I decided I was agnostic about 2-3 months ago, and before I used to pray before I went to bed since it was so baked into my mind, but now it seems I can’t fall asleep unless I recite the very same prayer I prayed every night.
Is it just a matter of time before i stop? or is there anything I can do, because it’s extremely uncomfortable for me to do so, yet i feel like I have no choice.
This is coming from someone who’s been on Xbox 1 the past 10 years, and is getting a PC this month,
any recommendations or must haves?
The only two games I’m certain about getting is Cyberpunk 2077 and Project Zomboid.
I like RPGs
Im not very big on competitive games. (only ones I play competitively is For Honor and Mortal Kombat 11)
I like Simulators
I like Survival Games
I like Single Player games/Story games
but I’m not sure what to get first as I’m on a budget after CP2077 and Project Zomboid
Me(M16) and my sister (F33) have a rocky relationship to say the least, my mother passed away and my father has been absent mentally, so my two sisters took it upon themselves to raise me in a “co-parent” solution. (The second sister is not relevant to the story except for the fact that I live with her.)
Trust has always been a major issue in our relationship, and in the past she has told me she got ordered me something (shoes for example) just for the order to be mysteriously “lost in shipping.”
And so about a month ago i was struggling with a lack of motivation for my homework, so my sister gave me an incentive—catch up by September and she’ll buy me a PC.
So I agreed, and she actually went as far as agreeing that she’ll get it for me now Through financing(Paypal Pay-in-4), and all I just had to keep my end of the deal.
So I was catching up, work was getting done, only a few minor issues.
My sister finally ”paid” the first payment, and she told me she got an email saying that they’d confirm shipping on the second payment, that being on May 1st, and so, May comes around and I ask if she’s been charged, only for our (SEE ABOVE TEXT MESSAGES) to take place.
I think my sister is lying about ever getting the PC, and she’s just dodging the question. AIO?
EDIT 1: just to clarify, while it is indeed a gift and I should be grateful (which I am) all im asking for is a simple confirmation of said gift—I’m not necessarily upset about not getting the PC, id just rather not her having to lie to me about it.
EDIT 2: Someone asked in the comments if I have ADHD, and just responding to them. I have ADHD, chronic depression, and GAD. I’m on 4 different medications to accommodate for such.
EDIT 3: my mother passed away when I was 6 years old.
EDIT 4: I’m homeschooled. With the rate I went with my work, I was on track to catch up, AND be ahead, due to the independence of the charter school I got my work from.
For reference I’m on Xbox 1, but I have an Ethernet and I’m getting a PC in about 4-5 months, and I want to buy it, and just usa the Cloud Streaming for gamepass, so will the experience be enjoyable?
Or should I just wait till I get a PC?