u/No_Pain_No_Gain77

I am willing to bet that a lot of you are on a journey of self-discovery. You've probably spent too much time watching YouTube videos about how to change your identity, the habits that you must incorporate into your life, and having to hustle relentlessly to achieve your goals. But why did you keep watching more of those videos? If they truly worked to get you to do what you've always wanted to do, wouldn't one or two videos be enough?

They tell you to take your pain and trauma and channel it into the drive to achieve your goals. Yet they don't realize that the trauma is what is preventing you from taking that leap. Think of the concept like a cake. You have multiple layers; at the bottom is the first layer, which is your true self that is trauma-free, and in the middle is a very thick layer of stone, which is your trauma. These influencers are telling you that you must create a new identity using that trauma and create a third layer on top of the trauma layer. No matter how much frosting, toppings, and whipped cream you put on that third layer, you will not be able to ignore the middle layer once you try to enjoy that cake and take a bite.

You will always return to that middle layer; that trauma will always be there if you do not take action and remove that layer from your life. You cannot forcibly bite your way through that layer of stone and discover your true self that is hiding underneath. That is why you must lay down, surrender, shake, and let it go. Do not fall into the trap that those YouTubers are trying to sell you. You might feel like this process takes too long and that nothing is happening, but I promise that something is happening. You just have to have patience, trust the process, and believe 100% that you will be where you want to be.

Hello everyone. So, I started my TRE journey on June 22 and did my 40th session on August 20. I just want to quickly go over how I discovered TRE, I'll also share about my past so that you can get a good idea of what my life has been like this past decade and a half.

(Just a heads up, Semen Retention will be mentioned in this post, but its needed so that I can tell my story)

So initially, before I started TRE, I had been on the journey of Semen Retention for the past 8 years, and when I say 8 years, I mean that I have been struggling for 8 years without even reaching 3 weeks. I was 14 back then when I started, and I had been addicted since 8 years old. I am 22 now. The reason why I started on that journey was because I saw a youtube video talking about it, and it mentioned all of the problems that I have been plagued with, such as social anxiety, brain fog, lethargy, and low self confidence.

I didn't know it at the time but I was about to waste 8 years of my life struggling to do something that I was not ready for. If I look back on these past 8 years, I can confidently say that my addiction to PMO (Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm) did not get any better; in fact, it got exponentially worse. All that I was trying to do was build a better life for myself so that I don't feel such crippling social anxiety that I am unable to properly function in society, or feel an extreme lack of self confidence to where I am unable to take necessary decisions to secure my future.

Anytime that I would manage to cut myself off from this addiction for 1 to 2 weeks, I would find myself literally sweating, trying to fight off the urges. Of course, it always ends in failure. I tried everything everybody else in that community recommended. Perhaps I need to workout more, focus on making money, not be in the house most of the day. I tried all of it, and I always fell back.

Then, I happened to come across a post from u/Nadayogi last year that piqued my interest (You can find the post in rule 7 of this sub). I was a master procrastinator back then, so I bookmarked that post and totally forgot about it. Fast forward to June of this year, I came across a comment in the SR sub from u/jellybean_merchant talking about how pointless SR is, and I was reminded again of the practice of TRE. The difference this time is that I was desperate enough to actually get it started. This is how I am where I am today.

Now, I am no expert in trauma, but I'll give you the rundown of what my childhood has been like. From the age of 5 to the age of 14, I moved countries 4 times, and moved schools 6 times. Constantly changing environments, people, and interactions, I had to adapt and deal with the nervousness every time. I made new 'friends' and new bullies. Was the bullying excessive? Not really, but it was enough to affect me. I became insecure about myself, always thinking that there were things wrong with me. Eventually, those insecurities activated anger within me, and I have had severe anger issues from 14 onwards. That was the only way I felt that I could get respect from others in school, if I was angry, and made the other kids fear me, I would get what I couldn't when I was nice. I even had the police called on me at one point, and from then on, everyone's behavior made a 180. Even the teachers tried to be extra nice, asking how I feel everyday, if there is anything that I need or want, etc.

Obviously, this was not the right way to go, and I still had the anger inside me, I would constantly be self-soothing with metal music, and that would get me through every hardship in my life. I just constantly felt low vibrational, dealing with addiction and emotional turmoil left me a husk of my younger self. I don't know if all of this counts as a form of trauma but you guys let me know. Anyway, this all brings me to TRE and the progress I have made so far.

At first, I was skeptical of the practice, but I went in with an open mind and was very patient with myself. After the first session, I felt calmer than I probably have felt in years, there was also these brief moments of bliss and enjoyment that would go away as soon as they came. I stopped feeling bliss after a couple weeks of practice anyway but the calm feeling has been a constant after every session. I experimented a lot with the pacing. I tried 3 times a week for 10 to 20 minutes, which went fine; then I upped it to every day, which became too much, as I found myself having to put more effort into breathing throughout the day. I then settled on 5 times a week for 3 weeks, and everything went smoothly up until sessions 26 to 38.

I keep a journal of every session, so I am aware of what is going on. Around session 26, my sexual energy spiked. I was porn-free for 3 weeks at this time, but I was still masturbating and orgasming as recommended by u/Nadayogi. After session 26, I lost control. I fell back into porn, and I was finding myself having to orgasm at least 3 to 5 times a day. I actually think I spent more time in the bathroom than I did outside of it on those days. This was a constant until TRE session #38 when I decided to take a break from TRE for a week as I was finding it harder and harder to trigger the tremors. It would take longer to activate the tremors, and it still does. I increased the time in the butterfly position with my pelvis off the floor and this makes the activation way easier. I also forgot to mention, every self improvement habit that I have been doing prior to TRE has been halted, this includes exercise, reading, meditation, etc. Because I just don't have the capacity to do those things. The only thing I have left for now is work but that's because I have to.

So what is my goal with TRE? Well, I hope that a few years down the line, TRE makes me naturally stop my PMO addiction. I wish to continue my spiritual journey and actually incorporate semen retention as part of my practice when my body is ready for it once I clear my blockages. I just want my past to be behind me and to move on with my life. 14 years of this mess is enough; I have had enough.

I love IOS 6 and below more than any version after. However, I am having a hard time choosing whether I should get an iphone 4, or an ipod touch 4g. I am aware of potential problems that might come with either device, like a dead battery, but I am still willing to take the risk in order to get my hands on one even if the price is absurd

Finally got something new that I can rock with in the car

TMZ, the same outlet that "broke the news" that Sid was fired from Slipknot, located him in public and asked him if.....he was fired from Slipknot? Sounds to me like TMZ is on some bullshit. Then, when they didn't get a reply from Sid, they were like Sooo anyway, Sid was fired from Slipknot

Nobody knows anything about what is happening. It could be the same as with previous firings, or it could be something more serious. Maybe they aren't firing him, but he needs serious help with something personal going on in his life. Perhaps it's a drug problem, and they're doing an intervention to avoid the same mistake that happened with Paul. Or maybe there is some serious legal stuff going on. We don't know if any side is in the wrong, or who potentially did what. Just hope for the best and pray that it's nothing too horrendous.

Every time I look through the subreddit and find a success story, it always comes with the same generic advice on how they made it as far as they did. But does anyone else feel like it works for everyone else but not yourself? Like, I've basically tried everything under the sun to try and quit (I've been trying to quit for 8 years), and I have never even made it to 3 weeks. It honestly makes me angry how things that work for others, never works for me and I always end up going back into binging and relapsing 5 times in 24 hours. I am at a point where I'm ready to stop "trying" to actively quit because I am now convinced that there is something more "spiritual" going on that is not letting me hold on to my energy for long before I blow up into a relapse frenzy. No matter how much physical exercise I do, or how much productive work I bury myself in, I always find myself back where I started. I even found myself involuntarily relapsing while I was bench pressing. This is not normal and I need another way

I am going to bet my 2 cents and say that the person Silva was talking about wasn't that worm fodder, or Shen, or any of the ones officially in the tournament. Louhan is lurking around

For me, it was P2. It was March 2020, and I was a junior in high school. It was the last period of the day and the last school day before lockdowns. We were all sitting in class listening to the album while the teacher had the news on because they were announcing closures. P2 was blasting while a couple more teachers came into the room, saying that this would be the last day in person. It was surreal. It felt like the album was made to close out the pre covid era 😂