u/More-Paramedic-6516

Im 27 year old female physiotherapist graduated 2 years ago, im unable to secure any job. I dont have any references. I did unpaid internships but now i want a proper job. My all relative speak so bad about me , mocks me that i can't earn. Make me feel so low nd compare me with other females of family. It feels like that im in this field for 10 or 20 years nd unable to achieve anything by their discussions.

Now recently i got a certification in fitness training nd I've alot of interest in this field. I want to switch from physio to fitness trainer. How can i secure job in any gym? Or even internship?? Im willing to do internship for experience so atleast after year i can get a job in some gym. Please guide.

Something is bothering me too much. When he discarded me, he deleted my number instead of blocking me. Nd he unfollowed me on Instagram but remained me in his followers ( while his following list is toooo long & his followers is only close limited people)

Can anyone explain me this behavior? Please.

Its been two months of discard... Im feeling so heavy today.. i just dont understand one thing how can a person completely disappears from someones life without saying a single f*ckin word??? We were planning to marry. At first real world difficulty, he completely disappeared from my life. Even deleted my number. Im stuck at this question. HOW?????

Its been 2 months since my DA ghosted me out of no where. We were together for very short time ( 3 months) but it was intense. I went from honeymoon phase to direct being ghosted. He wanted to marry me. He is in his 40s While im quite young. We already discussed the things regarding the resistance that will come from my family side. But as soon as there was first resistance from my family, he vanished. When i discussed my family reaction with him he felt pressure. He said im feeling pressure. Then he started withdrawing. I asked him what happened he gave excuses. But i felt he was forcing himself to behave normal nd talk to me. But then he disappeared for two days. I asked him. He said give me some time I'll talk to u. Then after two weeks of complete silence he deleted my number nd unfollowed me from Instagram. He became so cold to me n ghosted.

IM UNABLE TO MOVE ON IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS OF NC. I KEEP RUMINATING ABOUT HIM. I CANT HELP MYSELF.