u/Mother-Argument2899

I 18 M is now in us military specifically in marine corps . I am an Indian immigrant came from India. I had fucked up childhood and well I thought I will have chance to have better life but got bullied in high school in Utah too. I was the only Indian in my high school. I never had relationship with my family. I have mom who loved me but she have narccism to the point I had to chose military to escape my home. I love her but can't connect with her. I see her as a distant relative than my mom. I just wanted a normal childhood rather than whatever that happened to me. I never had things I wanted , I had to work myself up for it. I cried when my dad died and my extended family kicked us out in India and left us on curb. I worked myself where I am. I am so lonely, I want a place where somebody hug me and accept me. I want a gf who will love me unconditionally because I am a good man and I will treat her like my everything. I wanted parents whom I can love forever and connect with them properly, I wish I had a childhood where I didn't have to be jealous over kids getting things I desired and silently cried in some corner. I wish I had childhood where I never had to see my parents fight or have internal family conflict .

Being 18 M immigrant in USA is fucking hard especially you are Indian. Everybody didn't like me at first because they stereotyped me but I proved them wrong and I worked on my flaws and now they like me and opened up to me a lot . I am still working to improve my accent and English and flirting skills but in terms of attracting women I am not good at it. I just want a girl to cuddle with me and tell me my days will be fine and people will love me more. I want a girl at this point to just say sweet nothings . I always wanted to be taken care of especially my childhood was rough like super rough and lonely. I am very lonely even though I have people who like me for who I am. I know deep down they make fun of my accent behind my back but what can I do.

I 19M am a military member who works in supply mos and I have a lot of friends who are woman whom I just as friends because I don't like dating under same roof where I work and I see them as sisters or friends. My luck in high school dating was bad luck because despite me looking Italian or Greek . I am Indian with thick Indian accent . Both of my parents are Indian it's just my skin pale with good facial structure and often got complimented by a lot of gay people that they find me a lot appealing but in females I had no luck. I was sad about it because I grew up in family where love is conditional and alot of toxicity , low freedom and no choice. That's why I joined military. I always tried my luck but always got rejected politely because all people know I am genuine dude . I was coming back from retirement ceremony today and I heard my new Sgt talking about how much she desire to have sex with my roommate but also have kids and husband and loves her husband. My roommate is trying to get under her pants since she came last week. I lowkey don't care what they do because it's their problem of fraternization if they ever do in future or get caught in future. But it's still hurted me damn nobody find me attractive on the other hand women find my roommate super hot and attractive we both have same height, almost attractive physically on same level what people say but from my perspective he is way hotter than me but I have more personality than him and better person than him according to everybody . My other friend 28 F who is also lcpl like me looked at my face and I was smiling but she knows me like a big sister knows her lil bro faking. When I sat down in car with her. She ask me why I look so broken. I tried to fake it and she insisted and then I told her everything and she told me I am a husband material not a dating material or bf material and she explained me in her words I am the stable guy women settle for when they are 24 or above instead of dating in their youth because they want wild experiences or one night stands. Because she is a woman who have experience in life and told me my accent is turn off for alot of women inside barracks she knows . They talk in their own women gc. She said it's not my fault that I am Indian or I am not sexually appealing to other women like my roomie is to them and I said I am fine I know I will recover it but I can't because it's just fucking hurts by heart. Atleast she was upfront about it. Because I geniuenly worked on myself alot after getting bullied in high school three years ago when I came here. I worked on how I speak still accent noticeable, how I represent, how I smell and what I wear. I am not a gym freak but I do PT a lot. It's just at this point I am sad because it's not about me getting laid but I wanna get loved unconditionally by someone. AITAH for making her feel guilty . She is been apologetic for telling me truth but I told her I will be fine. She really likes me as a big sister and I love her as a little brother too. I don't wanna loose my friend who is mentor/ big sister to me . Also sad part is he is also slept with her and talk bad about her and see her as her other conquest . He is ruining my perception on life sadly. He tells me how women are just attracted to men who see them as meat or animal. I am fighting mentally to have same mentally like I had about women should be treated with love and respect. I am feeling so ugly because damn I am so ugly that females don't feel that attraction with me

I 19M am a military member who works in supply mos and I have a lot of friends who are woman whom I just as friends because I don't like dating under same roof where I work and I see them as sisters or friends. My luck in high school dating was bad luck because despite me looking Italian or Greek . I am Indian with thick Indian accent . Both of my parents are Indian it's just my skin pale with good facial structure and often got complimented by a lot of gay people that they find me a lot appealing but in females I had no luck. I was sad about it because I grew up in family where love is conditional and alot of toxicity , low freedom and no choice. That's why I joined military. I always tried my luck but always got rejected politely because all people know I am genuine dude . I was coming back from retirement ceremony today and I heard my new Sgt talking about how much she desire to have sex with my roommate but also have kids and husband and loves her husband. My roommate is trying to get under her pants since she came last week. I lowkey don't care what they do because it's their problem of fraternization if they ever do in future or get caught in future. But it's still hurted me damn nobody find me attractive on the other hand women find my roommate super hot and attractive we both have same height, almost attractive physically on same level what people say but from my perspective he is way hotter than me but I have more personality than him and better person than him according to everybody . My other friend 28 F who is also lcpl like me looked at my face and I was smiling but she knows me like a big sister knows her lil bro faking. When I sat down in car with her. She ask me why I look so broken. I tried to fake it and she insisted and then I told her everything and she told me I am a husband material not a dating material or bf material and she explained me in her words I am the stable guy women settle for when they are 24 or above instead of dating in their youth because they want wild experiences or one night stands. Because she is a woman who have experience in life and told me my accent is turn off for alot of women inside barracks she knows . They talk in their own women gc. She said it's not my fault that I am Indian or I am not sexually appealing to other women like my roomie is to them and I said I am fine I know I will recover it but I can't because it's just fucking hurts by heart. Atleast she was upfront about it. Because I geniuenly worked on myself alot after getting bullied in high school three years ago when I came here. I worked on how I speak still accent noticeable, how I represent, how I smell and what I wear. I am not a gym freak but I do PT a lot. It's just at this point I am sad because it's not about me getting laid but I wanna get loved unconditionally by someone. AITAH for making her feel guilty . She is been apologetic for telling me truth but I told her I will be fine. She really likes me as a big sister and I love her as a little brother too. I don't wanna loose my friend who is mentor/ big sister to me . Also sad part is he is also slept with her and talk bad about her and see her as her other conquest . He is ruining my perception on life sadly. He tells me how women are just attracted to men who see them as meat or animal. I am fighting mentally to have same mentally like I had about women should be treated with love and respect.