u/Miserable_Help1532

On Buspirone 20mg twice daily (40mg/day) and i’ve noticed some improvements. I’ve only been on this current dose for a couple of weeks but went the past 4~ days without any due to pharmacy problems.

Back on them today and it’s making me realize I get a very specific feeling while on them. It feels like all the anxiety I have is there but is hidden behind a mental and physical fog. I guess the best thing I can compare it to is listening to someone speak in the same room as you vs behind a door.

To be clear, I’m not sure if this is a good feeling. My anxiety is lessened a bit but also… I can still feel it. and because I feel it in this new way it almost makes me more anxious and a bit more restless because I want to try and resolve the feeling of anxiety but don’t think I can. I don’t know if i’m explaining it well but in some ways it feels worse than just feeling normal anxiety.

I think I worry that one small event could bring the anxiety back at full force, like it’s being dangled over my head and just waiting for an opportunity to strike.

I am really, really hoping this feeling goes away 😭

Currently on Buspirone 20mg twice daily and while it’s pretty decent, it doesn’t feel like enough. I’m already pretty close to the upper limits of what would typically be the max daily (60mg)

I don’t notice any major crash, but it just feels insufficient, like long waves in and out instead of a single time where it dropped in effectiveness. I’ve not had many side effects. Since increasing to my current dose, I think i’ve had a tiny bit of numbness (not the kind I want that blocks anxiety, but more of a mental fog) but it’s hard to tell. Maybe a little more irritable.

I’m wondering if this same dose i’m on could be better split up 3x a day? or if adding another 10-20mg on top of what I take as a third dose could make this better?

Can anybody relate to my experience with insufficient results being made better by 3x daily dose?

I only had one day that was truly anxiety free since starting the medication. Everything else had felt unstable in terms of if I will feel panic and anxiety or not. I just want something stable that works well 😭

My contract expired and due to a hiring freeze I was not offered an extended contract. I was really, really hoping I’d stay in this position. I’ve been out of work for a couple of weeks now and have applied for Employment Insurance but won’t hear back for a bit.

It will not be a lot to live off of. My rent is stupidly high, and I was hoping to spend the rest of this year paying off my personal debts. Now I can’t do that and have so much financial stress looming overhead. I also can’t save any money.

Obviously I need to apply for jobs. But each time I open up job listings i’m thrown into panic, as it makes me spiral into worries about my future and how difficult it is to get any job right now. It’s exhausting applying only to not hear back. And hearing back is its own problem because now I need to worry about an interview which will be debilitating, then if I get the job offer my anxiety is through the roof on-boarding and navigating a new and unfamiliar environment.

On top of all that, my last job paid me a lot. There aren’t many positions with good pay. Having to work harder for a massive pay cut is not motivating and makes the financial stress even worse.

I don’t know what to do. I feel so trapped and hopeless.

I developed an aversion to/fear of needles over the years and really struggled to take my injection. This led to months on and off with T and eventually a couple of months where I didn’t take any at all.

I knew patches and gel wouldn’t work for me so my endo offered pills. They have to be taken twice per day. I was prescribed 160mg per day (80mg twice daily). I just started on this dose a couple of days ago and oh boy…

It’s not exactly like it was when I first started T (2019) but less than a week in i’ve been struggling with frustration/anger and horniness a lot. I also started getting cramps as if I was on my period, but I haven’t gotten my period yet. I’m really hoping it takes less time to get over these changes and won’t be a nearly year-long puberty experience like the first time. I imagine this is just a big hormonal shock to my system. The biggest issues for me the first time around were sweat and facial bloating. Praying I avoid these 🙏🏻

No skin changes (oiliness) yet at the very least.