Doubt
To start, I grew up in a very religious Islamic household. My dad usually had answers to all of my doubts about Islam, but now that I am growing up, I have more and more questions. When there’s no answer, my family immediately says, “You can’t question God.” I’ve always been fascinated by religion and how people have faith, even though many aspects of Abrahamic religions are very controversial.
Regarding Islam, from what I’ve read and know, the more I educate myself, the more I see that women do not have the same rights as men. I believe this is why Muslim men create rules and regulations for women it’s because of the religion itself allowing it.
Aside from this, about LGBTQ topics I understand that in Islam, you can’t support it but should respect it. However, this respect doesn’t really exist, especially in ethnic households. No one cares; they’re very judgmental about LGBTQ and treat it with disgust. Once again, they justify this with “The story of Lut.”
Another story that baffled me is the story of Maria the Copt. The relationship between Maria and Mohammed made me even more curious. Regarding men being allowed to marry women from the book, but women not having the same right I asked a professional for their opinion. They said, “It affects the lineage of the child.” Okay, but what if a woman marries a non-religious man or a man from another religion and doesn’t want children? The response was, “Women are more prone to being influenced by their partner rather than men.” So, if it’s about lineage and the child carrying on the father’s religion, how come millions of children grow up to change their religion? And if you have a son who changes his religion, won’t his children end up taking their father’s religion? It just doesn’t make sense to me.
I don’t want to label myself, but I need answers. I’ve received many, but more questions keep popping into my head more doubts and no clear answers or logical ones either.