u/Objective_Horror_793

Without you, food tasted like chalk,

The sun never shone in my direction,

And the world was harsh, and dull.

You, my love, are my reprieve. 

The food I eat is rich,

The sun kisses my shoulders,

And, the world is bright with laughter. 

You, my love, are my laughter, my sun, and my sustenance. 

When you are sick, I will tend to you,

When you cannot walk, I will carry you,

And when you cry, I will cry with you. 

You, my love, are my fire, my strength, and my medicine. 

For as long as I can remember, I have always been extremely out of place, lonely, and hopeless, until fairly recently.

I have a lot of mental health issues and I've been in and out of therapy since I was maybe 9 or 10. I'm 21 now and things have really changed for me. I find it easier to make friends, I'm wiser, and more aware, and I mostly attribute this to a few things/qualities of myself.

1. I push myself to do things that are uncomfortable. I was severely bullied in highschool which lead me to become homeschooled. After a year of that I entered community college. I had to wean myself onto social interaction again, gradually. It SUCKED, but it was worth it and necessary. I pushed myself to talk to people in class and in clubs.

2. I got on the right medication. It genuinely made such a difference! Be honest if you need help, your doctor wants to do right by you.

3. I got older. I gained autonomy and I'm able to choose what course of action to take. It really makes a difference in the confidence I have in myself. Also, everything really does feel less intense then it did as a teenager. I gained perspective.

Because of these reasons, I have a wonderful long term relationship, I have quite a few genuinely good friends, I have a job, and I am even going into grad school in the fall! I'm pretty happy with where I'm at.

Don't give up! Keep trying!

I have two and they're healthy, they have a log to hide in and plenty of dirt to burrow in. I gave them a shallow water dish to help maintain the humidity and they are obsessed. 9/10 I find them hanging out by it. Do I need to increase the humidity or something? The water dish is very shallow btw no risk of drowning.

She died yesterday and I just got the call about it an hour ago. They told me she died suddenly and didn't know the cause yet. She wasn't elderly or anything, just middle aged. I always thought I would have to find a new therapist because she would retire, not die. I'm feeling very sorry for her family, she had two adopted teenagers. Now they're orphans twice over.

She had been my therapist for 7 years. From 15 years old to last week.

I sent my psychiatrist a message asking for in network referrals.

I really clicked with my therapist and she was a really important part of my life and growth.

She also inspired me to go to grad school, i want to be a therapist myself.

She liked horses and animals. I don't really believe in an afterlife but if I did I would hope she was doing something she'd enjoy somewhere not on earth. Maybe riding horses somewhere.