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This isn't sarcasm, creeps stay away.

This isn't sarcasm creeps stay away

This isn't sarcasm creeps stay away.

This isn't sarcasm, creeps stay away just scroll.

This isn't sarcasm, creeps stay away.

I’m 20M from India and I honestly feel like I live a double life sometimes. I’m straight, but I also really enjoy being feminine sometimes — clothes, aesthetics, energy, the whole “soft boy/femboy” vibe. Other times I’m completely masculine. I joke that I’m a shapeshifter lol.

The hard part is that I don’t think Indian society is kind to people like me at all. I don’t want to “come out” publicly because I genuinely don’t have the mental energy to deal with harassment, s***shaming, family drama, or people turning me into gossip material. So I’ll probably stay closeted forever IRL.

But at the same time… I still want a normal happy life. I want friends. I want a girlfriend someday who accepts both sides of me. I want to exist peacefully without feeling like I have to constantly hide parts of myself.

I’m also very introverted and I struggle making friends in general. Most people around me feel emotionally closed off or very judgmental about gender expression.

Sometimes I wonder if there are other people in India living quietly. Like… not trying to be influencers or activists or anything. Just normal people trying to survive, have fun, and be loved without society making everything weird.

Can anyone relate? Or does anyone have advice on finding accepting friendships/relationships while still staying private?

I’m 20M from India and I honestly feel like I live a double life sometimes. I’m straight, but I also really enjoy being feminine sometimes — clothes, aesthetics, energy, the whole “soft boy/femboy” vibe. Other times I’m completely masculine. I joke that I’m a shapeshifter lol.

The hard part is that I don’t think Indian society is kind to people like me at all. I don’t want to “come out” publicly because I genuinely don’t have the mental energy to deal with harassment, s***shaming, family drama, or people turning me into gossip material. So I’ll probably stay closeted forever IRL.

But at the same time… I still want a normal happy life. I want friends. I want a girlfriend someday who accepts both sides of me. I want to exist peacefully without feeling like I have to constantly hide parts of myself.

I’m also very introverted and I struggle making friends in general. Most people around me feel emotionally closed off or very judgmental about gender expression.

Sometimes I wonder if there are other people in India living quietly. Like… not trying to be influencers or activists or anything. Just normal people trying to survive, have fun, and be loved without society making everything weird.

Can anyone relate? Or does anyone have advice on finding accepting friendships/relationships while still staying private?