u/Meritaten_Tasherit

I feel a burning sensation in my chest all the time. I'm on medication, but nothing seems to work. Over the last few years, I’ve tried taking fluoxetine, Zoloft, trazodone, venlafaxine, lamotrigine, lithium, and cariprazine. Nothing works. I went from a mild depression diagnosis to bipolar disorder, but honestly, I doubt the diagnosis. It doesn’t feel like bipolar disorder because I’m always despondent; I always feel like my insides are burning down.

I’ve tried therapy.

I hit the gym.

I have a stable job, and I love my colleagues.

I have a very close relationship with my parents, and even though I live in a different city, I try to visit them as often as possible.

I have friends.

Nevertheless, every night I keep hoping I won’t wake up the next morning. I have no idea why life doesn’t bring any fulfillment and feels unbearable.

I went to depression support groups a few times, but it was a huge mismatch because the people there struggle with different things. Some of them have no one to talk to, and some can’t get out of bed. To be honest, I felt ashamed sharing my problems.

I’m functional. My friends say they’d never think I struggle with depression. Meanwhile, I feel emotionally bankrupt and don’t feel a connection with people anymore.

I have enough energy to go to the gym, take English lessons, attend social events, and hang out with people… Yet, I feel miserable all the time.

Has anyone experienced the same? Could you please share your experience?

How are you dealing with a life that’s supposed to feel fine but still makes you wish a huge asteroid would hit Earth and it would all be over?

Does anything help you recover?

If you’re stuck just like I am, feel free to vent in the comments or DM me.

I honestly don’t know what else I can do to feel better. I feel like my brain got fried and forgot how to function properly.

I feel a burning sensation in my chest all the time. I'm on medication, but nothing seems to work. Over the last few years, I’ve tried taking fluoxetine, Zoloft, trazodone, venlafaxine, lamotrigine, lithium, and cariprazine. Nothing works. I went from a mild depression diagnosis to bipolar disorder, but honestly, I doubt the diagnosis. It doesn’t feel like bipolar disorder because I’m always despondent; I always feel like my insides are burning down.

I’ve tried therapy.

I hit the gym.

I have a stable job, and I love my colleagues.

I have a very close relationship with my parents, and even though I live in a different city, I try to visit them as often as possible.

I have friends.

Nevertheless, every night I keep hoping I won’t wake up the next morning. I have no idea why life doesn’t bring any fulfillment and feels unbearable.

I went to depression support groups a few times, but it was a huge mismatch because the people there struggle with different things. Some of them have no one to talk to, and some can’t get out of bed. To be honest, I felt ashamed sharing my problems.

I’m functional. My friends say they’d never think I struggle with depression. Meanwhile, I feel emotionally bankrupt and don’t feel a connection with people anymore.

I have enough energy to go to the gym, take English lessons, attend social events, and hang out with people… Yet, I feel miserable all the time.

Has anyone experienced the same? Could you please share your experience?

How are you dealing with a life that’s supposed to feel fine but still makes you wish a huge asteroid would hit Earth and it would all be over?

Does anything help you recover?

If you’re stuck just like I am, feel free to vent. I need to hear there are people experiencing the same

I honestly don’t know what else I can do to feel better. I feel like my brain got fried and forgot how to function properly.

I feel a burning sensation in my chest all the time. I'm on medication, but nothing seems to work. Over the last few years, I’ve tried taking fluoxetine, Zoloft, trazodone, venlafaxine, lamotrigine, lithium, and cariprazine. Nothing works. I went from a mild depression diagnosis to bipolar disorder, but honestly, I doubt the diagnosis. It doesn’t feel like bipolar disorder because I’m always despondent; I always feel like my insides are burning down.

I’ve tried therapy.

I hit the gym.

I have a stable job, and I love my colleagues.

I have a very close relationship with my parents, and even though I live in a different city, I try to visit them as often as possible.

I have friends.

Nevertheless, every night I keep hoping I won’t wake up the next morning. I have no idea why life doesn’t bring any fulfillment and feels unbearable.

I went to depression support groups a few times, but it was a huge mismatch because the people there struggle with different things. Some of them have no one to talk to, and some can’t get out of bed. To be honest, I felt ashamed sharing my problems.

I’m functional. My friends say they’d never think I struggle with depression. Meanwhile, I feel emotionally bankrupt and don’t feel a connection with people anymore.

I have enough energy to go to the gym, take English lessons, attend social events, and hang out with people… Yet, I feel miserable all the time.

Has anyone experienced the same? Could you please share your experience?

How are you dealing with a life that’s supposed to feel fine but still makes you wish a huge asteroid would hit Earth and it would all be over?

Does anything help you recover?

If you’re stuck just like I am, feel free to vent in the comments or DM me.

I honestly don’t know what else I can do to feel better. I feel like my brain got fried and forgot how to function properly.

Hi!

I've seen lots of people here complaining that they feel lonely and have no one to talk with. And it happened that I'm looking for an English-speaking partner, because I have a love-hate relationship with this language 🥲

I don't really need you to teach or correct me, and you don't need to be a native speaker, either. If you have a C1 level and don't mind having a conversation with an internet stranger, I'll be more than happy.

Also, in case you are studying Russian and are in need of a native speaker to practice with, you're welcome.

About me: I'm Russian, 29F, experiencing the "god, I'm almost 30" crisis. I study English as a masochistic hobby which brings me more pain than pleasure, but I can't stop.

They say to speak more if you want to become fluent, but it doesn't seem to be working in my case. I attend lots of speaking clubs, have a tutor, and even managed to find native speakers living in my city. My conversational English is okay(-ish?), but every time I try to discuss something more complicated than favorite recipes and pets, my brain betrays me and says "au revoir".🥲🥲

Actually, I struggle with the same problem even in Russian, as I usually listen rather than speak. And when people ask for my opinion or ask me to elaborate, I freeze and forget all the words. Also, I speak pretty slowly and some folks loooove to interrupt while I'm trying to conjure up anything. That's why all my conversations look like this: I listen to other people, I ask questions, I listen again, I ask more questions, then people ask me what I did yesterday or how my day was, and I feel like my brain is slowly dissolving.

I'd like to learn how to talk about things that interest me for more than 15 seconds, so if you're kind enough to patiently listen to my rants about modern culture, spiders' weird mating habits, therapy sessions, brain rot, a book about Japanese prisoner-of-war camps I'm currently reading, recipes for apricot pies, and tons of history podcasts I consume, you'll get my appreciation and a bonus to your karma.

We can start with texting from time to time and then try quick calls a few times a month. I expect it to last 10-15 minutes from my side, and I'll be totally done and exhausted. Then we can talk about you. Maybe you're also an English or Russian learner and need more practice, or maybe you, just like me, don't have people to talk about articles you read and YouTube essays you saw, or just need to retell something out loud to memorize it better. If you want someone to hear you out, we can just talk about anything.

There's no pressure, it can be a one-time thing, or we can become real study buddies and talk consistently.

If you're interested, please tell me something about yourself. Anything you think I should know about before telling you how much I love books about Gulag, Ancient Rome, and sociology.