u/MrTamperroll

Im a teen and my parents just got my car about 2 months ago, I’ve done minor things like take the chrome off my mirrors and handles, changed my steering wheel logo, and blacked out my badges and emblems. Theres other stuff I want to but I want to tackle the most expensive thing. Rims. Those 2010 civics come with the ugliest rims! And yes I could get hub caps but even good ones are hard to find! My rim size is a 16” and I want to keep it like that but oh my gosh is it hard to find some. Folks on tiktok only talk about Alibaba but don’t give any vendors, I search the web and untrustworthy websites with bad reviews show up, I tried market place but the ones for my car they are either selling the same rims or the rims are just not the right size for my car. I plan on keeping the tires because I just bought them so. Any suggestions?

I’m 18F, and I just got out of a 2 year relationship in February. The relationship had been going down since November and after that it was not repairable. I spent so much time interacting and providing my whole attention to the girl that once we broke up I don’t think I knew who I was or what I even Liked really. That Void of loneliness started and I just haven’t been able to fill it. But in that same week I started doing better, I ended up in a talking stage with a girl I had been eyeing during my relationship (I know it’s horrible). Things didn’t work out either with her and she started dating this guy. She was good for a distraction of the loneliness I felt deep down so the whole thing didn’t destroy me but it did make me not want to date, or jump in to a talking stage with Anybody. I leaned into things I enjoyed and found new interests and hobbies in cars after I just got my first one. But theres still that deep void of Loneliness I feel everyday. It doesn’t get better and sometimes I cry because I feel so alone. I have lots of friends and Family that love me so much and I love them too but this void, It feels like it can’t be filled. I hate eating alone because I look around and everybody has someone and heres me: Alone, Depressed, Anxious, and quiet. My phone is so Bone dry i don’t get any messages, just notifications from apps and that makes the loneliness worse. I don’t know what to do but I just want it to end. Im suffering and I cant tell anybody because they wont understand.

When I got home, I hung my keys on the rack—the one made for two.
I kicked my shoes off sloppily. “I’ll fix it later,” I told myself, like always, making a mental note so you wouldn’t be upset when you got home.
There’s nothing in the fridge. There hasn’t been for a while.
You used to shop for groceries. We’d cook together—smile, laugh, touch, kiss. It felt like I was your husband and you were my wife.
You always used that pink spatula to make your world-famous pancakes. Full of love, drowned in thick syrup.
Now… I eat instant noodles for breakfast and dinner.
I skip lunch—because you skipped lunch.
I merged into your patterns. Got stuck in them.
fweeeeee
The teapot whistles.
I fill a cup with noodles and pour myself some tea.
“Green tea relaxes the mind and body,” you used to say, holding your mug.
Your nails—short but neat.
Your curly dark brown hair in a messy bun.
Your eyes, sharp and dark like obsidian.
Your skin—smooth, warm, perfect.
You shined brighter than the stars, your personality glowing like fireflies weaving through the grass at night.
Now I lie in an empty queen-sized bed—one that was meant for two.
Those thoughts flood in whenever I try to escape the reality where you don’t exist anymore.
My eyes fill, holding an ocean that spills over uncontrollably—like a hurricane.
“I hate myself,” I whisper.
Again.
And again.
The tears burn my skin, leaving it red and raw.
It barely bothers me.
Not as much as you being gone.
Your clothes, your things, your hobbies—everything that was you… gone.
I wonder if you grieve me the way I grieve you.
I miss you. I want what we had back.
But you made it clear:
“We can’t be friends. Sorry, Troy. This is too much. I just want to be by myself.”
That was months ago.
Now all I have left is memories—
memories we built, dreams we planned,
a future we once believed in… now buried in the past.
I hate this present.
And I don’t want a future—
if it’s not with you.