[SCI-FI FICTION — PRAXIS ORBITAL] She boiled her own brain rather than let me erase her dead husband. I felt everything. — Extractor Elias, Personal Log
🎙️ [AUDIO LOG TRANSCRIPT — UNAUTHORIZED EXTRACTOR JOURNAL]
ISSUER: Extractor Elias [Class A - Sector 7]
TIMESTAMP: Four months prior to "The Virus Incident"
CASE REFERENCE: Tactical Extraction 219-F / Illegal Hardware Tampering
(The click of a thermal lighter is heard, followed by a deep inhalation. Elias’s voice sounds raspier than usual, with a slight tremor hitting the hard consonants.)
"My jaw hurts.
Acute bruxism has hypertrophied my masseter muscle. The ward physician prescribed muscle relaxants, but I don’t dare take them.
If I do, the chemistry will drop my guard, and I’ll taste the blood again.
Case 219-F. A structural maintenance worker from Ring Nine.
The widow of an industrial accident.
Her husband was crushed to death two months ago by a defective pneumatic blast door.
Protocol dictated the widow receive standard compensation, but Praxis deducted funeral expenses and the cleaning of the blast door from her balance.
She went into the red.
Tier Two Debt.
Qualified for a 60-month Preventive Cull.
She barricaded herself inside her residential module.
When Security overrode her magnetic locks and I walked in with the Lethe-X console, I found her sitting on the floor, clutching a grease-stained work shirt.
She didn't try to run.
She didn't scream.
She looked at me with a calm that felt ridiculous at the time, and said:
'Wipe my parents' names. Wipe my childhood. Wipe how to walk if you want to. But the last five years are the only ones I have with him. If you take them, you kill him twice.'
I explained to her, with the clinical patience drummed into me at the Academy, that the Corporate algorithm does not negotiate with sentimentality.
The last 60 months are extracted en bloc.
It’s the physics of data.
The two security Hounds strapped her into the chair.
I prepped the console's spinal needle.
I stepped behind her neck and jacked the 256-fiber tether into her Kael-V port.
I initiated extraction at maximum capacity.
Twelve Petabytes per second.
The system error was instantaneous.
The holographic screen flashed boiling red.
[SHORT CIRCUIT ALERT. REVERSE DATA-FLOW DETECTED].
I didn't have time to disconnect the console.
The woman had self-mutilated before we arrived.
She had melted copper filaments from a broken motor and injected them directly inside the connectors of her own cortical port.
A suicide jam.
When I initiated the magnetic extraction, the copper acted as a resistance amplifier and triggered a 'Cross-Flashback.'
The current didn't pull the memory out into the machine.
It bounced the trauma backward, straight up the tether and into me.
It was less than two seconds before my biometric suit’s firewall severed the physical connection, ejecting the needle from her neck.
But two seconds in neural cyberspace is an eternity of torture.
In those two seconds... I wasn't Extractor Elias.
I was her.
(Elias’s breathing stutters on the recording. Five seconds of absolute silence pass.)
I felt the freezing steel under her knees when they told her that her husband was puree beneath a two-hundred-ton door.
I felt the sharp agony in my chest, like a block of ice expanding through my ribs.
I cried her tears.
And the worst part...
I felt the love.
A love so sickeningly dense, so warm and desperate for a man with callused hands, that my brain, injected with stolen oxytocin, didn't know how to process it.
When the tether disconnected, I slammed backward against the module wall.
I bit my tongue so hard during the electrical shock that blood flooded my throat.
I stayed there, sprawled on the floor, spitting blood and weeping for a dead man who wasn't mine.
The widow, slumped in the chair, had smoke rising from her neck.
The copper had fused from the overload and cooked her brain stem.
She was dead.
She boiled her own brain in her skull just to protect her husband's memories.
The guards hauled me up, wiped the blood from my mouth, and called a janitorial crew to haul the biomass to the incinerator.
They asked if I was okay.
I told them the tether had malfunctioned.
Since that day, the taste of copper and blood has been stuck to the roof of my mouth.
At the Academy, they teach us that debtors lie.
That emotional attachment is a chemical fallacy, a primitive instinct humanity outgrew through data economics.
They teach us that memory is just a bank balance.
But if it’s just a bank balance...
why did that woman prefer to boil her brain rather than let me touch her grief?
There is something wrong with me.
I am processing data incorrectly.
Every time I look at my Lethe-X console, I don't see a financial tool anymore.
I see a screwdriver digging into the open wound of an animal.
I have to request a cache wipe.
If the corporation realizes that widow’s memory left an empathetic footprint on my cortex...
they’re going to hollow me out.
End log."
END OF AUDIO FILE.