u/MoneyFrosting2898

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Trying to play suitu and converse but everyone is friends, don't respond in chat, and so damn sensitive. People want to report someone or get annoyed over uwu and it makes playing so damn hard. How do you make friends that aren't sensitive and weird? Rn I'm playing World Chat and english chat but they both are fr annoying the hell out of me. Especially English chat. They cry over the littlest things and act so weird to people not in their “circle.” is there like another server of English chat I can join or am I just stuck. I am trying to join an agency. I love dressing up and creating the creative mode sketches from items but being able to converse with people sounds fun.

I am trying to file a disability claim over MST, but my SAPR case is restricted. I DO NOT want it to be opened or investigated. I just can't take it. I imagine the worst of myself if I ever were to see or hear that man again. I fear I would hurt myself because I can't even speak about it without breaking down. I recently stop having panic attacks after a year and some months. But I also know that alongside the SA I also mentioned family issues in my counseling appointment and I don't know if the VA would not believe me since I didn't make my counseling issues solely on the SA. At the time I was afraid to tell the counselors how I truly feared (which they also recorded in the clinical notes) because I did not want to be kicked out of the military. I need the money, and despite the SA, the military has helped me as much as it has brought me anxiety. Plus, I'm in it, and I want to finish it. But now I'm worried I won't get the disability without the VA people making my restricted report, unrestricted. I know if I go unrestricted I will get it but I'm... scared. Terrified actually. I can get my wingman to do buddy statements but I don't want their statements to make it go unrestricted either. So I guess I want to know have anyone out their who did a disability for MST ever had their SA investigated?

Hi, I went a good day with it all. Saying “something wonderful will happen tomorrow,” and “something wonderful will happen today,” and a lot of actual wonderful things happened. Like the housing voucher coming (something my mom and I have been waiting for. And I was visualizing it still even after they said we can't get a housing voucher anymore).

I'm thinking positively. And feeling the good emotions. I was sure that I was going to get at least half of the NUMEROUS scholarships I submitted. But I only got one and school is about to start. My mom tells me I'm not being realistic. And that I'm just in la la la land and “hoping” for miracles.

But she also believes in this stuff. But because my tuition is $9k (it updated finally) she all of a sudden wants to no longer believe. Even though “money shouldn't affect our emotions.” now I'm allowing her doubts to be my doubts and I feel silly now. I was sure I was going to get every scholarship. It was something I felt in my bones. I mean, it is my right to get those scholarships. If I want it, I deserve it. It's my reality. But now I can tell I'm WANTING them too hard and that's what messes up the manifesting. I'm stuck.

I feel delusional and crazy and dumb. But all the greats say it should feel delusional n people will call u crazy. But what if I'm just... Being crazy.

I am a reservist in the Air Force. My AFSC is CE. I did AMRT recently, which is basically Title 10 orders for reservists to be active duty for a few months to train for their job. I learned a lot in the four and a half months I was there. And the environment kept me stable in a way that let me work out, eat well, and save plenty (16k). This was nice as a 20-year-old female, but the money didn't last long.

My mom doesn't work (and it's okay, she's older and her body hurts), and my little sister is too young. I want to switch to active duty though to give us stability but my mom wants me to finish school to earn my civil engineering degree for ecperience and it will look better for loans and funding because I want to eventually buy property and flip it to rent out to people and one dya even have a housing initiative (it willt ake time, I understand and I'm doing the steps to make sure I have a stable foundation).

But that's not what I'm asking for advice for. I'm writing this because I understand what my mom is saying but I'm already in the military so why not make the most out of it? I get deployed regardless, either way, so I'm not afraid of that. What I know is that right now we're not stable and we were fine while I was active so I mean, I got to do what I got to do. She says I won't be able to carry us because I'm young, and she says the 16k I had wasn't enough.

But honestly, it's because we live in LA (long story. Yes, I know CA is expensive, but originally we moved here after running from an abusive relationship in KC, and my aunt said we could stay with her for a while until she kicked us out. Even back then, I worked super hard to get scholarships - I joined the first community college, and they gave me like $5k a semester, and then I used my TA benefits. It got us by then, so I don't understand why she can't see that I can handle it for us. I owe her after everything she does for me. And I can't handle sitting around doing nothing.

I feel useless and like a disappointment. I should have a business by now, but I failed her, and so I have to do everything I can. But I can't figure it out. Yes, a bachelor's is nice, but the military money is right there. She says I shouldn't give the military my all, but hell, if I have to sacrifice my freedom for my sister's sake, I will. I wouldn't be able to handle being homeless again. I don't know, just need to see new perspectives.

Plus, eventually, I can save for a house... if my Commander in Chief hasn't... done anything drastic by the time I'm ready.

I am a reservist in the Air Force. My AFSC is CE. I did AMRT recently, which is basically Title 10 orders for reservists to be active duty for a few months to train for their job. I learned a lot in the four and a half months I was there. And the environment kept me stable in a way that let me work out, eat well, and save plenty (16k). This was nice as a 20-year-old female, but the money didn't last long.

My mom doesn't work (and it's okay, she's older and her body hurts), and my little sister is too young. I want to switch to active duty though to give us stability but my mom wants me to finish school to earn my civil engineering degree for ecperience and it will look better for loans and funding because I want to eventually buy property and flip it to rent out to people and one dya even have a housing initiative (it willt ake time, I understand and I'm doing the steps to make sure I have a stable foundation).

But that's not what I'm asking for advice for. I'm writing this because I understand what my mom is saying but I'm already in the military so why not make the most out of it? I get deployed regardless, either way, so I'm not afraid of that. What I know is that right now we're not stable and we were fine while I was active so I mean, I got to do what I got to do. She says I won't be able to carry us because I'm young, and she says the 16k I had wasn't enough.

But honestly, it's because we live in LA (long story. Yes, I know CA is expensive, but originally we moved here after running from an abusive relationship in KC, and my aunt said we could stay with her for a while until she kicked us out. Even back then, I worked super hard to get scholarships - I joined the first community college, and they gave me like $5k a semester, and then I used my TA benefits. It got us by then, so I don't understand why she can't see that I can handle it for us. I owe her after everything she does for me. And I can't handle sitting around doing nothing.

I feel useless and like a disappointment. I should have a business by now, but I failed her, and so I have to do everything I can. But I can't figure it out. Yes, a bachelor's is nice, but the military money is right there. She says I shouldn't give the military my all, but hell, if I have to sacrifice my freedom for my sister's sake, I will. I wouldn't be able to handle being homeless again. I don't know, just need to see new perspectives.

Plus, eventually, I can save for a house... if my Commander in Chief hasn't... done anything drastic by the time I'm ready.

I am a reservist in the Air Force. My AFSC is CE. I did AMRT recently, which is basically Title 10 orders for reservists to be active duty for a few months to train for their job. I learned a lot in the four and a half months I was there. And the environment kept me stable in a way that let me work out, eat well, and save plenty (16k). This was nice as a 20-year-old female, but the money didn't last long.

My mom doesn't work (and it's okay, she's older and her body hurts), and my little sister is too young. I want to switch to active duty though to give us stability but my mom wants me to finish school to earn my civil engineering degree for ecperience and it will look better for loans and funding because I want to eventually buy property and flip it to rent out to people and one dya even have a housing initiative (it willt ake time, I understand and I'm doing the steps to make sure I have a stable foundation).

But that's not what I'm asking for advice for. I'm writing this because I understand what my mom is saying but I'm already in the military so why not make the most out of it? I get deployed regardless, either way, so I'm not afraid of that. What I know is that right now we're not stable and we were fine while I was active so I mean, I got to do what I got to do. She says I won't be able to carry us because I'm young, and she says the 16k I had wasn't enough.

But honestly, it's because we live in LA (long story. Yes, I know CA is expensive, but originally we moved here after running from an abusive relationship in KC, and my aunt said we could stay with her for a while until she kicked us out. Even back then, I worked super hard to get scholarships - I joined the first community college, and they gave me like $5k a semester, and then I used my TA benefits. It got us by then, so I don't understand why she can't see that I can handle it for us. I owe her after everything she does for me. And I can't handle sitting around doing nothing.

I feel useless and like a disappointment. I should have a business by now, but I failed her, and so I have to do everything I can. But I can't figure it out. Yes, a bachelor's is nice, but the military money is right there. She says I shouldn't give the military my all, but hell, if I have to sacrifice my freedom for my sister's sake, I will. I wouldn't be able to handle being homeless again. I don't know, just need to see new perspectives.

Plus, eventually, I can save for a house... if my Commander in Chief hasn't... done anything drastic by the time I'm ready.

Hello. I know this is going to sound stupid, and I can just look it up (which I have), but I want to hear from people who have actually quit. I can't stop masturbating. I am a 20-year-old female. It started when I was young, like around twelve. My mom was very strict to keep me from danger, but I still faced harm through my cousin, who touched me when I was around twelve (he was like sixteen), and a girl from school sort of harassed me during outside time in middle school, but I didn't know it was harassment back then. I just accepted it. But I'm older now, and I know someone shouldn't grind against you without permission. But I guess I didn't say no either, so I don't know if that counts. But I did cry with my cousin, so I did know back then that something wasn't right about what he did.

Still, I moved on from that mentally. It doesn't keep me up at night with nightmares. But it awakened something in me. I started exploring my body, and now I'm stuck with this; well, it feels like a spell. I also have this dream with the exact same characters for like the past 8 years. It started off small, like the problem I'm noticing. But now I think it's something serious.

The character's name is Zahora. And she's with these two women, Rosaline and Mercedes. They get off on hurting Zahora in really inhumane ways or sexually assaulting her. And like, every single night Zahora ends up losing her mind, and until she finally commits suicide because she ultimately realizes that the only way to be free from them is through death.

I tried talking to someone about it, and she told me it's okay. That it's best for me to write about what I dream and to just keep talking to her about it. But I don't believe that it's okay. Plus... I feel turned on by the dreams as if I were watching porn.

My cousin was getting a whoop'n (a different cousin than I mentioned earlier) by our grandpa (who was actually very abusive), and I couldn't handle the noise, and I had to go to the bathroom and cover my ears while humming to block out the noise.

So I need help or suggestions. With both. The masturbation and the dream, because I think the dream and how I feel because of the dream is like a warning sign. Like something is wrong with me, the same way pedophiles like children or evil people like SA, helpless people, because they get off on power and control.

But I know I don't get off on that stuff because I hate when people are helpless or can't defend themselves. My mother used to beat me badly or choke me until I couldn't breathe. So when it comes to violently hurting someone in person, I know I can't handle it. My cousin was getting a whoop'n (a different cousin than I mentioned earlier) by our grandpa (who was actually very abusive), and I couldn't handle the noise, and I had to go to the bathroom and cover my ears while humming to block out the noise.

I did research as much as I could to understand. I know issues come from unhealed trauma. But I don't know what my problem is. And therapy is like really expensive. Also, please don't tell me to pray about it or just meditate.

Hello. I know this is going to sound stupid, and I can just look it up (which I have), but I want to hear from people who have actually quit. I can't stop masturbating. I am a 20-year-old female. It started when I was young, like around twelve. My mom was very strict to keep me from danger, but I still faced harm through my cousin, who touched me when I was around twelve (he was like sixteen), and a girl from school sort of harassed me during outside time in middle school, but I didn't know it was harassment back then. I just accepted it. But I'm older now, and I know someone shouldn't grind against you without permission. But I guess I didn't say no either, so I don't know if that counts. But I did cry with my cousin, so I did know back then that something wasn't right about what he did.

Still, I moved on from that mentally. It doesn't keep me up at night with nightmares. But it awakened something in me. I started exploring my body, and now I'm stuck with this; well, it feels like a spell. I also have this dream with the exact same characters for like the past 8 years. It started off small, like the problem I'm noticing. But now I think it's something serious.

The character's name is Zahora. And she's with these two women, Rosaline and Mercedes. They get off on hurting Zahora in really inhumane ways or sexually assaulting her. And like, every single night Zahora ends up losing her mind, and until she finally commits suicide because she ultimately realizes that the only way to be free from them is through death.

I tried talking to someone about it, and she told me it's okay. That it's best for me to write about what I dream and to just keep talking to her about it. But I don't believe that it's okay. Plus... I feel turned on by the dreams as if I were watching porn.

My cousin was getting a whoop'n (a different cousin than I mentioned earlier) by our grandpa (who was actually very abusive), and I couldn't handle the noise, and I had to go to the bathroom and cover my ears while humming to block out the noise.

So I need help or suggestions. With both. The masturbation and the dream, because I think the dream and how I feel because of the dream is like a warning sign. Like something is wrong with me, the same way pedophiles like children or evil people like SA, helpless people, because they get off on power and control.

But I know I don't get off on that stuff because I hate when people are helpless or can't defend themselves. My mother used to beat me badly or choke me until I couldn't breathe. So when it comes to violently hurting someone in person, I know I can't handle it. My cousin was getting a whoop'n (a different cousin than I mentioned earlier) by our grandpa (who was actually very abusive), and I couldn't handle the noise, and I had to go to the bathroom and cover my ears while humming to block out the noise.

I did research as much as I could to understand. I know issues come from unhealed trauma. But I don't know what my problem is. And therapy is like really expensive. Also, please don't tell me to pray about it or just meditate.