u/MrFinArmZ

Im 23 and I've never been in a relationship.. no girls have ever shown genuine interest in me and no girl I've liked has ever liked me back I've also never had a full time job and still live with my dad society will tell u I'm a lazy bum and yea maybe they're right but I'm not eager to start working some miserable 9-5 and become a cog in the machine.. even people who love their jobs eventually that love fades.. nothing lasts forever. Some say I'm good looking but that means absolutely nothing.. I'm completely invisible. I have so much worth but at the same time I don't pushing carts at a grocery store part time isn't respectable at all and no girl wants that. Maybe once i get a full time job and a place of my own then maybe someone will want me but even then would they actually want me for me or for just what I can provide for them? idk I don't think real love exists or it's extremely rare

I havent fapped once... for such a long time I was doing it sometimes everyday but now finally I've stopped. I just always felt so gross and like a monster whenever I did it. But still sometimes I'll still look at something nsfw every now and then.. need to quit doing that too it just makes me feel so sad and awful about myself

when you're depressed no one wants to be around you everyone distances themselves from you.. you try messaging people or sending a follow request but they won't respond. Even the small handful that do care and say I'm here for you and I won't leave always do leave when your presence starts to become a burden. People love to pretend life is so great and everything works out for everybody but it isn't life is awful, good people get shit on all the time, there's a lot of bad people out there and so many of them thrive.. karma doesn't exist. When you're depressed and you try to talk to someone like that who is coping they'll just want u to just shut up and leave them alone. Things will get better you'll see.. I promise... no they won't. I have no purpose in life, I'm gonna die alone, no one wants to be my friend and nothing makes me happy. They don't wanna deal with it and that's why men stay silent and kill themselves.. when you do talk about your feelings you get looked at as weak and told to man up and get over it. The only person who wants to listen is the counselor and the only reason they're doing that is cause they get paid to. I'm not gonna pretend life is so great just to have all these fake people around me i'd rather be depressed and alone. Nothing is wrong with me and I'm not changing and that's good.