i feel irritated whenever my parents try to talk to me
problem/goal: whenever my parents try to talk or connect with me, i feel so annoyed, irritated, or snappy with them. but i love them with my whole heart
context: i have built up resentment towards my parents for years since i was growing up, i'm 28 now and about to get married. medyo naayos naman na kami, pero di ko alam bakit sobrang triggered ako whenever they want to talk to me. minsan lang ako lalabas ng room ko or magkikita kami sice night shift ako and whenever that happens, parang kakausapin ako agad ng dad ko at kahit ano gusto lang itanong. di pa ko nagigising ng maayos tanong agad. anything na sobrang obvious na itatanong parin. sobrang mema lang ba. gets ko naman na miss nila ako at gusto nila makiconnect sakin pero i really dont get why i feel like that. i dont know why i dont feel like talking to parents is normal like other people do. my brother talks to them normally naman. its just me who has issues.
i love them so much, i really do. i want to heal so bad but i don't know how. something in me cant seem to move forward and hold grudge eh.
previous attempts: i tried talking to them about my problems but i felt so invalidated lang. walang kumakampi sakin whenever. i am seeking professional help now. i've booked an appointment but no confirmation yet. thinking about how i'm gonna go down to eat later with them and my dad talking to me right away just triggers me already.