u/Mountain_Station_387

Hello,
So this happened a few weeks ago (1.5-2 weeks ago). I am sure I didn't awaken, but I was trying to find out if my nadi's got cleaned or anything like that.
Let me preface by saying I am young(18) and male.

Story

So I got into spirituality and stuff after reading 'Autobiography of a Yogi' (lol), and I started to do alternate nostril breathing, pranayama, and Vipassana meditation for like 2-3 hours daily. I also read Ram Das's book 'Be Here Now' and used to listen to him fairly often.
I am not very religious and not on celibacy either. I didn't even read the Bhagavad Gita, but I have always been a big lover of Krishna since childhood(I liked him, prayed to him) --> I also eat meat and everything and never followed the satvic diet they prescribe.

Since I was doing meditation, I felt better, but within like 2-2.5 weeks of doing it, my energy increased; I was getting panic attacks, anxiety (it wasn't anything that bad). Also, what scared me was related to my heart beating- palpitations and sensations which I felt every 2-4 seconds(hated it; what you generally hear from people who have kundalini awakening). One day during night, I felt a sudden surge of energy that I couldn't even sleep through the whole night. Oh, I have been feeling sexual urges constantly since that day (even till now)

Funny, a few days after this, I saw Ram Das in my dream(he was full of light; I also felt a presence of Neem Karoli Baba's energy there; he wasn't there, only Ram Das. It felt really good; I was smiling the whole day after this, and I still do when I remember it(it was very profound; I loved it). Oh, I was chanting Hanuman Chalisa (3 times per day) for like 3 days when this happened. If you don't know, Ram Das was a Hanuman Bhakta.

After this, I quit meditating (lol idk why), and my heart pain, or whatever you call it, went away in a day like it was never there.

So now, to the present, I have been studying this kundalini thing, and I can say it wasn't kundalini awakening or anything, but the symptoms were very similar to people who were on the path. I think I stopped them (glad for it). I don't wank moksha or nirvana, so I am not gonna meditate now, and pls don't tell me to do it either(I am scared lol).

Oh, I am quite into astrology, and from my readings and understanding, I am a Taurus and 9th house, so it says that I have been on the path of spirituality since previous lives (maybe, maybe not).

I wanted to ask:

Did anyone go through this? Did my nadis get cleansed, and that's why the sudden pain or was it kundalini rising to my Manipura chakra or heart chakra?

P.S.: I am studying this kundalini and spirituality thing now, so I don't want to continue on the kundalini path but rather the bhakta and Jnana path.

so a lot of people mess this up , they don't get the difference between a scholarship and financial aid, and honestly it changes how you should even plan your applications.

scholarship = money based on merit. you're good, they pay you for being good.
financial aid = they don't care about merit at all, they just check if your family can actually afford the full cost or not.

for the USA specifically — public universities barely give any scholarships, and if they do, it's low. so if you're Bangladeshi and not rich, i'd honestly discourage going for public unis in the US, it's just too costly for what you get.

private universities though, that's a completely different story. all of them, not just Harvard, give a lot of financial aid. it's not merit based, it's need based. you fill out something called a CSS profile, where you put in all your financial info, income, assets, everything.

take Harvard as an example — if your family earns under $250k a year, and that includes your assets too, so it comes out to around 3 crore taka or less, they basically cover your full need. so if you need full aid, they give you full aid. money stops being your problem. the only thing you actually have to worry about is getting in.

now actual scholarships, the merit based kind, that's mostly an Australia and Canada thing for undergrad. places like University of Toronto, UBC, University of Sydney, UNSW, there's a bunch. you have to go on their website and look for what they offer, but it's genuinely merit based, they don't care about your financial situation. if you're a strong student, you don't really need to worry, you'll get something. Sydney and UNSW for example give like 20-25% off through entrance scholarships. the US just doesn't really do this.
Also Hong Kong gives full 100% scholarships for being a good student like 3-4 A* in A levels.

for masters, it depends a lot, and it's honestly pretty limited, especially in the US, nowhere near as generous as undergrad.

for PhD though, it's basically free. there's so much funding available that you don't really need to stress about paying for a PhD at all.

Do you guys want a hong kong study abroad guide?

Hello guys,
I am the founder and mod of this new sub : r/Bd_StudyAbroad . I would love if you guys could join

the title, where are you giving? also prep kemon jay? amar toh grammer section kothin legeche. math toh akhono dhorini. btw any advice with desmos?

My plan is mainly to have a community of like-minded individuals who can help each other with answers. Like Facebook communities, I want this to be like its Reddit version, but much better.

I personally will try to provide as much guidance as possible and bring in people who were successful in their journey abroad. Maybe have some guidance sessions, make someone who got into famous unis do an AMA.
Everything will be free in this sub, so you can benefit from it all.

hey Guys, I made a new subreddit for studying abroad - https://www.reddit.com/r/Bd_StudyAbroad/

My plan is mainly to have a community of like-minded individuals who can help each other with answers. Like Facebook communities, I want this to be like its Reddit version, but much better.

I personally will try to provide as much guidance as possible and bring in people who were successful in their journey abroad. Maybe have some guidance sessions, make someone who got into famous unis do an AMA.
Everything will be free in this sub, so you can benefit from it all.

hey Guys, I made a new subreddit for studying abroad - https://www.reddit.com/r/Bd_StudyAbroad/

My plan is mainly to have a community of like-minded individuals who can help each other with answers. Like Facebook communities, I want this to be like its Reddit version, but much better.

I personally will try to provide as much guidance as possible and bring in people who were successful in their journey abroad. Maybe have some guidance sessions, make someone who got into famous unis do an AMA.
Everything will be free in this sub, so you can benefit from it all.