I hate my job
I just wanna leave so badly it’s gotten to the point where it’s starting to look like I wouldn’t mind being unemployed rather than finding a different job before quitting.
There’s a lot of shit with the culture of the job, the job itself isn’t bad but the more I show up to work, the more irritable I am, and now the irritability is starting to affect my life outside of work (barely any life).
At the beginning, I asked the manager if she could give me 2 consecutive days off every once in a while. From the 5 months I’ve worked here, I have never seen 2 consecutive days off.
My schedule the past month and the upcoming month is mostly 11-8 and 12-close shifts and I work every single day of the weekend (Thurs-Sun) and every Saturday I close. The only days off I have are Mondays and Wednesdays with a Tuesday closing shift in the middle. Next week I close 4/5 of my shifts.
Thing is, I’m one of their most reliable employees. I show up on time, I don’t call out, I take my scheduled lunches, and I leave on time, and I do what is expected of me. Majority of my other coworkers are calling out, showing up 1-2 hours late, leaving early, disappearing off the sales floor and they have a better schedule than me. One girl who’s constantly late doesn’t have to work 3 Saturdays in a row and majority of her shifts are opening. A girl who calls out all the time gets easy 10-5 shifts plus a weekend day off.
My manager will pull me to work on re merchandising one of our largest brands we carry once a week while she doesn’t assign others to do anything.
My final straw was 3 weeks ago my manager came to me and told me she granted me 2 consecutive days off for Memorial Day week. I was so excited and very appreciative. I get my schedule last week and see that it was in fact not consecutive it was work Sun & Tues then Thurs-Saturday with 3 closing shifts, and one of those being on Saturday.
Currently have hopes for another job I applied for (not retail) and honestly if I don’t get it I think I may go psychologically insane. I have no personal life as my days off are during normal work days and all my friends are working and now that I have 0 weekends off I don’t have time to do anything with anyone. I cry every single day on and off the clock. I am a university graduate and I feel more stuck in life than I did when I graduated with no job offers. I don’t make enough to move out of my parents house, I have no time for friends, no time for hobbies all my life is right now is this job.