u/Murky_Yak6269

My relatives usually come for a visit every few years because they live abroad but I always avoid them everyday and my family tells me it's rude and mean.

I have severe social anxiety and depression episodes. I am always isolated in my room and make zero social interaction and when some relatives come visit I greet them and stay isolated. They keep pushing me out of this telling me that it's disrespectful and rude to have guests and ghost them. Also I refuse to sit with my family all the time, not that I hate them but I feel extremely uncomfortable if I am not alone so I just leave to sit alone somewhere. My grandma keeps telling my mom that I hate her and that I do mean stuff (when I literally just do nothing but avoid any social interaction) and she won't be visiting again so my mom hated me and keeps telling me that I am a grumpy dude and everyone hates me even her. Also she keeps telling me that I do nothing but sit on my a$$ on weekends despite the fact that I workout consistently and work a full time job, have a bachelor's degree and prepare for post grad studies. She makes me doubt myself and feel like a failure and brings me down emotionally which affects my well-being. She constantly compares me to my father (they've been divorced since years) and tells me to move out and I am actually saving up for this and would do it before year end.

Would I benefit in my career from studying and mastering the syllabus but delaying taking the exam?

لو واحدة صاحبتي سألتني مثلا عن رأيي في هدوم هي اشتريتها، والصراحة معجبتنيش يعني , not my taste at all , هل اقول رأيي بصراحة ولا اقول حلوة وكدة عشان هي خلاص اشتريتها ومش عايز ثقتها في نفسها تقل أو تزعل أنها جابتها؟

So I've always been hitting the gym after work but lately I started to feel really sluggish after work and because of that I skipped a few days, also I hate how busy it is at night so I've been thinking of switching to before work. The gym is like 13 minutes on foot from my house but I don't intend to go back home after since it's already on the way to my office but also I hate gym showers