u/Naughtychoco_

So i already had a moon drop chu2 but the pin broke somehow and it stopped working after a few months and now i want an iem that is durable kinda looks good and also i am not bass maniac so I want something that has good vocal clarity and instruments clarity.

Hey everyone, I’m 16M (currently in 11th standard) and I’m writing this because I honestly feel like I’m losing my mind. Some days I feel completely justified in how detached I am, but other days—especially when things are temporarily "quiet"—I start myself into thinking maybe I’m overreacting or that I’m the problem. I just need to lay out the raw facts and get an honest, outside perspective.

My mom regularly uses deeply degrading Tamil slurs against me (specifically calling me *the***ya ****an*). She’ll occasionally say she feels sad or guilty about using that language for a few minutes, but it’s completely fake because a short while later, she turns right around and uses the exact same slur against me again.

My dad is no better. Since I was a little kid, he has frequently called me p**a* to put me down. He has never once in his life apologized to me for anything he’s done wrong or for hurting my feelings. Instead, he just mocks me.

Instead of building me up, my parents actively target my insecurities. They constantly mock my height and try to instill fear in me by telling me that my peers at school will "beat the hell out of me" if I ever get into a conflict.

When I actually accomplish something, they immediately move the goalposts. For example, I recently got a 36/40 (90%) in Computer Science and showed it to my dad, expecting even a tiny bit of recognition. His immediate response was just to dismiss it and say it was "easy" and "just computer science." Nothing I do is ever good enough.

The thing that makes me feel most isolated is their public persona. In front of relatives, neighbors, and outsiders, they act like completely sweet, happy, and normal parents. But the absolute second the front door closes and no one is watching, the insults, bad moods, and toxicity instantly come back.

There is also a massive double standard: they are allowed to yell, curse, and degrade me, but if I change my tone of voice even slightly, I am instantly labeled as extremely disrespectful.

Whenever arguments happen, they threaten to take away support or basic necessities. They use my phone (which is my only actual escape hatch) as a tool for severe guilt-tripping (*solli katradhu*), constantly throwing it in my face and saying, *"We should have never bought you that."* They don't respect my basic privacy or personal space, and they expect me to manage their emotional stability while making me feel guilty whenever I want a life outside the house.

Recently, my dad got furious at me for using bad words around school/friends, acting like I’m ruining things. It’s completely hypocritical considering he and my mom literally put those severe slurs in my head from early childhood.

Lately, there’s been a short pause where they haven't used those specific slurs for a little bit. Whenever these quiet phases happen, my brain starts asking: *"Was it really that bad? Are they changing? Am I just exaggerating?"* I also feel guilty because they provide basic shelter, food, and medical care when I'm sick, which makes me feel like I shouldn't be angry when they talk shit to me.

I straight-up hate my school environment too. I feel invisible there and like nobody gives a shit, so I just stay quiet and keep to myself. Because home is hostile and school is empty, I have zero physical spaces where I can just relax.

I have completely locked my parents out of my life. I hide bad news because they will blame me, and I hide good news because they will find a way to pop the balloon and ruin it.

Whenever my phone rings and it's them, I feel a heavy dread (*"Should I even answer this?"*). Whenever they walk into my room, I automatically stand up and leave. I stopped caring about what people think a long time ago just to protect myself.

Am I tripping for calling this environment toxic and abusive? How do I deal with the constant self-doubt? I still kinda know or just feel they may not be that bad I mean sometimes my mom slaps me even though she did something wrong but I feel like evry household has it. Im not sure i think I'm the problem I guess. Like telling things like ur ruining ur friends( those guys are good guys too). Comparing me to all the actual bad boys and saying like hope they don't end up like me.

hey guys, writing this out cuz I realized something today that honestly made me feel kinda embarrassed lol.so im currently in 11th standard, studying in a private matriculation school here in chennai. obviously i know the Tamil Thai Vazhthu is a thing, but if you ask me to sing it, i literally only know like the first line neerarum kadaludutha and then absolutely nothing after that. i just start humming the tune lmao.cuz at my school, our daily morning assembly consists entirely of some god school songs, and then the National Anthem at the very end. the state song is completely skipped, nobody has ever practiced it with us. im almost done with high school and i dont even know the full lyrics because it was never part of our routine.arent all matric schools in TN strictly required by law to play or sing it? i get that schools have their own prayers and stuff, but it feels so weird that i barely know it because my school just doesn't include it.has anyone else gone to a matric school in chennai that completely leaves out the state anthem for general school prayers? how normal is this or is my school just doing its own thing?