Maybe not the right place for this
I just want to know how much pain is one person supposed to have to take in life?
I don't even know where to start. When I found out my wife cheated on me, I was working two jobs. I slept in the van that she cheated on me in between jobs because I didn't have time to come home some days. And I still made time for dates. I went to awards ceremonies for the kids at school. I helped around the house. I was a good husband. I was a good father. And after I found out I couldn't leave because if I did we would have all been homeless. We couldn't afford to live apart so I had to stay. Since then I've had two back surgeries. The day I got home from one of the back surgeries we got a letter that said our landlord was selling our house. We had 90 days to move. I had just been in the hospital for 12 days. I ended up buying a goddamn house. I've never bought a house in my life. I never thought I'd be able to and I made that shit work. I got hit by a fucking car on the interstate trying to remove some large pieces of tire from the road. I couldn't sue the lady because we have something called contributory negligence in my state. I didn't get workers comp because I wasn't doing my actual job at the time. The doctor that did both surgeries on my leg didn't want me to walk on it for 90 days. I had to be back at work in 90 days because all I got was FMLA and I was back at work in 90 days. And now because of course we have fucking money problems because we always have fucking money problems because it doesn't matter how hard I work. I can't seem to fucking win. It's like the harder I try the more shit gets fucked up. And I'm fucking done. I'm tired of fucking being reliable. I'm tired of taking care of everything. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this shit. I just needed to vent. I don't know if this shit makes any sense. I just I didn't know where else to say it.