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I’ve been reading the walking dead. Probably the most important death korps book in wh40k, and a big theme is that the death korps aren’t inhuman, just dehumanized.

One of the main characters, commissar costellin, says it outright, and the theme is explored several times. Like, when a grenadier takes off his mask, revealing a normal-looking young man.

The book goes further to show this, when the death korps are revealed to not be cloned. When he visited their homeworld, he saw several bunkers full of civilians, all women, all with with children.

This idea of them being real, feeling people underneath the masks is something I haven’t seen anywhere in stuff about the Krieg, outside of krieger in paridise. I have a feeling allot of casual Krieg fans don’t know about this, seeing them as just “the funny shovel guys” or “the gas mask guys”

I’m just looking to start a discussion and hear thoughts. I started loosing drive to read at chapter 14 and I’m hoping this can make me want to finish the book.

Edit: this is actually the main reason I love the Krieg, that, no matter how much they try to deny it, each one of them is a real, thinking and feeling human, suppressing themselves to the point of being machines. That, despite their martyrdom, are capable of sadness, anger, and joy, if only they’d let themselves

Starting off, I, (17m) have diagnosed ocd. It’s bad enough that I take medication to help with it. My parents, (52m) and (52f) aren’t the best at understanding how to help me. Sometimes, when I’m overwhelmed, stuck in a spiral of triggers, or am even just really frustrated, I need things to be quiet. Being alone lets me sort out my thoughts and fix whatever’s bothering me on my own. If someone tries to talk to me, get me to explain, do, or sympathize at all, it restarts everything and stresses me out more.

My parents aren’t good at understanding this. I’ve stressed to them multiple times that I need absolute silence, because more than anything, human voices disrupt me the most. Even then, they insist on speaking non stop, trying to help, to get me to understand what I’m doing (which I do, I’m the one doing it) try to do and say anything they can to help, especially if it’s disrupting my life. This often results in them talking me into a hole as I clutch my head and scream for silence, worrying them more.

They do this entirely out of love and concern, but both of them have their own problems. My mum has bad anxiety that often makes her act without thinking, and my dad has ocd of his own. Both act rashly when out of their depth, and can’t see how their own actions soon become the only thing troubling me. They just can’t NOT speak, even if it’s pointless reaffirmation or saying sorry, the repeated speaking stresses me more and more.

The most confusing part, is that, time and again, as soon as they give up, I’m back to normal in minutes. Even so, they can’t connect their actions (which I am specifically repeating to them, are harmful) are negatively effecting me. They always say they’re just trying to help.

I love them dearly, but this is a recurring problem and I can’t keep spiralling into breakdowns because on them.

This is kind of a vent post but advice would be great. How do you all communicate your needs to people

Starting off, I, (17m) have diagnosed ocd. It’s bad enough that I take medication to help with it. My parents, (52m) and (52f) aren’t the best at understanding how to help me. Sometimes, when I’m overwhelmed, stuck in a spiral of triggers, or am even just really frustrated, I need things to be quiet. Being alone lets me sort out my thoughts and fix whatever’s bothering me on my own. If someone tries to talk to me, get me to explain, do, or sympathize at all, it restarts everything and stresses me out more. My parents aren’t good at understanding this. I’ve stressed to them multiple times that I need absolute silence, because more than anything, human voices disrupt me the most. Even then, they insist on speaking non stop, trying to help, to get me to understand what I’m doing (which I do, I’m the one doing it) try to do and say anything they can to help, especially if it’s disrupting my life. This often results in them talking me into a hole as I clutch my head and scream for silence, worrying them more. They do this entirely out of love and concern, but both of them have their own problems. My mum has bad anxiety that often makes her act without thinking, and my dad has ocd of his own. Both act rashly when out of their depth, and can’t see how their own actions soon become the only thing troubling me. They just can’t NOT speak, even if it’s pointless reaffirmation or saying sorry, the repeated speaking stresses me more and more. The most confusing part, is that, time and again, as soon as they give up, I’m back to normal in minutes. Even so, they can’t connect their actions (which I am specifically repeating to them, are harmful) are what was causing the problem, always insisting they were trying to help. Is it because they love me and want to help? Yes. Is it actively harmful to my mental heath? Yes. But whether love or narrow perspective is causing this, it needs to stop. I love them dearly but I can’t keep spiralling into breakdowns because of them. This is really more of a vent post but any suggestions would be great