u/Newtcik

I am M(19) and my girlfriend is F(20). We met online and realised we live not far away from eachother. Our relationship quickly became romantic and we spent a lot of time together on Discord. I was fully aware that she suffers from BPD, but she goes to therapy and takes meds. This is the first time I really learnt what her condition is.

One day I asked her if she wants to meet in the city, which is located between our locations. She agreed and we met there on the train station. We had a lovely time, we went shopping, visited coffeehouse with cats, we went on a walk holding our hands. She said that she doesn't kiss on the first date, which I respected and we only ocasionally hug. At the end of the meeting we went to the train station to go back to our hometowns. My train was earlier than hers so we said goodbye with a long hug and I almost started crying. I quickly entered my train and I could not find her in the window. I felt something in my bones, a bad feeling.

After our meeting her texting felt dry, she stopped liking my messages like she used to, and I felt like she wanted some space. I started to worry about her, so I wrote her a long paraghraph that I am here to help her in her worst times and she can count on me. I felt like she ignored the message completely by short answer "awwwww" and she quickly changed the topic.

Last night she opened up. She said that our relationship escalated too quickly to her expectations and she feels overwhelmed by it. She said that it's not my fault, but she has a bad feeling about all of this the moment we said goodbye on the train station. She also said that it might be a BPD episode and she thinks that I only love her normal site. I told her that I knew what I was getting into, and we can go through this together. I know I threw myself into the deep end, but I really love her. I told her that I can give her some time alone, but if she needs me I am always ready for a call.

That was the last conversation we had 18 hours ago. Whole day of silence. I don't know what to do. I want to educate myself better about her condition. What should I do to not lose her?

I am M(19) and my girlfriend is F(20). We met online and realised we live not far away from eachother. Our relationship quickly became romantic and we spent a lot of time together on Discord. I was fully aware that she suffers from BPD, but she goes to therapy and takes meds. This is the first time I really learnt what her condition is.

One day I asked her if she wants to meet in the city, which is located between our locations. She agreed and we met there on the train station. We had a lovely time, we went shopping, visited coffeehouse with cats, we went on a walk holding our hands. She said that she doesn't kiss on the first date, which I respected and we only ocasionally hug. At the end of the meeting we went to the train station to go back to our hometowns. My train was earlier than hers so we said goodbye with a long hug and I almost started crying. I quickly entered my train and I could not find her in the window. I felt something in my bones, a bad feeling.

After our meeting her texting felt dry, she stopped liking my messages like she used to, and I felt like she wanted some space. I started to worry about her, so I wrote her a long paraghraph that I am here to help her in her worst times and she can count on me. I felt like she ignored the message completely by short answer "awwwww" and she quickly changed the topic.

Last night she opened up. She said that our relationship escalated too quickly to her expectations and she feels overwhelmed by it. She said that it's not my fault, but she has a bad feeling about all of this the moment we said goodbye on the train station. She also said that it might be a BPD episode and she thinks that I only love her normal site. I told her that I knew what I was getting into, and we can go through this together. I know I threw myself into the deep end, but I really love her. I told her that I can give her some time alone, but if she needs me I am always ready for a call.

That was the last conversation we had 18 hours ago. Whole day of silence. I don't know what to do. I want to educate myself better about her condition. What should I do to not lose her?