u/Odd-Way6406

It has been years, and I've waited, but nothing has happened. I don't understand why you keep waiting for me if you aren't going to do anything. If you've been quietly watching me all this time, know that I've noticed you too.

There's something I need to tell you. I've been diagnosed with a disease, and it has changed the way I look at life. I don't want you to keep waiting for me because I know there may come a day when it's simply too late.

Please move on. Find someone who can give you the future you've always dreamed of. Get married, build a family, and live a happy life. I don't want to remain just your "long-time crush," the person who makes you smile whenever you see me or hear my voice, but never becomes part of your life.

If you never intended to approach me, then please stop asking people about me. We both deserve the chance to move forward instead of living in "what ifs."

I live in a mountainous region. Developed naman na dito so hindi talaga yung pang off-roading. Pero oo, nasa list ko rin yung pang off roading na sasakyan. Someone suggested a Suzuki S-Presso. Nakita ko na siya and cute naman. Yes, nasabi ko yan kasi girl ako. Gusto ko rin yung maganda yung itsura ng car. Do I also need to consider what tires ang pwede? Meron narin akong nakikitang nag eev dito. Dati I am considering buying a second hand car pero napansin ko 2 cousins ko panay napupunta sa repair shop yung mga kotse nila and yoko nun and wala din akong time sa ganun because I work from home and demanding yung work sched ko. Inuna niyo ba yung driver license niyo before you bought your car? And yun narin yung pampractice niyo? KAsi my driving lessons naman and they have cars naman for students. Gusto ko rin sana yung maliit lang na car, kung pwede yung pagong, wala na atang ganun or yung mr. bean car since I am stil starting.

Sa dami ng bayarin. I feel na parang wala na akong life—siguro ilang oras lang, tapos matutulog pa ako. Masaya na ako kung makakatulog pa ako nang mahaba, pero pag nag-extend ako ng sleep, I feel like sinayang ko ang oras ko. That's because ako lahat. Sabihin natin nung mayaman ako, I can afford a maid pero mother ko, puro nalang wag daw kasi you can't trust a stranger, and siya nalang, so I fed her and gave her allowance para she can also enjoy since she is taking care of my son at that time. Pero napansin ko, medyo naiinis pa siya noon kasi hindi niya gustong mag-alaga ng bata. When I lost my job, and I got sick, she blamed me because nagagamit niya yung pension niya, which I paid for her nung mayaman pa ako. When I was healing, I finally started to work again. She also blamed me for stealing her food, nung sinabi niya na magkanya-kanya na kami. Nagulat ako kasi hindi naman siya ganoon dati sa akin. And sinisingil niya ako, so nung bumalik ulit ako sa work, wala akong magawa but to give her money. Ako ang lahat noong mayaman ako, pati credit card niya, ako ang nagbabayad. Magpapaalam pa siya kung puwede bumili ng ganito , ganyan sa akin, since mama ko siya, oo lang ako nang oo basta masaya siya. Anyway, I never knew my father, but I'll meet him soon because someone told me that I can soon see him. Yun nalang siguro ang gift ko sa sarili ko kasi nung nagbago yung mama ko, parang hindi ko na siya kilala. Masakit dun she lied to me, sabi niya patay na daw si papa. Pero I know hindi siya patay. I have been searching for him for years.