u/Obviously-Squirrel

I've been single my whole life and I thought the grass was greener on the other side, seeing posts in this sub makes me feel like it is a life long battle

I don't have any female cousins or siblings. From childhood even in school( although it is a co-ed) I haven't really spoken with gurls main reason being low self esteem. I don't even know why I have been having low esteem in the first place.

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I am not concerned about not having a girlfriend, it is more basic that I don't know how to make friends with a woman or interact comfortably with them.

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I am concerned that the lack of experience will affect my chances of getting a life partner and even if I find one( I am from India we have arranged marriage systems) I feel she would dislike me for the same.

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Also:

when I talk to male friends, I always joke about myself so I point out my flaw before they could. I feel like it hurts less. This is the only style of conversation I know and maybe I am hesitant to follow this with women is why I have a prblem?

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I can't even take a compliment. Every compliment feels like a confusion of whether they are actually complimenting or is it sarcasm

I don't have any female cousins or siblings. From childhood even in school( although it is a co-ed) I haven't really spoken with gurls main reason being low self esteem. I don't even know why I have been having low esteem in the first place.

​

I am not concerned about not having a girlfriend, it is more basic that I don't know how to make friends with a woman or interact comfortably with them.

​

I am concerned that the lack of experience will affect my chances of getting a life partner and even if I find one( I am from India we have arranged marriage systems) I feel she would dislike me for the same