I used to love coloring and would make time to do it everyday. Well I’ve recently left a years long emotionally abusive relationship that stole a lot of my joy. I haven’t colored in 3 years, but I’ve made the time to sit at least a little everyday and color. It feels so good finding me again!
Stepping outside my comfort zone a bit, but maybe that’s where the good stuff lives.
I’m 37, bisexual, and looking for a genuine connection that could grow into a longterm relationship. I’m based in California, but I’m absolutely open to long distance if the connection is right. Gender isn’t what matters to me. Kindness, emotional intelligence, honesty, and communication do.
Life is serious enough, so I need someone who isn’t afraid to be completely ridiculous with me. I want the kind of relationship where we can have deep conversations one minute and be laughing over something unbelievably dumb the next.
I’m the kind of person who stops to smell flowers, rescues bees instead of swatting them, moves snails off sidewalks so they don’t get stepped on, and has literally stopped traffic to escort a family of geese safely across the road. I’ll always notice the dog before I notice the person walking it, and I find more joy in simple moments than expensive ones.
Music is part of who I am. If I fall in love with a song, it’ll be on repeat for days. Im a reader, though have been in a bit of a reading slump, I’m a creative soul, recharge in nature, and can spend way too much time admiring beautiful little things most people walk past.
I’m a huge nerd. My friends recently gifted me their old gaming pc and so I aspire to become an ok-ish gamer, but so far I have only really played Baldurs Gate 3, but I’d love to branch out into more games with someone. I play DND, MTG and I enjoy tabletop games. I love anything fantasy, sci-fi, paranormal and getting completely immersed in another world. Also a huge anime fan (currently 500 episodes into One Piece, so I don’t have an issue with commitment lol)
At the same time, I’m fascinated by true crime and horror movies…while also owning stuffed animals that all have names.
I’m somehow both light and dark…a gentle soul who’s endlessly curious about the macabre.
Think: the grim reaper riding a unicorn
I’m deeply empathetic, fiercely loyal, emotionally aware, and I tend to love with my whole heart. I’m looking for someone who wants a relationship where we feel safe being ourselves…where we communicate, support each other, flirt, laugh, and choose each other every day.
If you’re kind, emotionally available, a little goofy, and excited by the idea of building something healthy, I hope you’ll say hi.
Tell me something real…
What’s something that makes you stop and appreciate the world?
What’s the last song you accidentally listened to 37 times in a row?
What’s your favorite nerdy obsession?
And…if you had to describe yourself in one completely ridiculous sentence like “the Grim Reaper riding a unicorn,” what would it be?
Let’s skip “hey” and start with something memorable.
Stepping outside my comfort zone a bit, but maybe that’s where the good stuff lives.
I’m 37, bisexual, and looking for a genuine connection that could grow into a longterm relationship. I’m based in California, but I’m absolutely open to long distance if the connection is right. Gender isn’t what matters to me. Kindness, emotional intelligence, honesty, and communication do.
Life is serious enough, so I need someone who isn’t afraid to be completely ridiculous with me. I want the kind of relationship where we can have deep conversations one minute and be laughing over something unbelievably dumb the next.
I’m the kind of person who stops to smell flowers, rescues bees instead of swatting them, moves snails off sidewalks so they don’t get stepped on, and has literally stopped traffic to escort a family of geese safely across the road. I’ll always notice the dog before I notice the person walking it, and I find more joy in simple moments than expensive ones.
Music is part of who I am. If I fall in love with a song, it’ll be on repeat for days. Im a reader, though have been in a bit of a reading slump, I’m a creative soul, recharge in nature, and can spend way too much time admiring beautiful little things most people walk past.
I’m a huge nerd. My friends recently gifted me their old gaming pc and so I aspire to become an ok-ish gamer, but so far I have only really played Baldurs Gate 3, but I’d love to branch out into more games with someone. I play DND, MTG and I enjoy tabletop games. I love anything fantasy, sci-fi, paranormal and getting completely immersed in another world. Also a huge anime fan (currently 500 episodes into One Piece, so I don’t have an issue with commitment lol)
At the same time, I’m fascinated by true crime and horror movies…while also owning stuffed animals that all have names.
I’m somehow both light and dark…a gentle soul who’s endlessly curious about the macabre.
Think: the grim reaper riding a unicorn
I’m deeply empathetic, fiercely loyal, emotionally aware, and I tend to love with my whole heart. I’m looking for someone who wants a relationship where we feel safe being ourselves…where we communicate, support each other, flirt, laugh, and choose each other every day.
If you’re kind, emotionally available, a little goofy, and excited by the idea of building something healthy, I hope you’ll say hi.
Tell me something real…
What’s something that makes you stop and appreciate the world?
What’s the last song you accidentally listened to 37 times in a row?
What’s your favorite nerdy obsession?
And…if you had to describe yourself in one completely ridiculous sentence like “the Grim Reaper riding a unicorn,” what would it be?
Let’s skip “hey” and start with something memorable.
I’m in a really painful relationship situation and I don’t really have people in my life I can talk to about it, so I’m looking for outside support or perspective.
I’m not sure how to condense this so it’s not terribly long, but I’ll do my best. My boyfriend (36) and I (37) have been together almost 4 years. My boyfriend has repeatedly cheated on me over a long period of time (different apps/sites, multiple discoveries). On top of that, there has been a pattern of emotional and psychological harm in the relationship…including gaslighting, manipulation, emotional distance, and anger issues that make it hard to feel emotionally safe.
There is also a deep lack of emotional connection and care…very little affection, reassurance, communication, or emotional warmth. I feel emotionally starved in the relationship and like I’ve been slowly worn down over time.
I want to be clear that I understand this is harming me. I am not confused by that. The issue is that I feel trapped in it emotionally and practically. Financially limited (as I can’t really work because my mental health has deteriorated so much), mentally exhausted, and struggling significantly with my mental health (including Borderline Personality which he knows I have and have even explained the damage of him lying and cheating creates), which makes the emotional swings between anger, grief, attachment, and numbness very intense and hard to regulate.
I feel like I’ve been living in survival mode for a long time. I dissociate at times, and I notice I “normalize” things temporarily just to get through the day, even though nothing has actually changed.
I feel like I’ve lost a lot of myself, my stability, and my progress over time in this relationship. I feel like I’ve lost myself. I feel broken. And I’m angry at myself for allowing myself to stay in this…and weak for not feeling able to leave. I’m struggling even with basic day to day functioning.
I’m not necessarily looking for someone to tell me what to do, I already understand this isn’t healthy. I guess I’m looking for…
- support from people who’ve been through something similar
- perspective on how people managed leaving when they felt stuck
- reassurance that I’m not overreacting for being this emotionally affected
- and grounding advice for surviving while still in it
Please be kind, I’m in a really fragile place emotionally. And just to put this out there, yes, I am in weekly therapy and see a psychiatrist for medication.