very guilty for liking me as i am his ex's best friend and i was talking to someone, but i told him i reciprocated his feelings and that i didnt enjoy talking to the person i was talking to at the moment.

Now its been a week since all this happened and i feel horrible for my best friend because im pretty sure she still thinks they have a chance at getting back together and im just flirting with her ex behind her back, am i an a-hole? they arent even dating and we are both completely available but i wouldnt want to lose my friendship with her over something like this...