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He said he doesn’t really feel romantic feelings and sent me stuff about being aromantic and said I’m more than a friend but wouldn’t classify me as a romantic interest to him. I’m beyond confused right now, I’m trying really hard to understand him and his feelings. He sent something about queerplatonic relationships and I guess in a way that’s the spot we’re in. I’m just lost, if anyone else has been in a similar situation, I’d really appreciate advice on how to navigate it. I’m not opposed to a qpr I’m just confused right now I guess…

I actually had a decent day yesterday. I’m usually anxious and sick all day on Mother’s Day. I stayed the night at my partner’s place the night before so I got to wake up with him. He’s been really kind and understanding about my relationship or lack of with my mom. He’s never pushed that “but she’s your mom” shit. He had lunch with his mom and I went to my dad’s and his gf’s place for dinner. Thankfully I do have a good relationship with my dad. His gf has been in my life since I was 14 and she was more kind and motherly than my mom has been in 24 years. Having love and support elsewhere is so helpful, especially since I can’t get it from the woman who birthed me.

Sending love and healing to everyone here. I hope yesterday wasn’t too bad for you and that today treats you well.

The book starts with 2 siblings trying to dig through the crust of the Earth. The older sister makes the younger brother get ready for bed and he asks different questions about how things work. He asks how the leaves change color and she says little painters go through and paint all the leaves orange and yellow. He asks how the bath water gets hot and she replies there’s a dragon in the pipes that breathes fire to warm the water before it comes out of the tap. He asks about the night sky and she says it’s a big blanket with holes and that’s what the stars are. I remember them being not being fully pigs but looking very pig-like and I want to say they had curly tails. They might have been more pig than I remember but they were very stylized, not just cartoons. Most of the background was white through the book. No matter what I google, I can’t find it and it’s driving me up the wall

The book starts with 2 siblings trying to dig through the crust of the Earth. The older sister makes the younger brother get ready for bed and he asks different questions about how things work. He asks how the leaves change color and she says little painters go through and paint all the leaves orange and yellow. He asks how the bath water gets hot and she replies there’s a dragon in the pipes that breathes fire to warm the water before it comes out of the tap. He asks about the night sky and she says it’s a big blanket with holes and that’s what the stars are. I remember them being not being fully pigs but looking very pig-like and I want to say they had curly tails. They might have been more pig than I remember but they were very stylized, not just cartoons. Most of the background was white through the book. No matter what I google, I can’t find it and it’s driving me up the wall

I blocked my mom before when I was 20ish but I wanted to try again with her but it’s the same shit. She asked me recently if her and my grandmother could move in with me. This was past midnight and I said I was too tired to fight her but that was a huge ask to come out of nowhere with. She tried to make me feel guilty I don’t visit my grandmother much and she wants to see her grand-baby. I don’t see my grandma bc my mom lives there. I got frustrated she was insisting and guilting me and when she said it wasn’t a big ask, I got mad. I said it’s on her for not working for the past like 4 years now she’s broke and living with family. She said I was making her feel shitty and I said she needs to grow up and she made me feel like absolute shit when I was growing up and constantly told me how terrible I was and no one would ever love me. Now I have to fight terrible thoughts every single day and she said she apologized but never really said why, just more of “sorry you feel that way.” Two messages later, she denies she ever hurt me. I told her that undoes any “apology” she’s ever said bc now she’s denying she ever did anything wrong to begin with. She replied with a bunny emoji and I blocked her. So exhausting.

I’ve been “spotting” but basically it’s a light period despite the fact I shouldn’t be bc of where I am in my birth control. My gyno says I probably have endo on top of my PCOS and I just feel like I’ve been fucked over. I didn’t do anything to cause this, I’m just stuck with it. With the weird hormones and pain and bleeding. It’s so miserable. Plus I have a physical job and I can’t take a break when my symptoms are bad, even when I’m getting dizzy and sick and cramping. I’m grown and should just “be used to having periods by now” but it’s just such a mess and a fight with my own body. I feel comfortable complaining to my partner about it, he can’t do much but him just listening and being kind and trying to understand as well as a man can helps but I just want to fuss about it to people who get what I’m feeling. Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this, it’s kinda pointless tho lol.