u/Objective_Piece6427

absolutely floored by this song ..

[Part I]

[Verse]
My mirror so much more beautiful than I
Trippin' like shoelaces, we're tied
To remain soulless for a while
I'll be a joke to make you smile
Growing so old, get sick and die
They look a little old, we're sick of time
Ticking around and round and round
No one notices my cries
And no one cares if I am kind
So if I was mindless, it's the fine
If we come back like less next time
Or is it hopeless seeking help
Or is my selflessness not right
Am I just egotistic now?
Doing just a little takes a lot
But what is left if we do not?
Is it supposedly enough
To do bare minimum a lot?
You're a wound, oh, just a scab
Something just meaningful and bad
We were both beautiful and sad
If only both of us had had
You're a wound, oh, just a scab
Something both meaningful and bad
We were both beautiful and sad
If only both of us had had

Segue]
I'm thinkin', oh
I'm thinking, no distraction
I'm drinkin', oh
I'm thinking, no distraction
Tell me, kind person, could you help me?
I have found myself becoming so selfish
I hyperfocus on my own affliction (I'm thinkin', I'm thinkin')
Thus manifesting what isn't
Oh kind stranger, I fear I am now in danger, and
I fear I can't take it much longer
Only the kindness of a stranger can help me save her
Princess of my devotion, for you are across the ocean

[Part II]

[Intro]
Disgusting
Pathetic

[Verse]
Where fear flowers, I cannot
Under the dark and permafrost
Waiting to fly tonight, a raven
Waiting to hear the ultimatum
Just about to late to stop
Just in time to try, but not
Into your arms and not the vacant
Into a time of contemplation
Despite many brave attempts
Can't escape the depths of death
Could this shame be all I got
From all these years of work, for what?
All this love became frustration
All of the gold turns so degrading
Everything was once not this
Nothing left to lose or risk

[Interlude]
What if I can't win over next time?
What if I can't win next time?
I can't win next time
I can't, I can't (Oh-oh)
I can't (Oh)
What if
What if next time I never come out the other side? (Oh, oh)

[Outro]
The lesson is between
The rest is history
Our stories in the sky
Ignites a golden shrine
If I could find the way tonight
To find the energy to fight
Then I would search until I die
Because of you, my only light
If I could find the way tonight
To find the energy to fight
Then I would search until I die
Because of you, my only light
Our stories in the sky
Ignites a golden shrine
If I could find the way tonight
To find the energy to fight
Then I would search until I die
Because of you, my only light
If I could find the way tonight
To find the energy to fight
Then I would search until I die
Because of you, my only light
Destroy
Crush them
Destroy, destroy
Crush them

We had known each other for over 2 years, he moved to Chicago, we reconnected and dated for 8+ months. He told me I was the love of his life, he told me he never had feelings for someone like this. He and I talked daily, facetimed and watched movies every night. We also fell asleep to a movie together each night. We had plans to be together, we made each other so happy and we had a relationship ship that was deeply sensitive and emotional, helping each other grow as individuals. 3 days ago he broke up with me over TEXT. Then blocked me on every social media app, including like spotify? He has never done this with anyone. Knowing how much it would hurt me but I did not fight back even though it was so unexpected and painful. We had just been together 2 days prior. We had plans and I grew close with his friends and family as I would be i. Chicago almost every other weekend. I was planning to move to chicago as I fell in love with the city. I can’t describe how out of character this is and betrayed I feel.

It feels so immature, he is 31M and i’m 27F. It hurts now but I still have big dreams regarding my music career and job growth and I have never felt more at home in a city than Chicago. I won’t let this stop me from moving there, and being apart of the amazing communities there. I feel hurt but hopeful.. But i just can’t believe someone so sensitive and considerate did something as cruel as this, didn’t even give me the closure or respect and i’ll never know why. Has anyone gone through this? I would like to know why

i won’t forget the love and friendship i received and shared with my best friend and now ex boyfriend (i guess?) it’s so hard to believe this happened. He broke up over text and told me to move on and that he didn’t want me to text him. This was so shocking and unexpected and heartbreaking truly. I respected that and i did not reply, as much as i wanted to. Now i’ve been not just been unfollowed but also blocked on everything. I don’t know why? I just wish i could have answers, or a goodbye. I feel abandoned. I know you can’t hold on to anything in life, and I will always appreciate what was. It’s only been 4 days since our last conversation and I guess that was our last, and he never wants to talk again. We had plans… idk i’m just wishing i could skip forward to when i feel better. any advice…?

I’ve (27 F) had trust issues and fear of abandonment since i unexpectedly lost both my parents at the age of 21 and 25. I found the love of my life and I’ve pushed them away with my trust issues and it’s now over. I said hurtful impulsive things. I regret everything deeply. I am devastated and destroyed, but I am letting them leave peacefully. I admit to all my faults and shortcomings, and have done enough self reflection in a day to last a lifetime. I know there is an unhealed, grieving part of me. I just never thought it would manifest into actions that I don’t even recognize. I want to be loving self, and I am devoted to never stop until I make sure that is resolved. I am in therapy, I am mindful, but my deep thoughts and feelings no longer feel like ny greatest asset, but my worst enemy. Now, I have lost my boyfriend and I feel so terrible. I still want to have hope and it’s getting hard. I believe anyone can change, and I give grace to so many people but myself. How do I move forward, and not completely shut down? I have had an infinite amount of traumatic experiences, including the loss of my beloved parents, abortion, abandonment in all of my relationships, etc. I am scared of becoming a shell of a person. I feel so alone and like my life is crumbling. I’m so sorry for the hurt I caused, and I love everyone in my life so deeply. I am so scared of falling into a guilt and shame cycle, and I just want to be strong and better. I know i am always growing and use every moment of sadness as fuel for growth. I can grow and transform, as i’ve done in the past but this time i’ve gone to far and don’t have hope for the future. Help?