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I dreamt of you, again. For the third time this week.
I can’t get over you even though I feel like I still don’t know you all that well after all the time we’ve talked.

What does all these dreams even mean?
Why does it confuses me every time I wake up?
Why do I have tears in my eyes when I dream of you?
I don’t get it, I like to believe that I can get over you by forcing myself to stop thinking about you.
I can’t stop thinking about you,
In fact I think about you more now that you’re gone.

I wish I could say this all to you, even not in person.
But I’m afraid that I am a coward that doesn’t have the courage to even tell you one bit, at-least not now, maybe not even the future.

If this is yearning, well fuck this is hard.
The more I try to not think about you, US, the more I want to try again and maybe it will work this time.
I know that it won’t happen, but these dreams of mine tell me that there’s happiness if we chose to fight rather than surrender without even trying.

I hope these dreams stop, but a part of me doesn’t want it to.
Because in my dreams I can see you, US.

I’ve(22M) been courting her(23F) for a little over 2 months, we’ve been talking consistently for the last 5 months.

A week ago, my worst fear when dating someone ldr happened again. I got ghosted, in a blink of an eye, 5 months of commitment, communication, and time gets to nowhere, we were supposed to meet next month, everything is set and we’re both very excited *that’s what she said*.

I’ll take a long time to get over this one, primarily because she treated me like no one else did, I also had high hopes, then they all came crashing down, I’m disappointed how it turned out but there’s really nothing I can do at this point except move forward.

Because of this I think my hopes of or even attempting another LDR set up is done for, it sucks.