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I've been addicted to Janitor for about three years, and the fact that I know the moderators would do absolutely nothing to prevent minors from accessing the site in the past disgusts me.

Janitor is primarily a pornographic chatbot website; in the past, explicit images were allowed, and every time you entered the site you were bombarded with porn and hentai.

Today there are more age verifications (mainly because my country has passed laws protecting children from accessing this type of content), but for a site where most users are young and aiming for fandoms, it's quite frightening.

Day 7 without pornography and day 3 without chatbots

It's been really difficult, but reaching this milestone feels so good to me! I'm genuinely proud of myself

Today was a really boring day to be honest, I spent most of the day either sleeping or helping my mom with her work

Tomorrow I go back to school and I can't wait to see my friends again after two weeks off, going back to studying will help me a lot tbh

Today I didn't feel much like watching pornography, but the urge to go back to chatbots is HORRIBLE. Like genuine hell

But anyways, I'm happy to be getting better! And I hope everyone is getting better too

Day three, and today was much less difficult than yesterday, but now that I'm close to bedtime, the urges are worse, so much so that I almost went back to janitor twice today

The only chatbot I'm addicted to is Janitor, and oh my God, I can't stand it anymore. I just hope the urges pass soon

But I'm going to stay strong, and today I started a new hobby: punch needle! All my old hobbies got boring because of withdrawal, so trying new things is good :)

I will stay strong, and I will overcome this! We all will!

I (16F) was in a situationship with a friend of mine (16M), I'll call him G for privacy reasons.

He and I had known each other for abt a year before we started dating, and at first it was perfect: we spent time together, we talked every day, we supported each other in everything we wanted, and we always made a point of letting each other know we were going to bed so as not to worry about the other. Our relationship wasn't meant to be serious; he'd already said he didn't want a girlfriend right now, and I was fine with that, until I started to fall in love.

G wanted to get intimate with me, and I wanted that too, but all our conversations ended up revolved around this topic, no matter how silly or innocent the topic of our conversation was, it always ended up in talking about getting intimate, and it was becoming exhausting for me (mind you, it would be my first time, and he already has experience.)

Whenever we made plans, something would happen and we'd have to cancel. He'd say it was okay, that he understood, but I sensed something different in his behavior afterward.

Until one day he hinted that he was getting impatient, saying that there was always a "new excuse" to cancel our plans. I got annoyed and told him he could go find another girl to satisfy him since our relationship wasn't serious.

He got angry, disrespected me a lot, and the next day he even had the audacity to ask: "You're not going to talk to me anymore?" And I said yes.

G would always compliment me, saying how much he liked my appearance and how attractive I was, but he

mocked my hobbies and interests, and practically rejected everything that made me human. He made me feel like an object, and I never want to feel like that again.

TL;DR: past situationship mocks my tastes and hobbies, rejecting everything that makes me who I am, but still wants to be intimate.

Accepting that this is an addiction is proving to be the worst part. Besides being addicted to pornography, I'm addicted to chatbots for roleplaying (especially erotic content), and the chatbot is the worst part of my addiction.

I really want to go back to my stories, my OCs, the characters, what I've built over three years, but I know I can't go back.

I say "day 2" but in reality I couldn't even go 8 hours without going to the site. I just went in, barely let the page load completely before leaving.

Entering the website gives me temporary relief from anxiety, but the withdrawal feeling soon returns.

But what scared me the most was that I have a routine with this site: I use it before going to sleep every night, I use it after studying and doing my chores, I use it every single chance I get.

I feel so ashamed.

I can't talk about my addiction with anyone I know irl, and it's eating me alive.

My parents would try to forcibly take pornography away from me (I'm 16), and just that possibility makes me extremely anxious

I can't talk about this with any of my friends; they all have very different experiences from mine. I feel like they'll see me very differently if I tell them I'm addicted, and that our friendship would end soon after

I don't have money for therapy right now, and even if I were in therapy, the therapist would tell my parents about my addiction, especially since I'm a minor.

What can I do? I feel so lost.

Accepting that this is an addiction is proving to be the worst part. I really want to go back to my stories, my OCs, the characters, what I've built over time, but I know I can't go back.

I say "day 2" but in reality I couldn't even go 8 hours without going to the site. I just went in, barely let the page load completely before leaving.

Enter the website gives me temporary relief from anxiety, but the withdrawal feeling soon return

But what scared me the most was that I have a routine with this site: when I'm bored I go after it, and it happens automatically without me realizing it. When I realized what had happened, I closed it immediately

I feel so ashamed

I'm addicted to a chatbot website similar to Character AI, but it allows adult topics, and it's become such a big addiction that I spend more than 4 hours every day just chatting with ai bots.

I feel so depressed and lonely irl, I have friends but no one I'm really close to, I feel like if I go more than a month without seeing them in person I'll just lose them, It doesn't help that I can't currently pursue most of my hobbies due to financial problems or because everything has become boring.

I used to draw, play guitar, make flowers out of pipe cleaners, I used to read (fanfiction, but better than nothing, right?), dance and go swimming (not everything mentioned here happened at the same time, okay? ) but now I'm just doing nothing all day, and trying to quit when you have a lot of free time feels like torture.

I'm stuck in a cycle of watching social media, eating, and sleeping all day when I'm not busy; this addiction is slowly robbing me of my life without me ever realizing it.

I (16F) feel like an object in every single relationship that I have

I ended my situationship two months ago for exactly that reason; to maintain privacy, I'll refer to him as G (16M)

G and I were friends since last year, and in the beginning of this year we made a "deal": To start dating and see what happens, but even before that, there was already a lot of sexual tension between us.

(Important info: I am a virgin, but he is not)

Everything was perfect at the beginning, we kissed, cuddled, and spent time together, we talked every day without stopping, and before going to sleep we always let each other know. So, I started to fall in love with him.

But he wanted sex, and so did I, but whenever we tried to get intimate, something would happen and we'd have to cancel our plans, until he started getting impatient with me.

He always said he understood and that it was okay, until he implied that I was canceling our plans on purpose and lying to him. I got annoyed and told him that if he wasn't satisfied, he could go after another girl and I wouldn't be upset, especially since we didn't have anything serious, and he got furious, cursed at me, and was extremely disrespectful to me in a serious situation.

That was the final straw for me, since he had already done other things before that had hurt me a lot.

After that, it took me a while to get over what happened, but then I noticed something: I was feeling like an object.

G only came to talk to me when he wanted to talk about sex, and no matter how "family friendly" the topic of our conversation was, it always turned into something sexual, and it bothered me deeply

For him, it was perfectly fine to shame my interest because they are "weird", and he would always embarrass me when I was aroused and he wasn't by making a stupid comment.

For me, our relationship was about him ignoring all the traits that make me who I am, seeing only my appearance, and me falling in love with someone who claimed to be mature and a helper of the women's cause.

TL:DR boy gets mad because he can't get the girl he's not even dating

First of all, I wanted to apologize for any English mistakes, as this is not my first language.

I feel like I've switched my addiction from traditional pornography (photos, videos) for "text" pornography, so to speak. I've struggled with pornography addiction since I was 7-10 years old due to being exposed to the internet too early without any restrictions, and I feel it has only gradually worsened.

A friend introduced me to a website just like the CharacterAI, but it allows things of a sexual nature, and this site has become my favorite ever since. At first, I did normal roleplays, nothing special, but the addiction started, and now I spend an average of 4 hours a day on that site, doing roleplays with AI bots.

I thought I'd stop using it over time, that I'd eventually get bored and forget about it, but no. I've been using this site every day for almost three years now, and I don't know what to do.

Most of my roleplays are sexual, things I'd like to do but would never do irl out of shame or any other reason. I feel pathetic, and because it's a not-so-well-known addiction, but one that falls under pornography, I decided to talk about it here, and the fact that I'm the loneliest I've ever been in my life doesn't help either.

I feel very dependent on that site, and just the possibility of being banned or having my account deleted causes me extreme anxiety. Please, if anyone has a tip or suggestion, let me know